make me be a good person please

23. she/her. capricorn. experiencing nothing.

[fakeromanticc]

hey guys i’ve been away from tumblr for a minute wtf is blorbo

[fakeromanticc]

he thinks he’s getting some but all he’s getting is an hour long conversation where I whine about feeling fat and he says it’s nbd and I should just take up running and then makes it worse

[fakeromanticc]

omg i could just sit and listen to him explain stuff forever… he’s so hot when he explains stuff… please keep explaining stuff 🥰🥰

[fakeromanticc]

(TRIGGER WARNING SH)

shouldn’t have bought that squishmallow bc now when i’m diy bloodletting in my room i have a fucking sentient bubble tea staring me down

[fakeromanticc]

how I think we are:

how we actually are:

[fakeromanticc]

alternately: I think we’re Ross & Rachel (yes a lil problematic but still endgame) but really we’re Chandler & Janice

[fakeromanticc]

how I think we are:

how we actually are:

[saint-ambrosef]

you know how kids tend to subconsciously adopt the mannerisms of their parents? i wonder how far back that stretches.

do i laugh like my great grandfather, because that's the way my grandma laughed, and my mom copied her?

does the way my dad make comedic sounds when he's driving actually originate with a distant uncle two hundred year ago, who made funny noises in the horse-drawn cart because it made his niece laugh?

i wonder which of my little mannerisms came from ancestors long passed, and i wonder which of mine will echo in family descendants long after i'm gone.

[fakeromanticc]

check once check twice check three times. check forever.

you have checked one too many times, and now the worst will happen.

[inkskinned]

there's an end to the loneliness, right? it ends, eventually? and i'll be finally whole inside?

[velocitations]

why isnt everybody crazy like why arent we all grabbing eachother and rambling about god and shrieking and bleeding and crying

[yms1]

i want to GO somewhere. i need to leave for a while

[fakeromanticc]

sick of my friends hitting me up. talking to people is not something i have the energy for i’m sorry. unless you’re the one i’ve tricked myself into thinking is my soulmate - you can talk to me all you want because i am pathetic and my happiness relies on your happiness lol. anyway i’m exhausted and my eyes can’t focus and i’m 45% sure i’m dreaming right now

[fakeromanticc]

when I have a long day and he says “it wasn’t that long of a day” instead of “oh no you poor thing you shouldn’t have to work a day in your life you should quit your job” 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

[fakeromanticc]

actually I’m done being high maintenance like this I don’t want anyone to overreact like this. all i ask is a little understanding. please

[fakeromanticc]

when I have a long day and he says “it wasn’t that long of a day” instead of “oh no you poor thing you shouldn’t have to work a day in your life you should quit your job” 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

[fakeromanticc]

why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me why don’t you like me

[fakeromanticc]

me saying 2022 is going to be my year and then immediately getting into anime for the first time as an adult in her 20s, getting blatantly emotionally manipulated but not caring or doing anything to stop it, feeling a deep dread every time I go to work, not having any friends or hobbies

[fakeromanticc]

how I’ve delusioned myself into thinking he sees me:

how he actually sees me: