tender is the ghost

lord, i need to find someone who can heal my mind

[femsband-archive]

ok so here's what's up

i was initially planning on it, but after some thought, i've decided i'm not coming back (to this account, at least). while i was away, i realized that some of the circles i'd fallen into over the past... 3.5ish years are pretty toxic (not necessarily my mutuals/friends, but just the general atmosphere/how we all interact with each other) and have more drama than i want to be exposed to as someone who's trying to focus on both not letting my negative emotions get the best of xem and mitigating the stress in xyr life. it's not about any one thing, just things i've observed throughout the years that built up and that i'd had already had problems with.

i love the people who've stuck with me over the years, and again, i have no ill will toward any of the people i've befriended. this scene just isn't for me. if we're mutuals on here, you can ask for my discord whenever- i check my dms on here every few days just in case someone w/o my discord needs me, so i'll see your message. if you already have my discord, feel free to message me whenever; i probably miss you too.

ciao

[femsband-archive]

i really truly don't know how to go about writing a post like this. I'm sorry if I'm not doing it right. I'm not sure what else to do.

my dear friend(s) @cherryvitae passed away of behcet's disease the other day. He'd been struggling with it for, well, his entire life, and he was such a fighter, but it finally caught up with him. I didn't see it coming. I should have but I didn't.

anyway. I thought people should know, and I know we had quite a few mutuals in common. So here's this. please keep xyr sibling and xyr fiancé in your thoughts.

cerise, vera, everyone... I love you guys. I miss you already. I hope you're happy, wherever you are.

[femsband-archive]

Oh my fucking god i closed the window and it erased this whole big thing. Gdi whatever

Anyway I've been reflecting on the succession fandom (as always) and while it wasn't how we met (then-mutual friend having a watch party of a quiet place & we hit it off and followed each other afterwards. Maybe I should give it a rewatch in his honor + also bc it's quite good) it was something we loved talking to each other about. I will always miss having him be the tom to my greg. some real insane shit was said in those dms it really was a friendship like nothing else

Along with that i wanted to be more explicit and say that spreading the word about this is encouraged, I don't have nor am I interested in having my finger on the pulse of Tumblr so idk if this is well known of not but if the word Hasn't come out then obviously it does need to. So I mean, no pressure, obviously there's nothing to be changed about the world here (maybe I'll link some charities for people struggling with behcet's though, and I'll check in w the family to make sure I'm not missing a gfm) but I genuinely would appreciate a signal boost if it's still necessary

[femsband-archive]

i really truly don't know how to go about writing a post like this. I'm sorry if I'm not doing it right. I'm not sure what else to do.

my dear friend(s) @cherryvitae passed away of behcet's disease the other day. He'd been struggling with it for, well, his entire life, and he was such a fighter, but it finally caught up with him. I didn't see it coming. I should have but I didn't.

anyway. I thought people should know, and I know we had quite a few mutuals in common. So here's this. please keep xyr sibling and xyr fiancé in your thoughts.

cerise, vera, everyone... I love you guys. I miss you already. I hope you're happy, wherever you are.

[femsband-archive]

i really truly don't know how to go about writing a post like this. I'm sorry if I'm not doing it right. I'm not sure what else to do.

my dear friend(s) @cherryvitae passed away of behcet's disease the other day. He'd been struggling with it for, well, his entire life, and he was such a fighter, but it finally caught up with him. I didn't see it coming. I should have but I didn't.

anyway. I thought people should know, and I know we had quite a few mutuals in common. So here's this. please keep xyr sibling and xyr fiancé in your thoughts.

cerise, vera, everyone... I love you guys. I miss you already. I hope you're happy, wherever you are.

[femsband-archive]

i really truly don't know how to go about writing a post like this. I'm sorry if I'm not doing it right. I'm not sure what else to do.

my dear friend(s) @cherryvitae passed away of behcet's disease the other day. He'd been struggling with it for, well, his entire life, and he was such a fighter, but it finally caught up with him. I didn't see it coming. I should have but I didn't.

anyway. I thought people should know, and I know we had quite a few mutuals in common. So here's this. please keep xyr sibling and xyr fiancé in your thoughts.

cerise, vera, everyone... I love you guys. I miss you already. I hope you're happy, wherever you are.

[femsband-archive]

i really truly don't know how to go about writing a post like this. I'm sorry if I'm not doing it right. I'm not sure what else to do.

my dear friend(s) @cherryvitae passed away of behcet's disease the other day. He'd been struggling with it for, well, his entire life, and he was such a fighter, but it finally caught up with him. I didn't see it coming. I should have but I didn't.

anyway. I thought people should know, and I know we had quite a few mutuals in common. So here's this. please keep xyr sibling and xyr fiancé in your thoughts.

cerise, vera, everyone... I love you guys. I miss you already. I hope you're happy, wherever you are.

[cherryvitae]

I'm remaking my post now that it's juneteenth since the situation has changed pretty drastically in the last couple weeks. I'm a disabled black lgbt person living in rural southern appalachia that's been dealing with a lot of issues that come with that. You might remember me from my last posts but while I've been trying everything to improve my situation I've also had to start helping my cousin escape an abusive situation that I can't really get too deep into since it's spiraled really fast. You can dm me if you really need to know about it. A lot of my money has gone into that while it's fallen on me and my younger sibling to keep things afloat recently. It's also been over a year since my grandmother died (on june 17th) which has been making my extremely difficult situation way more unstable. Here's a picture of me since other people do that I guess. don't tag as anything ect.

p@pl/vnmo is atlantian

c/shapp is $seaways

[cherryvitae]

Don’t tag as anything ect

Happy pride I’m Cerise, a disabled black nonbinary/lgbt person currently stuck in an abusive living situation and need financial help to cover my basic immediate needs such as my medications, food & rent, and transport to my appointments. I’ve estimated that I need about $680 to cover my needs for a month, and until I’m in a stable situation, I’m going to need as much help as I can get. Without getting too into details I’m currently completely dependent on an abusive parent who’s now giving me grief over having to financially support me plus I’m at risk for racial abuse and harassment living in rural Tennessee. Any help I can get would be greatly appreciated at this point. Have a great pride

cshapp: $seaways

vnmo/p@ypal: Atlantian

[femsband-archive]

ok so here's what's up

i was initially planning on it, but after some thought, i've decided i'm not coming back (to this account, at least). while i was away, i realized that some of the circles i'd fallen into over the past... 3.5ish years are pretty toxic (not necessarily my mutuals/friends, but just the general atmosphere/how we all interact with each other) and have more drama than i want to be exposed to as someone who's trying to focus on both not letting my negative emotions get the best of xem and mitigating the stress in xyr life. it's not about any one thing, just things i've observed throughout the years that built up and that i'd had already had problems with.

i love the people who've stuck with me over the years, and again, i have no ill will toward any of the people i've befriended. this scene just isn't for me. if we're mutuals on here, you can ask for my discord whenever- i check my dms on here every few days just in case someone w/o my discord needs me, so i'll see your message. if you already have my discord, feel free to message me whenever; i probably miss you too.

ciao

[femsband-archive]

ok so here's what's up

i was initially planning on it, but after some thought, i've decided i'm not coming back (to this account, at least). while i was away, i realized that some of the circles i'd fallen into over the past... 3.5ish years are pretty toxic (not necessarily my mutuals/friends, but just the general atmosphere/how we all interact with each other) and have more drama than i want to be exposed to as someone who's trying to focus on both not letting my negative emotions get the best of xem and mitigating the stress in xyr life. it's not about any one thing, just things i've observed throughout the years that built up and that i'd had already had problems with.

i love the people who've stuck with me over the years, and again, i have no ill will toward any of the people i've befriended. this scene just isn't for me. if we're mutuals on here, you can ask for my discord whenever- i check my dms on here every few days just in case someone w/o my discord needs me, so i'll see your message. if you already have my discord, feel free to message me whenever; i probably miss you too.

ciao

[femsband-archive]

ok so here's what's up

i was initially planning on it, but after some thought, i've decided i'm not coming back (to this account, at least). while i was away, i realized that some of the circles i'd fallen into over the past... 3.5ish years are pretty toxic (not necessarily my mutuals/friends, but just the general atmosphere/how we all interact with each other) and have more drama than i want to be exposed to as someone who's trying to focus on both not letting my negative emotions get the best of xem and mitigating the stress in xyr life. it's not about any one thing, just things i've observed throughout the years that built up and that i'd had already had problems with.

i love the people who've stuck with me over the years, and again, i have no ill will toward any of the people i've befriended. this scene just isn't for me. if we're mutuals on here, you can ask for my discord whenever- i check my dms on here every few days just in case someone w/o my discord needs me, so i'll see your message. if you already have my discord, feel free to message me whenever; i probably miss you too.

ciao

[cherryvitae]

I’m a bit late to making my bhm post but hi I’m a black multiply disabled person and I’ve been struggling a lot the last couple years. In November 2022 I was in the hospital for blood clots in my kidneys and spleen and I’m fighting my insurance to get put on a different medication for Behcets (which may have contributed to the clots) so I’m extremely stressed which makes my Behcets worse. I’m also struggling with an unsafe living environment which I’m not fully comfortable getting into the specifics about right now so I would really love to work towards getting out of here in any way possible. I can say though that being nonbinary, not straight, and living in an already volatile situation doesn’t really help. So if you’d like to help out I’d really appreciate it.

Please don’t tag as anything thank you. My cshapp name is different than the other two on there which is my deadname but it’s still me so please don’t start anything about it

P/pal: atlantian

V/nmo: Atlantian

C/sh/pp: $seaways

[656897546885467-deactivated2022]

i tried starting a donation train yesterday but failed so i’ll try again :3 black and brown ppl drop ur links here we deserve compensation for the caucasian nonsense we deal with

i’m not in much need but my cash app is $bitterandblack

[darkredskies]

hello! thank you so much for this post. i'm a black person who's currently struggling with finding a job and i'm drowning in debt and bills right now. this is affecting my ability to go back to school and find a new home like i hoped for. i would really appreciate the help from anyone who's able to willing and able to provide 🥺

ven: rjlovescats2010

and here's may p4y

[cherryvitae]

Hey I haven’t had time to add on, but I’m a black multiply disabled nonbinary person. I’ve been fighting with my insurance to get my medicine and procedures done and I’ve been going without certain medicines because of that at times. I was told I’m going to have to start traveling four hours to Vanderbuilt university again to see more specialists there since I live in a rural area and my Behcets Disease has advanced so far and started causing other issues that it can’t be handled by just the local doctors anymore. So I’m kind of at the end of my rope since they don’t take my insurance and I have no idea if that’s going to end up costing me a ton of money on top of it all.

I also don’t really have winter clothes since I’m still replacing all the clothes I lost from the tree falling on my house a few years ago, and most of my also stuff got ruined due to our basement flooding continually flooding in the aftermath. So I’d appreciate some help with that but it’s not really as important to me as getting help with everything else.

p@yp@l/ven: Atlantian

c//sha//pp: $Seaways

[femsband-archive]

For clarity I am awake and did not sleep for like a day and a half. I was just rly busy yesterday so I tried to stay off of Tumblr for the most part

[femsband-archive]

ok yeah sorry if I don't respond to messages for a jillion years I cannot keep my eyes open

[femsband-archive]

guy who slept for 24 hours: man I'm so exhausted I should sleep

[narramin]

big fan of media thats too homopobic to admit gay people exist yet nontheless operates with a homoerotic subtext so insane that none of the characters’ motivations make sense unless they carnally desire each other