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all i got for now

Let’s pretend for a minute,

I’m holding your hand,

As we kiss,

Nothing can tear us apart,

Losing our breath,

Its Saturday night,

We lay in my bed,

Talking about where we would take each other,

Rome Paris,

Anywhere you want we’ll go,

Because all I want is to please you,

We talk about where we will live,

Once we graduate,

#poems #love

sorry i forgot to post this yesterday

High as shit,

In group,

Listening to music,

Why is it that the group is arts and crafts,

With no talking just doing,

They bring the snacks,

All the flavors bursting in my mouth,

The water was like heaven to my dry mouth,

#high #therapygroups #poems

fuck this my parents talking hella shit i pretend it doesnt hurt me but it does obviously family laughing without me can never join them unless i wanna jump in a pool of sharks snapping at whatever i say arguing for no damn reason

remanence-of-love

fallinginreverse-alex

i think i did this to my ex what should i do

jus woke up

Broke up with my boyfriend,

For the third time,

This time there’s no going back,

Won’t hurt him anymore,

Won’t endure the regret I feel,

When I’m with him,

i don’t know if it is my mania talking or what but all I want to do is end all the pain I have, whether it’s taking out the people who caused me this pain or taking myself out of the equation, and ik I promised my friends that I wouldn’t kill myself but when I made that promise I was feeling good about myself and I wasn’t suicidal or depressed but now I am and I’m manic and when I’m manic I make rash decisions

#thetruth #mania #suicudal #depresssion

what i do to avoid talking with my family

Fuck this shit,

That’s what I keep typing,

Over and over again,

Pretending to do work,

To appease my family,

To talk with friends,

To listen to music,

To write the music,

I hope to share one day,

With the world,

to watch tv shows and movies,

to update my socials,

Maybe these are my excuses,

The reasons I give to avoid talking to my family,

I’ve got a paper to write,

My friend is going through a crisis,

I am going through a crisis that they are helping me through,

Every time I talk to my family,

There is an argument to be had,

#poemsbyme #family issues

set it off - killer in the mirror

Now I know there's no one I can trust I used to think there was Tell me that I'm cutthroat I think you got your eyes closedFeel the fear and swallow back the tears Let weakness disappear There's nobody but me here The killer in the mirror

#set it off #music

Wearing the uniform,

Of the JROTC,

Navy colors,

Arizona in the winter,

So cold to me now,

Born in Arizona,

Used to live in Virginia,

And DC,

Kissed a taken boy,

He kissed me back,

So confused as to whether he wants,

To be with me or not,

He says he wants to buy me a phone,

So, we can talk all night long,

He wants her more than me,

I understand though,

I’m not pretty enough,

Or smart enough,

I’m your average,

Wannabe cool girl,

Used to be emo but he doesn’t know that,

Guess I still am,

Just changed the hair,

And the clothes,

No pictures,

Because I wouldn’t let anyone take them,

Wow, I have changed so much,

Yet so little,

I’m still that insecure,

Music loving,

Book worm,

Mythology loving,

Overall geek and nerd,

Why is it that when I want to stay in my room and read, my parents take the kindle and force me to spend time with my family. Which then turns into a n argument, into a fight, and they expect me to not argue when they start it.

#parenttrouble