butch lesbian with a genuine deepseated fear of ever becoming pregnant. can't stop daydreaming about being raped pregnant and not knowing what to do. i live in the deep south and abortions are hard to access, and if he did it while i was asleep i might not even know until it's far, far too late. just thinking about it makes me dizzy with fear but it makes my traitorous pussy clench and drip
It's not even just that you wouldn't know, is it?
You don't know.
You probably haven't already been raped pregnant. There's no reason to think that a man's gotten his sperm into your womb.
But... if he had - if he did it carefully enough - nothing would feel any different, would it? Not for a while. You'd just go about your life, while making offspring for him.
Because your pussy really is traitorous. It doesn't care in the slightest about your identity, or your appearance, or your dreams, or your fears. It's a birth canal. It exists so that you can make babies, and push them out.
You can't give your pussy all the blame, though. Sure, it would get wet while a man raped a baby into you - that's reflexive, you can blame it for that. But it getting wet when you imagine being forced into pregnancy and birth? Preparing you for penetration like that, at a mere thought?
That's all you, sweetheart. That's your brain coupling pregnancy with desire. You can't blame your pussy for the fact that imagining being raped pregnant makes you needy.
It's difficult to accept that, isn't it? That your body is so built for pregnancy that you wouldn't even know if you were already fertilized. That your brain is so built for it that it makes you crave your greatest fear.
But there is a way to accept it. Just reach down and touch yourself. You're already wet, I'm sure. Just let yourself feel the pleasure and the fear electrifying the nerves under your fingers.
Come to the thought of being raped full, and let your body yield to it.
