touring, shows, traveling, being away from home is really wearing on me this weekend but florida has been so much fun at the same time. the convention was really fun, the acoustic set and no barricade show were both amazing, and we’ve had the chance to just relax for a bit between panels and signings and all that stuff, too.
having ricky here has been wonderful, too. we had a long conversation about where we’re both at with... everything, i guess. and i hope neither of us change our minds. i don’t care how slow of a process this is but at the end of the day, i want him to be happy and i hope to god it’s with me. nothing’s changed with us - i mean in the sense that our dynamic is still there. sure, as individuals we’ve both changed a lot but i think in a healthy way.
it’ll be kind of a relief, too, when we both get to go overseas in two weeks for another festival. i’m also worried, on the other hand, that spending so much time together so quickly is going to cause issues, too. i know we can exist apart from each other. we mastered the art of that pretty easily when we were together, between touring and recording and traveling for whatever else with our respective careers.
i just want this to work.
