abandoned blog

i am now @faithpunk

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ok this blog is still DEAD but i made an ART DUMP new blog thing that now has the @faithpunk handle.

Also im working on procrastinating a DREADFUL BLACKROM TROLLFIC on mspfa:

http://mspfa.com/?s=22510&p=1

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This blog is still dead: this is just me venting my anxiety

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hey all

if ur interested in seeing my work and reading my rants i suggest u like facebook.com/pg/faithpunk cus i think gonna go kinda passive on here now

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i suppose id set up a fb-page to post my work to, and just keep from looking at the feed cus i rly cant stand that place - but at least there ppl notice my posts and react 2 them.

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ive been thinking abt it and like i rly like this blue hellsite actually but i feel like there is rly no point 4 me to keep posting here cus like if no-one (ov course not xactly no-one, i love my mutuals but u r rly few) has bothered up until now and like i have had like 5 notes in two weeks it just feels ridiculous to go on shouting/ranting/posting art into the void actually.

i mean i could just keep it up and like keep looking at this as a kind ov solipsist data-filter thing but like if thats what i actually want i could just make a drang folder on my hard-drive 4 that.

i dont mean 2 come off bitter or anything, i mean ppl like what they like and there is an abundance ov blogs on here and i havent rly made an effort 2 b like... followable i guess.

what i mean 2 say i guess is like... idk. it is a good thing 4 my mental health and my order ov things 2 use this interface 2 vent and 2 manifest personality but its at the same time rly depressing 2 just post shit that nobody bothers so like i think mayb at this point i would feel better if i just stoped posting and simply used tumblr as a dash where i can observe internet trends.

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soft skin with deadly thorns

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715.

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so im learning renpy by writing a dialog that is basicly a metaphysical lecture from a goblin cyborg

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well i could just keep myself away from this 4 so long

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like if i understand the subversionist whos schemes where the cause ov the troubles in the goblin city as simply myself as the narrator, which feels kinda right as at least during their trial they where my avatar, i guess i should find a way 2 work around some ov the more grimdark sides ov Tromatrons Liberation operation but im rly kinda unsure how, as i think she must at some time manifest as both prison and prisoner and that whole side ov her in itself is rly kinda bleak.

im also pretty certain that the subversionist is The Lizard Wizard, and they are in a lot ov ways a narrator-avatar in the text.

this makes me think i should insert the revelation ov the subversionist in the text rather than cuting content out cleanly,

so i kinda suppose i should go with the Liberation narrative but let it trigger a kind ov Falling Apart ov the text itself.

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from that dream, the trial ov the grand subversionist.

i feel i need 2 understand what 2 make ov it b4 i can rly proceed with the narrative.

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i know it related in many ways to my faithpunk work,

and i got 2 read the narrative from multiple perspectives,

and i really feel it is trying 2 tell me something, that the wights r saying something with this, but im not entirely sure how 2 interpret it.

ive had doubts, that the Liberation Narrative, in which Tromatron in her conceptual “desire” (the deities lack subject and perspective) towards breaking states and conditions creates a plane ov existence where wights are turned into Ligottiesque puppets 2 channel their souls into a machine 2 birth her as living body with identity and xperience et c - and it would end in her realizing existensial dread and learning empathy,

but i feel like the whole concept and how ive come 2 tell might b a breach ov my “Never Perpetuize Evil” statement.

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My grand father lived in the old house in the wilderness guarded by a wooden construct. The goblin army had enlisted Megaman in the age old conflict around which their electorial system was constructed. Through a series ov strange, metaphysical events, we where shown that the mythology ov the goblins was actually their present and the process ov their world taking shape from its narrative was going on with them in it. There was found a guilty party 4 that thought-2-b-ancient crime behind the electorial conflict, and the goblin in question was now just a dry husk, the essence they had stolen taken back, they couldnt even produce a feisty rythm.

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That ended in me making a kinda half-finished one minute song and spending the entire night puting together a mixtape 4 my clownsona.

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ok so im gonna try and do a track in reason demo mode which means im gonna have to make it all in one sitting cus it doesnt allow opening files.

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A-side: just around the bend

there’s a lick ov spit in a glass

there’s a dying rose in a vase,

furtherless, the room is vacant

the lodger is just around the bend (again)

there is no B-side, its a double-A and the other A-side is the same but titled just around the bend (again)