composing hallelujah

  did he who made the lamb make me?  

[nonmiracle-blog]

do you see those bricks, falling one after the other? do you see the turned down heads, the scared eyes of the masses as they hurry past? do you see the child’s hand grip tighter, feet scurrying to catch up to her mother. as if she could protect her. as if she could WARD OFF the demons at play. but WHO IS SHE TO DECIDE WHAT MUST BE HIDDEN? who is she to decide what is an act against God? she has no right. she has no power. SO THE QUESTION IS:who are we protecting? us? or them?    //   PERCIVAL GRAVES. WRITTEN BY ZAM. NOT SPOILER FREE.

[nonmiracle-blog]

do you see those bricks, falling one after the other? do you see the turned down heads, the scared eyes of the masses as they hurry past? do you see the child’s hand grip tighter, feet scurrying to catch up to her mother. as if she could protect her. as if she could WARD OFF the demons at play. but WHO IS SHE TO DECIDE WHAT MUST BE HIDDEN? who is she to decide what is an act against God? she has no right. she has no power. SO THE QUESTION IS:who are we protecting? us? or them?    //   PERCIVAL GRAVES. WRITTEN BY ZAM. NOT SPOILER FREE.

[faithfooled-blog]

RULES //  repost, don’t reblog ; fill in the questions with characters your muse knows.

TAGGED BY: @faithfails TAGGING: ... who hasn’t been tagged.

Person they can’t live without:  honestly at this point it’s probably jiwook. Person who never fails to make them smile: jiwook. leo. Person they feel safe to be vulnerable around: jiwook. junsu. seven. Person they want to spend their life with: unsure Person they feel the need to protect: jiwook. junsu. Person they are afraid to be rejected by: everyone Person they’d take shit from & not mind: runner. Person they wouldn’t hesitate to kill: anyone assigned to him, if he has to. mostly doesnt believe in killing and only does so if manipulated to. dissociates when he turns violent so almost never remembers doing so. Person they never expected to like but now they do: junsu. Person they feel they were betrayed by: rika. his parents. Person they respect but do not like: no one. Person they feel they have failed: v. jiwook. seven. rika. god. his parents. himself. everyone, basically.

[faithfooled-blog]

okay lksten im actually cryin over hyeon owning up to his shit bc he’s finally reached that state where he’s like fuck. fuck im not good. im not supposed to do this shit. this isnt fair. and thats like a HUGE FUCKING LEAP FOR HIM considering where he began ??? but then there’s the issue of him questioning his identity aka his angelkin status and now he sees himself as something to be dispised and killed. he’s just. broken. he loved life before but now he fucked up and he asked for too much and took too much too fast because he’s greedy. he’s a greedy kid who longs for that he cannot have and doesnt realise his own mistakes off the bat. and when he finally sees them he usually ignores it, usually gets a hit or gets drunk and thinks nothing can hurt him. not this, not that, not anything because he is above them all. because he is divine. and now he’s not. he’s not and he’s breaking and he’s falling apart at this seams but tHIS IS HIS CHANCE TO BE SEWN BACK TOGETHER AGAIN INTO SOMEONE BETTER PLS HELP MY SON AND HIS REDEMPTION.

[faithfooled-blog]

❝What happened to us?❞ #whoops

SENTENCE MEME.

IS THERE A WORD FOR THE CHILL THAT SEEMS TO EAT AT HIS BONES THE MOMENT THOSE WORDS ARE SPOKEN? is there a word able to be spoken by mortal tongue to describe the way body goes numb, sharp not - truly - pain radiating through his limbs? is there a word universally understood to capture the idea of long - fought claws finally, finally, catching at your throat?is there a word for growing gradually, letting life fill you with a hunger nothing earthbound may fill, and suddenly, as if in a collision of sorrow   /   regret   /   loneliness, have it all drain away until you live within a decaying shell?that’s all that’s left   ;   the dead branches of his soul sway in the breeze, his sins no longer able to be forgiven. ( FORGIVE ME FATHER, FOR I HAVE ASKED TOO MUCH. )

a quiet moment, mind unwilling to process. ( IGNORE IT, HYEON, IGNORE IT ! ) but has he truly ever ignored the other? has he ever denied jiwook that of his wants, his needs, his desires? there is something to be said for the sorrow they each hold, stories never told but always written in the scars they hid but let each other see. HE KNOWS THAT’S LOVE. he knows it. he’s said it enough times. but now there is a flame unable to be extinguished, something rooted deep within the soil of his dirty   /   disgusting   /   worthless soul. it tells him he deserves more, tells him HE IS NOTHING SHORT OF THE KING UPON THE THRONE OF THE GODS, GOLDEN CITY OPENED FOR ALL TO WORSHIP. is that why he had welcomed others so easily? because he cannot turn down his own incessant needs for the sake of another? for the sake of the man he loves?he’s changed. he knows he has. ( HOW COULD ANYONE BE BLIND TO SUCH A THING? ) he has watched as nails turned to claws, watched as halo shattered slowly above his head, his eyes darker, darker, darker, darker. he is no angel. he is no divine creature sent to uphold the idea of a paradise for all. he is no messiah   ;   he is lucifer, cast down and sentenced to wallow in the temptation that is the mortal realm. he is a man of deceit & disguise & relapse. there was never a God, was there? THERE WAS NEVER A LOVE EITHER.he doesn’t believe that. he can’t. he loves jiwook too much to let him go. ( HOW SELFISH YOU HAVE BECOME, HYEON. )this is what it has come to, isn’t it? this is the point where they break or they rise. ( HE WISHES HE WERE THE ANGEL WHO HAS PROMISED TO CARRY THIS CHILD TO PARADISE. )

       ‘   too much.   ‘   quiet. so quiet. this isn’t like him. THIS ISN’T THEIR PROPHET. he is no longer holy but tarnished   ;   a ring cast aside once the rust began to be realised. he is not good. he is not pure. he is a demon   ;   a monster clothed in the skin of innocents and decorated with a voice of the angelic.( PLEASE. CALL ME YOUR ANGEL ONCE MORE. )   ‘   yet i still love you. i’m so sorry i broke my promise. i’m so sorry i ever hurt you.  ‘   ( PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE REDEEM ME ! )

[faithfooled-blog]

❝Fucking idiot…❞

SENTENCE MEME

OH HOW HE WISHES TO LAUGH ALOUD WITHIN THIS CHILD’S FACE, wishes to bend   /   kneel in her presence if only to mock her disgusting   /   vulgar   /   disrespectful tone. time has changed him, his habits. where once he would have been angered, fire consuming his breath as if a dragon set to see the world he loves burn, burn, burn, burn                   !where once he was DESOLATION he is now ABSOLUTION.( THIS IS WHAT IT MEANS TO BE HOLY ! )

            ‘   do not speak so ill of those you DO NOT KNOW, my child.   ‘   WHO KNOWS WHO THE DEVIL MAY BE?

[historindies]

cruel intentions → sentence meme

[wilotus]

historindies

CONTAINS GRAPHIC LANGUAGE AND SEXUAL REFERENCES

❝You amaze me.❞

❝God forbid I exude confidence and enjoy sex.❞

❝Do you think I relish the fact that I have to act like Mary Sunshine 24/7 so I can be considered a lady?❞

❝I’m the Marsha Fucking Brady of the Upper East Side, and sometimes I want to kill myself!❞

❝So there’s your psychoanalysis, Dr. Freud. Now tell me, are you in…or are you out?❞

❝What shall we toast to?❞

❝Silly rabbit. My triumph isn’t over them. It’s over you.❞

❝You were very much in love with them. You’re still in love with them.❞

❝It amused me to make you ashamed of it.❞

❝You gave up the first person you ever loved because I threatened your reputation.❞

❝Don’t you get it? You’re just a toy. A little toy I like to play with.❞

❝Tastes good.❞

❝So I assume you’ve come here to make arrangements? But unfortunately, I don’t fuck losers.❞

❝Most people are sheep. Who are you to criticize something you’ve never experienced?❞

❝I just don’t think people should experience the act of love until they are in love.❞

❝Are you a lesbian?❞

❝I didn’t meant to offend you. I just picked up on a little bit of that lesbian vibe.❞

❝The only reason I let him keep up the charade is because the man has a mouth like a hoover. Oof!❞

❝This sure doesn’t take like an iced tea.❞

❝Yup. Then I fucked your daughter.❞

❝I’m impressed.❞

❝Well, I’m in love.❞

❝They told me they loved me, and I believed them.❞

❝Would you cut your psycho-babble bullshit!❞

❝There’s pictures of me on the internet!❞

❝My advice is to sleep with as many people as possible.❞

❝But that would make me a slut, wouldn’t it?❞

❝Fucking idiot…❞

❝Well I know this sounds corny, but whenever I feel the temptation of peer pressure, I turn to God and he helps me through the problem.❞

❝I don’t know what I could possibly say that would rectify the harm I’ve caused you.❞

❝The truth of the matter is that being with you was the only time I have ever been happy.❞

❝My whole life has been a joke. I prided myself on taking joy in others’ misery.❞

❝I succeed in hurting the first person I ever loved.❞

❝Please give me another chance. I’m a wreck without you.❞

❝You spend all your time preaching about waiting for love. Well here it is. Right in front of you, and you’re going to turn your back on it.❞

❝But you are going to have to live the rest of your life knowing that you’ve turned your back on love.❞

❝And that makes you a hypocrite. Have a nice life.❞

❝And how are things down under?❞

❝E-mail is for geeks and pedophiles.❞

❝That little wager of yours? Count me in.❞

❝ What are the terms?❞

❝In English? I’ll fuck your brains out.❞

❝Because I’m the only person you can’t have, and it kills you.❞

❝You’ve got yourself a bet, baby!❞

❝Everybody loves me, and I intend to keep it that way.❞

❝Why can’t we be together?❞

❝You wanna know why? Because I don’t trust myself with you.❞

❝You could be a model. It’s too bad you’re not sexy.❞

❝I can be sexy!❞

❝Keep your legs together. This isn’t Jamaica.❞

❝Introduce them to your world of sex, drugs and… what else do you do?❞

❝My God. You are completely pussy-whipped.❞

❝What happened to us?❞

❝You’re in love with them, you don’t love me anymore.❞

❝Hmm, quite the predicament you’re in.❞

❝Well let me tell you something, people don’t change overnight. You and I are two of a kind. At least I have the guts to admit it.❞

❝Not only will you ruin your reputation, you’ll destroy theirs.❞

❝I know how to alleviate menstrual cramps, thank you very much.❞

❝It’s not like you have a husband - unless you’re married to Jesus.❞

❝It’s not you, it’s me…I’m completely fucked up.❞

❝I thought I was in love with you, but it was just a lie.❞

❝I just wanted to see what you were like in bed.❞

❝I wanted it to work, but unfortunately I feel nothing.❞

❝You’re such a coward! Look at yourself!❞

❝Don’t touch me! Don’t touch me! Don’t fucking touch me!❞

❝I can’t stand that holier-than-thou bullshit, and yet, I’m completely infatuated.❞

❝It’s okay. You can laugh. I promise not to tell anyone.❞

❝Okay, let’s try it again only this time I’m gonna stick my tongue in your mouth, and when I do that I want you to massage my tongue with yours. And that’s what first base is.❞

❝They took down my pants and started writing the alphabet with their tongue.❞

❝I’ve been very well-informed of your reputation.❞

❝You promise people the world in order to get them into bed with you.❞

❝Relationships seem too distracting. I’d rather concentrate on my studies.❞

❝Get your ass on the bed and prepare for the fuck of your life!❞

❝How can someone so charming be so manipulative?❞

[faithfooled-blog]

NOPE THIS IS IT. WHAT DO U GUYS THINK ???

[faithfooled-blog]

im gonna make a goddamn ‘’ percival graves ‘’ blog and no one can satop me

[faithshot-blog]

                    ROMANS 13:4  //   for he is the minister of God to you for good. but if you do that which is evil, be afraid ; for he bears not the sword in vain : for he is the minister of God, a REVENGER to execute wrath on him that does evil.

[faithfooled-blog]

SMILE, HYEON, SMILE. smile like your world is not burning. smile and laugh and place your hands together in prayer. look to the sky and bless this day as you have done all others. DO NOT THINK OF THE DEMONS THAT NOW GRAB AT YOUR ANKLES. do not look down and see the flames encasing your body. ignore it all. ignore, ignore, ignore, ignore                   forget the sadness in your heart. forget the pain.  ( YOU’VE SUFFERED MUCH WORSE ! ) you are a prophet, a messiah. you are porcelain wrapped in silken cloth of ancients. you hear their voices and watch as their divinity flows through your touch   /   words   /   gaze. DO NOT PAY HEED TO THE VOICES WHO DROWN OUT THESE. those are the sounds of mortals crying for your attention. it’s fine, hyeon. keep smiling. smile, smile, smile, smile. ( THE NEEDLE IN HIS ARM HELPS. SO DO THE EMPTY BOTTLES STREWN AROUND THE ROOM. )

[illvolition-blog]

[faithfooled-blog]

illvolition:

I FELT A LOST PEOPLE WITH NO THRONE // i was a crow. flying out in a golden dome. I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU I WOULD NEVER BE AT PEACE. i thought i loved you but you had me on my knees. && NARRATED BY KYLO. 

[faithfooled-blog]

faithowned:

@faithfooled .

    ’  SIR,  ‘  the sultry voice cuts through the quiet air, fingertips skimming over hyeon’s shoulders, lips pressing against the other’s ear. ‘  sir, i’m BORED. can’t you do something to fix that ?  ‘ he pouts, pulling away from hyeon.

CUE A SHORT LAUGH THAT DIES OFF AS QUICKLY AS IT WAS FORMED. there is nothing laughable here, nothing humourous as heated eyes now glazed in that familiar damnation ( JIWOOK DID THIS. THAT DEMON. THAT CREATURE WHO TOOK DIVINE HALO AND SMASHED TIL IT DARKENED! ) warmth runs down spine, dancing through his nerves better than any drug. is this what it’s like? is this what it’s like to be God?                             ‘   confess your sins to your saviour and ye shall be rewarded.   ‘

[ofwalks]

[faithfooled-blog]

ofwalks:

                                     YOU ARE THE OLDEST CURSE !

[geneva-diva]

[ofwalks]

[faithfooled-blog]

ofwalks:

                                  some walks are meant to be walked alone

[arafinwean-deactivated20150527]

one. He burns like holiness, like glory, like the fire of a sun not yet seen and you can’t help but stare. He is fire and ash and burning, burning, burning. (Fire was not made to be held in human skin.) two. He is rage and ruin, sorrow etched into the space when bone meets muscle. You don’t think he’ll ever die. three. Fire always burns itself out.

Only The Sun Would Be Brighter - Keith J. Castillo (via mostwiseofheart)