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ok I endured it. now what!!!!!!!!!

the sad thing is i knew exactly what it meant. but i don't get why. i've been maintaining this diet. i haven't slipped. i've been focused. working harder. training more.

and yet.

i look at people. i SEE things. i try to tell myself it's this sense of justice, but.

my teeth ache.

purging bad people scratches a certain itch in my brain

#t.

bones-ivy-breath

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Preface, Tragedy: A Curious Art Form by Anne Carson, from Grief Lessons

I still don't like that mf

dirty

Car sex while it’s heavily raining outside >>

samvents

[ID text — i begged God to save me and he shoved more torment down my throat to keep me quiet]

wow

#t.

i wanna plan things but i feel like i just pushed everyone away.

#t.#which i did and i understand thats my own fault.#but idk how to fix it.

Do you feel like you're a good person?

uh.. I really don't know the answer to that one lol. I'd like to think I am, but who doesn't? I'm not the best there is. I'm angry, can be volatile, ugly heart. But I helped pay for a little girl's chemo and simultaneously got flowers to gift my wife. I helped this little old lady load all her groceries into her car and was able to reach a cereal box that a little kid wanted at the store. I do things like that but AM I good? I have no idea.

#t.#this is a weird question #i dont like the self reflection lmao

send asks

#t.