the only one like me;;

indie jacob kowalski from fantastic beasts and where to find them. penned by kayla. under co.

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

he’s lying and she doesn’t need to be a legilimens to know it. it’s obvious by his voice alone. almost instantly, all sorts of scenarios bubble up in her head ––– all worst-cases. ( but if he was going to break things off, he’d wait until after dinner. because there’s no way he could expect to stay for dinner after breaking things off. ) “ if you really want to, darling. ” she’d rather he jut got it over with. 

then he keeps on talking –––– and any scrap of worry she’d thought up in the past thirty seconds evaporates. in that moment, queenie swears she can feel her heart start to beat at a million miles a minute and the room narrows down to just the two of them. “ jacob, honey, are you ––– ” he’s down on one knee before she can even fully process his words. queenie goldstein, will you marry me?? she can’t breathe. this is why his thoughts have been strewn all over the place. he was trying to surprise her. it’s quite possibly one of the sweetest things anyones done for her ––––– everything he does, really. he cares about her so much and she loves him more than she can say. with a great amount of effort put into not shrieking and alerting mrs especito, her hands fly up to cover her mouth as she does nothing but nod furiously, eyes welling up.

“ jacob kowalski, i’d marry you in a heartbeat!! ” 

for a moment, he fears he’s made a mistake. queenie looks nervous, but he knows that’s just because she doesn’t know what’s going on. something he’s sure she’s not used to. as soon as she responds, his smile grows wider. “really?” he asks, as if he wasn’t expecting that answer. as if tina hadn’t told him that she would propose if he didn’t get a move on. standing up, he pulls her into a quick kiss. 

as soon as he pulls away, he’s fumbling with the ring and trying to get it out of the box. his hands are still shaking, even though he knows he’s done with the worst of it. there’s no more uncertainty, no more wondering what will happen. “i’m sorry if i scared ya. i just...i wanted ya to be surprised. and i guess you were?” he asks, glancing at her for a moment to make sure she’s not mad. she wouldn’t be, would she? “can i?” he asks, holding the ring up. it’s finally out of the box, and he wants nothing more than to slip it on her finger. “i know it might be complicated, with me bein’ a no-maj and all. but i’m willing to fight for us if you are,” he says. he knows she’s not going to change her mind, but he just wants her to be happy.

[lcgilimens-a-deactivated2018042]

                     “ ARE ALL NO-MAJ’S LIKE YOU? ”      /      “ NO, I’M THE ONLY ONE LIKE ME. ”

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

“ you’re hilarious, honey. truly. ” her tone is dry. of course she isn’t going to pass out. she knows he’s kidding, poking fun at how impatient she can be. she deserves it, honestly. but his sass doesn’t stop him from being an absolute dear and setting the table while the green beans finish. by the time he comes back for them, the meats nearly done and his thoughts turn to that question again. just like before, it’s gone before she can catch it completely. 

as soon as she’s sure the meat is ready, queenie makes quick work of placing it onto a serving platter and bringing it over to the table. “ you alright, honey?? your thoughts have been all over the place ever since you got here. ” she doesn’t voice it, but it’s almost like he’s trying to keep something from her. 

it’s not long before the rest of the meal is on the table. “of course i am, darling,” he says, though his voice is much higher than usual. a sign that everything is not, in fact, fine. she can always see right through him, and of course tonight is no different. “i was just wonderin’ if we could, uh, talk a little before we eat dinner,” he says, taking her hands into his own. it was now or never, right?

he planned an eloquent speech, but when he’s looking right at her his mouth goes dry and he’s forgotten almost every word. but he doesn’t want to mess this up. “hon, this past year with you has been the best year of my life. you’re probably the kindest person i’ve ever met. you’re smart, and you’re wickedly talented at so many things. cooking, for one.” he knows he’s rambling, and should probably wrap it up. so, one of his hands pulls away from hers and slips into his pocket. “i’m so lucky that you came back for me. i just...can’t imagine my life without ya.” without hesitation, he gets down on one knee and pulls out the ring. “and hopefully i won’t have to. queenie goldstein, will you marry me?” 

[fantasticbaker]

creaturecase:

          “i listen to you!”

          “usually. i at least take your opinion into account if            i can’t take your advice altogether.” newt runs his            hand through his hair. “but if queenie’s been saying            things — oh, i don’t know. i have one day, jacob.            one day to somehow ask tina to leave her life, and            everything she’s worked to build here in new york,            and come with me. i can’t, jacob.”

         “queenie wants you two to be happy, newt. and so           do i.” newt never listened to anyone. but he wasn’t             going to argue that point any longer. “she doesn’t            have to come with ya right now, but if ya plant the           idea in her head, maybe she could come in a few           months. come on, newt. you can’t keep makin’ trips            back here just to see her. just ask her.”

[lcgilimens-a-deactivated2018042]

                      YOU NEED A  ( G I V E R )  // INDEPENDENT QUEENIE GOLDSTEIN. EST NOV 2016.

[fantasticbaker]

@creaturecase || cont. 

         “is it easier, or are you just scared to ask? queenie’s been sayin...           never mind. why am i tryin’? you’ve never listened to me anyway.”

    he knows that newt hasn’t even mentioned the subject to tina. though     he’s unsure the witch would drop everything to live across the ocean, he’s     sure if they had a conversation about it, she’d consider it. queenie’s been     talking about their feelings for days, and it wasn’t any of his business, but     he wanted his friends to be happy. 

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

“ oh sugar i ain’t worried about the money. ” with tina back in the auror’s department ( where she belonged ) they weren’t living quite so precariously. they could make do with queenie bringing in a little less and there was no way tina would argue the change if it meant her sister was going to be happier. “ i’ll take whatever you can give at this point and we can always discuss a raise later on down the road, yeah?? ”

“are you...sure?” jacob asked, still unsure of the reasons that the woman actually wanted to work for him. sure, he liked to think they had become friends over the few months that the shop had been open, but she probably had better things she could be doing. “sounds fair to me. when, uh, would you be able to start?” the sooner he could start teaching her the recipes and such, the better off the bakery would be, he was sure.

[lcgilimens-a-deactivated2018042]

do  you  believe  in  magic  in  a  young  girl’s  heart;  how  the  music  can  free  her  whenever  it  starts  /  independent  queenie  goldstein  as  written  by  ally.

[thesingingnorwegian]

dear evan hansen lyric starter meme -- part one

feel free to change any pronouns, etc.! trigger warnings for death and drug use.

❝ can we try to have an optimistic outlook, huh? ❞

❝ can we buck up just enough to see the world won’t fall apart? ❞

❝ we’re not giving up before we’ve tried. ❞

❝ this year, we make a new start. ❞

❝ i’m proud of you already. ❞

❝ another stellar conversation for the scrapbook. ❞

❝ i’m kinda coming up empty. ❞

❝ can’t find my way to you. ❞

❝ does anybody have a map? ❞

❝ i don’t know if you can tell, but this is me just pretending to know. ❞

❝ the scary truth is, i’m flying blind, and i’m making this up as i go. ❞

❝ another masterful attempt ends with disaster.  ❞

❝ pour another cup of coffee and watch it all crash and burn. ❞

❝ each day’s another wrong turn. ❞

❝ i better head out. ❞

❝ if _______’s not ready, I’m leaving without him/her.  ❞

❝ i’m flying blind. ❞

❝ i’ve learned to slam on the brake before i even turn the key.  ❞

❝ give them no reason to stare. ❞

❝ no slipping up if you slip away. ❞

❝ no, i got nothing to say. ❞

❝ step out of the sun if you keep getting burned. ❞

❝ on the outside, always looking in.  ❞

❝ will i ever be more than i’ve always been? ❞

❝ i try to speak, but nobody can hear.  ❞

❝ we start with stars in our eyes. ❞

❝ we start believing that we belong. ❞

❝ no one tells you where you went wrong. ❞

❝ when you’re falling in a forest and there’s nobody around, do you ever really crash, or even make a sound? ❞

❝ did i even make a sound? ❞

❝ it’s like i never made a sound. ❞

❝ will i ever make a sound? ❞

❝ all we see is sky for forever. ❞

❝ we let the world pass by for forever. ❞

❝ feels like we could go on for forever this way. ❞

❝ wouldn’t that be cool? ❞

❝ there’s nothing that we can’t discuss. ❞

❝ there’s nowhere else i’d rather be. ❞

❝ we’ve been way too out of touch. ❞

❝ it sucks that we don’t talk that much. ❞

❝ why would you write that? ❞

❝ i’m just trying to tell the truth. ❞

❝ this needs to be perfect. ❞

❝ i’ve gotta tell you, life without you has been hard. ❞

❝ i miss talking about life and other stuff. ❞

❝ very specific. ❞

❝ shut up! ❞

❝ who says that? ❞

❝ each day’s another fight. ❞

❝ if i stop smoking drugs, then everything might be alright. ❞

❝ smoking drugs? ❞

❝ just fix it! ❞

❝ i’ll try to be more nice. ❞

❝ it’s easy to change if you give it your attention.❞

❝ i want to show that i was, like, a good friend, you know? ❞

❝ stop doing drugs. ❞

❝ just try to take deep breaths and go on walks. ❞

❝ you’ll be obsessed with all my forest expertise. ❞

❝ absolutely not. ❞

❝ dude, i’m proud of you. ❞

❝ i’m just glad to be your friend. ❞

❝ our friendship goes beyond your average kind of bond. ❞

❝ the only man that i love is my dad. ❞

❝ you’re getting better every day. ❞

❝ miss you dearly. ❞

❝ why should i play this game of pretend? ❞

❝ i could curl up and hide in my room. ❞

❝ why should i have a heavy heart? ❞

❝ why should i start to break in pieces? ❞

❝ why should i go and fall apart for you? ❞

❝ why should i play the grieving girl and lie, saying that i miss you? ❞

❝ i will sing no requiem tonight. ❞

❝ i’m going to bed. ❞

❝ come sit with me. ❞

❝ you can’t stand to be in this room for five minutes? ❞

❝ at some point you’re going to have to start dealing. ❞

❝ i’ll keep the light on for you. ❞

❝ i gave you the world, you threw it away. ❞

❝ ‘cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep. ❞

❝ no one lights a candle to remember. ❞

❝ no one mourns at all when they lay them down to sleep. ❞

❝ after all you put me through, don’t say it wasn’t true. ❞ 

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

she doesn’t want him worrying about the wizarding world. what macusa doesn’t know won’t hurt them. and since she left her position with macusa in favor of working in the bakery with jacob, she’s hardly seen much of anyone from there. they weren’t going to find out. they can’t. she won’t lose jacob ( or now her growing family ) rappaport’s law be damned. 

“ honey, i’m so happy –––– ecstatic, really!! ” there’s nothing she’s ever wanted more than to have a family of her own and the fact that she was going to start that with jacob sent her over the moon. “ can you believe it –– parents!! ”

“good, that’s good to hear,” jacob said, pulling the blonde closer. it seemed too good to be true, and he knew there were a million and one things he could worry about later, but for now he planned on celebrating. “parents,” he repeated, before leaning in for a gentle kiss. his wife, his beautiful wife, would be a wonderful mother for their little one, of that he was sure. 

“didja tell newt and tina yet?” he asked as he pulled away, figuring the answer would be no. it didn’t seem like something she would share with anyone but him, but he knew that she talked to tina about things that were weighing on her mind sometimes. “it ain’t too soon to tell ‘em, is it?”

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

“ don’t even joke like that, jacob kowalski. ” with one last look to the heavens, queenie makes her way back to the bed, shedding her robe before slipping under the quilt and snuggling up to her husband. “ i might love the stars, but they’ll never compare to you. ”

his eyes followed her frame as she made her way to the side of the bed, and as the silky robe fell off her frame. it didn’t take him long to wrap an arm around her waist, pulling her closer. “i love you too, queenie,” he whispered, pressing a kiss to her temple. “there’s not a star in the sky that’s prettier than you.”

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

the kisses being pressed against her neck are a welcome distraction from the painstakingly long wait required of cooking without magic. truly, it amazes her that jacob is able to spend a whole day waiting on pastries like this. magic has her a bit spoiled. she catches the briefest hint of a thought ––– having to ask a question ––– but it’s gone before she can make heads or tails of it.

“ you have the patience of a saint, baby. ” she’s not kidding. he has more patience than she does, but she’s learning and that’s what’s important. carefully, queenie takes the set of tongs in her hand and flips each piece of meat over and they sizzle away almost angrily. “ if you wanna get the table set and the vegetables ready, that’d be great, honey. ” we’re doing the dishes with magic.

“aw, not really. some of us had to get used to cooking without magic,” he says with a chuckle. though he knows this is an excruciatingly long wait for queenie, he didn’t mind. hell, his pastries often took longer to cook than this meal. “of course,” he says, pressing a kiss to her cheek before letting go of her completely. 

glancing over at the green beans, he knew they needed a few more minutes. so, he grabs two plates out of the cupboard, along with some silverware, and starts getting the table ready for their meal. “you sure you ain’t gonna pass out before the meat is ready?” he says as he comes back over to the stove with a bowl in hand. the green beans are done, and by the looks of it the meat only has a minute more. which only meant he was going to have to ask soon.

[fantasticbaker]

’ Oh dear. That didn’t go very well at all, did it? ’

@creaturecase

“this is why we make plans, newt. you’re less likely to get hurt!” he said, rushing to his friend’s side. “can you, uh, stand? am i gonna have to get tina?” he knows the woman wouldn’t be happy about newt coming home injured, but she could probably fix him up better than he ever could.

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

she hums happily as he pulls her into his arms ––– his happiness infectious. a family. while being a mother is an idea that terrifies her as much as it excites her, there’s no one she would rather be experiencing this with than jacob. “ well, it’s a little early to tell for the little one, ” she says, winding her arms up around his neck – her fingers playing with the short hairs that brush against his collar. “ but she said i seemed to be in perfect health and that all signs point to an easy pregnancy. ” 

she doesn’t mention the small list of ingredients for some potions she’d been instructed to pick up from the apothecary down the street. all part of normal, magical medicine, of course. instead, she presses a kiss to her jacob’s cheek. 

“ are you happy, honey?? ”

he feels that it’s silly, but she still sent shivers down his spine whenever she was close. he felt her fingers brush against his neck and his smile only grew. “that’s good to hear,” he breathed, hoping that that it would truly turn out to be a healthy pregnancy. though his thoughts wander to macusa, about what the wizarding world would say about queenie having a baby with a no-maj, he doesn’t want to ruin the mood. he doesn’t even know what wizarding pregnancies involve, or what visits to the healers are like. but queenie seems confident that things will be alright. 

“of course i am, darling! i hope you are too. i just...i can’t wait to start a family with you,” he says, his words still soft. but they were sincere. queenie was the only one he wanted by his side as they started this journey. 

[fantasticbaker]

lcgilimens:

@fantasticbaker ( cont. )

“ sure, why not!! i’ve been thinking about leaving the office for a while now, anyways. ” it’s sweet of him to try and keep in mind that she’s already got a job, but she isn’t exactly happy with macusa, is she?? granted, she isn’t miserable, but she knows she can be so much happier. ( and she’s been practicing her no-maj baking too ) “ besides, you’ve been looking for help for ages, mister kowalski!! why shouldn’t i come to help! ”

“you have?” he asked, a bit surprised. though, why should he be? she never spoke fondly of the office, and maybe she would be happier off at the bakery. happier with him. “it’s only been a month or so, queenie,” he said with a chuckle. “but i could really use the help. i just...i don’t know what you make at the office. i don’t know if i could match your salary, ya know?”

[fantasticbaker]

takiinglestrange:

         “ well,  i’ve found a splash of it in some hot cocoa to be  wonderful.  i thought it might do much better with a creative mind like your own, ”  she smiled,  but shook her head,  insisting it’s no issue.  “ all of my plants have to be harvested at some point or another,  and i have more of most ingredients than i know what to do with!  really,  i want you to have it.  i want my plants to be of the  best  use possible after life. ”

      “that does sound wonderful. i was thinkin’ about making some bowtruckle pastries...maybe i could use the mint icing for them?” he said with a shrug. he already had a few ideas for the vial of extract, as he was sure leta expected. “well, thank you. really. i’ll be sure to treat ‘em well. and when i make the batch, you’ll be the first to taste it.”

[fantasticbaker]

’ Well, here, I’ll help you. ’

@lcgilimens || beauty and the beast starters

“you wanna work here?” jacob asked, a bit confused. sure, he had been talking about how he was looking for someone to help him out with the bakery, but he knew queenie had a job. she didn’t seem very fond of it, but he wasn’t expecting her to quit.