#kb.

[n-y-c-t-0-p-h-0-b-i-a]

Az az egyszerre vicces és kínos pillanat, amikor egy olyan dolog történik veled, amin nemhogy te, de még a legjobb barátnőd is meglepődik.. sőt ő még jobban...

Lol.

Depresszív-elme

[lovelylittleken]

chillin & rippin.

what’s up world, i’m kennedy and i was told to be relateable by talking about food. let me take you out to sushi and we can steal a boat after.  obviously i’m bad at first dates, but i’m pretty funny sometimes.

find me on hangouts: [email protected]

[farewell2flesh]

it’s been a few days on this vacation with everyone and i think i’ve hit just about every basic emotion in that time.

there was the run in with kath, which…. in hindsight, i don’t know why i even said anything to her. i didn’t owe that to her. she’s absolutely right and i should’ve kept my mouth shut. i’m not mad, i’m not angry, i’m not even hurt anymore. i think it’s just a lingering feeling of confusion and prolonged confusion can make me uncomfortable. i don’t know what to think of the situation but i haven’t seen her since, nor do i really want to.

then there’s ricky. we’ve spent the last two months on tour together and in that time, we went from not being able to be in the same room (literally running for the hills) to whatever the other night was and me continuing to stay the night. in my defense, i want to make sure he’s getting sleep. he looked really rough the other day when i first went over. i’m never going to not care about him. i know that somewhere, i still love him on just a human level. but it’s all also so confusing. and i don’t want either of us getting hurt again - especially not him. he doesn’t deserve that.

i’ve been forcing myself to relax between the emotional whiplash and more than anything, i just wish i could be home. not LA home but back in boston. it’s been an exhausting six months.

[farewell2flesh]

running into kath today right before getting checked in had to be one of the most uncomfortable encounters i’ve had in a while, only closely tied with getting back on tour with motionless and having to be in close quarters with ricky for the last two months.

we tried catching up, or i tried to and very stupidly at that. she wishes i hadn’t said anything at all and i don’t blame her. i should have just ignored her but it would have felt rude and somehow worse to not even acknowledge her. after everything, after how long we were together, none of this has been easy. i don’t know if i’ve moved on really at all.

lesson learned, i guess.

[skywlking]

the way i get intense anxiety when someone i care ab is going through smth ? lord help me its spreading KJNFKJNF

[skywlking]

me , catching myself saying some really soft gay shit : pls ,,, reel it tf back in ma’am

[skywlking]

you ever wake up from the best most vivid dream and want it to happen so bad but also know that logically , logistically ... it never will ? i put myself here again huh , fuck