darkshines

✨ 28 ✨ she/her ✨ tired artist ✨ fan of the games undertale, deltarune, stardew valley, oneshot ✨

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my main art page on Cara btw:

rilyon (@rilyon) | Cara - Artist Social & Portfolio Platform

28 Tired lawyer at day, tired artist at night. Cat mother, cloud watcher, flower lover, fan of Undertale, Deltarune, Stardew Valley and On

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Okay that was hilarious

I was humming that "forgotten man theme" melody when I heard a similar tune playing quietly somewhere in the room I'm in.

I kid you not, it sounded like something tried to mimic the melody, but it wasn't quite right.

My brain panicked for a second before I realized I forgot to pause a YouTube video I used as a background to work, and now the ad is playing after it, and it has some similar notes in its melody.

I was literally about to conclude I lost my sanity for a second lmao

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I swear I'm alive and even able to draw lol

I'm just back from my vacation days and the work routine drains all the energy out of me

I'm even trying to write a script for my possible video essay (except I still have no idea how to edit a video)

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Sometimes I forget how selfish the people can be, but then they, of course, remind me about it.

I'm so mad right now that I'm in tears, and in moments like this I wonder if I should even try to give people the kindness I've left in me.

I'm always giving it all, and all I get back is a cement wall with "f- you" written on it.

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I'm wondering if the reason why I was stunned and almost teared up when I first encountered Blue (with all this music and his dialogue) is because sometimes I feel like Yellow, and I would really love to have someone like Blue in my life to reassure me and make me survive another breakdown.

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Sometimes I forget how selfish the people can be, but then they, of course, remind me about it.

I'm so mad right now that I'm in tears, and in moments like this I wonder if I should even try to give people the kindness I've left in me.

I'm always giving it all, and all I get back is a cement wall with "f- you" written on it.

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... when I was asking you for the rain, I didn't mean it to be that scary, okay, nature?

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It's raining so hard my phone camera can't comprehend it

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it's calm now.

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The sounds outside also remind me about

, of course.

I always loved the "calm after the storm" atmosphere, and this track captures it so well.

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... when I was asking you for the rain, I didn't mean it to be that scary, okay, nature?

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It's raining so hard my phone camera can't comprehend it

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it's calm now.

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... when I was asking you for the rain, I didn't mean it to be that scary, okay, nature?

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It's raining so hard my phone camera can't comprehend it

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... when I was asking you for the rain, I didn't mean it to be that scary, okay, nature?

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I decided to listen to the whole Deltarune OST today.

All the thoughts I had I'll post here when I have time.

I'm currently on "Flower Man", and I wanna say that this track's BPM probably matched my pulse perfectly when I was stuck on that boss fight.

Toby is really good at creating boss themes. I remember having that adrenaline in me...

And then there was "Dreamwatchers" where I started sobbing and pleading "no no nO NO" to whatever forces of the universe...

And then there was "Weak Flowers" where I couldn't even read the dialogue because I was choking with tears...

I was already so exhausted mentally and physically (it was 4 or 5am, I don't even remember) and then the game decided to end me completely with that ending with Susie in the Dark World and Kris walking back home.

When I say Chapter 5 broke my heart, I mean it.

This is one of the reasons I can't come back to it yet, even though I need to play it again on my second save file where I collect all the eggs and shadow crystals.

The other reason is Pink fight that I missed on my first blind playthrough. I am not ready for it yet, I think I should watch some videos first, because based on what I saw the day after the chapter came out it will be a nightmare to me...

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My cool earrings just arrived today! They are soooo dark-world-Noelle coded omg

I am OBSESSED

I almost want to make a Noelle cosplay now...

Sorry about photo quality, I zoomed it in so my face or room won't be in the picture

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wow

thanks, sun

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is the sun trying to kill us

or they are working together with the earth

it's 37°C outside again, and I feel like it's gonna get worse than the last time

yeah, doesn't help my anxiety at all

all I'm able to do is lay on the floor and question my life choices

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sorry I hate flowerly don't be rude with my fluffy boy I'll start a no mercy run just to beat you only and specifically

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It's late at night now, I read all my previous posts, and... yea...

Even though I was super sleep deprived and not really okay that night, I regret saying this so much I need a redemption arc

I plan to draw him btw, I even have a sketch already

But I'm pretty bad at drawing humans, so I probably need like two weeks to do that, a week and a half out of which just to be mentally ready for the struggle

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I just remembered that I participated in this video back in 2024 lol

I remember watching another video from this creator and then seeing a community post about him asking to send drawings of all the ICE-E horror-ish abominations people can even imagine

I thought it was fun, so...

I sent one :)

I can't believe it happened before THREE WHOLE NEW CHAPTERS and yet it was just like less than a two years ago

How the times changed...

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❤✨For Undertale's 10th anniversary✨❤

BEHOLD

MY CREATION-

I actually don't know what to say about this one, I'm not FULLY satisfied with it.

These 10 pages became the reason for my burnout last year and also the reason for coming back to drawing again this year.

That being said, no matter what mistakes I made or stylistic choices I would like to change, I deeply admire this work.

Undertale inspired me back in 2019, and all this time I hope that my art may inspire someone else.

Or not. It feels great anyway.

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Darkness Itself

A 2025 sketch I made for a challenge (not related to Deltarune)