gardenias on the tile

she/her | 25 | palestinian/lebanese | lebanese percy truther

[faytears]

tadc could have the most dogshit “this truly was our amazing digital circus” ending and I would not gaf as long as caine is there

[faytears]

how come no one ever brings up the comedic potential of a funnybunny/showtime love triangle where the only one who knows they’re in the love triangle is jax

[faytears]

I need to know what caine did to scratch to make him abstract and why. I NEED to know. I need to know if it was on purpose, on accident, if it was out of self-defense, if he was trying to help him. I think about how frantic he was to avoid the topic in ep 7 all the time.

[faytears]

I like jax a lot, but the show’s writing and the rest of the cast’s development have suffered immensely for the amount of time that has been put into his character arc, and it’s kind of funny that at this point the only thing that would make any of this worth it is if they go through with making him transfem. but even so (and I really do hate to say this) I think the reveal will fall flat to me because of the treatment of the other female characters leading up to it. while jax was made the narrative’s darling and having all this effort put into hinting at his insecurities, ragatha was getting chewed up and spit out by the fandom for saying the wrong thing a couple times and for being “fake nice”, gangle’s bullying was swept under the rug, we barely know anything about pomni despite her being the mc. like, we can all laugh and say we were fooled into thinking he was just another sarcastic, secretly really sad tumblr sexyman archetype and how “subversive” gooseworx is, but it doesn’t change the fact that a lot of the fandom WAS treating him with the typical preferential male character bias and the other women (+ zooble) of the show did not get nearly as much attention to their own struggles. yes, gooseworx said that he was meant to be the main character alongside pomni, it’s her show, she can do what she wants and have a favorite, but it’s still a bad look imo

anyway I really thought this final episode would be EVERYONE confronting their issues while we learn about C&A, scratch, what abstraction is, how/why caine created the circus, etc. but whatever. woe jax-centric episode #393724274 be upon ye

[faytears]

fuck everything else where is caine I miss caine I want my FUCKING ai wife back

[faytears]

some people view kinger and caine as having a father-son relationship. others see toxic yaoi or caine being a third for kinger&queenie. REAL freaks like me like both (caine not knowing how to distinguish between different types of love and having an oedipus complex towards kinger)

[faytears]

thinking about the possible route they’re going to take in ep 9 where the circus is going to be falling apart, the abstracted are going to be loose, and they’ll eventually decide that they have no choice but to bring caine back, but it’s not going to be the caine we knew. it’ll probably be a caine from an old backup that won’t recall any of the events of the previous episodes, maybe won’t even remember years’ worth of his life. he won’t have those experiences or memories.

it kind of devastates me because without those memories, is it really caine? it will be a caine. but it won’t be the caine we’ve known. and I suppose that comes full circle back to the questions that tadc poses about the nature of consciousness, the self, what it means to be a human (or a sentient being, in this case, I guess) — is it our memories and experiences? are we our bodies or our brains? but no matter what, even if a version of him is brought back, his previous self was erased after hitting complete rock bottom, knowing that everyone hated him, believing that they deleted him on purpose. girl I’m SICK

[faytears]

posts like this are obviously sinister for the way they romanticize eurocentric features, but they’re also fucking asinine because all these show fans clearly think in terms of what would look best on a pinterest board. if you know anything about how poseidon is described in the actual myths it’s also straight up incorrect. brothers we must fight against the aryanification of percy jackson

[faytears]

percy and thalia being brother-sister/mirror images/twin flames is something that can be so personal actually

[faytears]

> be me a couple months ago happily scrolling

> see jason g stans on here making bisexual headcanon posts about him

> is a jason lover AND a headcanon enjoyer so naturally I thought they would be good

> the post is something along the lines of “bi percy fucking sucks and has no basis but bi jason makes more sense because ermmmmmm jason had two choices between camp jupiter and camp half-blood and bi means two so obviously this is the better metaphor for bisexuality”

> percy was blushing at luke in book one and consistently points out other men’s physical attractiveness IN THE TEXT but suddenly this doesn’t mean anything because jason had a coming of age narrative about finding his place in the world

> never mind if we go along with this line of thinking then percy’s own coming of age conflict in the first series of straddling the mortal and divine worlds could also then be easily interpreted as a bisexuality metaphor

> why are we so adamantly against multiple characters being headcanoned as bisexual. what are we doing here guys

[faytears]

hi I pwomise I’m still alive

[schoolhater]

the co-founder of 'crips for esims for gaza' and disability advocate, alice wong, has died according to her twitter account.

alice's disability advocacy naturally led her to palestine solidarity as the quote from the blog post announcing 'crips for esims' illustrates:

We also recognize that everyone in Gaza is now disabled due to the massive number of deaths, new disabilities, life-threatening illnesses and destruction of medical facilities going on. Such destruction also debilitates the land, water, and air, which will impact Palestinians and all surrounding life for generations to come. We owe our kin in Palestine to throw sand on the gears of genocide with our every breath. [source: the disability visibility project]

since december 2023, crips for esims for gaza has raised well over $3.1M and bought and maintained over 5,000 esims, undoubtedly saving lives.

in the past few days there has been intense winter flooding in gaza. donate to honor alice wong's memory–to keep people connected, to give disabled people the tools to advocate for themselves, to refuse to let palestine be silenced.

Crips for eSims for Gaza

Crips for eSims for Gaza is a collaboration between Jane Shi, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, and Alice Wong. 

[valtsv]

i like sailing myths and superstitions because most of them can be boiled down to "if the ocean doesn't like you it will chew you up and spit out your bones. and if it really loves you it will swallow you whole and keep you forever. good luck 👍"

[valtsv]

[notemily]

best use of the underwater filter on this app

[clonehub]

I hate you epitome of innocence being represented with blonde hair I hate you lightness representing goodness I hate you "angelic features" automatically being read as blonde hair and blue eyed with pale skin I hate you whiteness as the default for morality I HATE YOU I HATE YOU

[clonehub]

Guess who's being the most annoying on this post

[clonehub]

this post isnt about blondes and how its so unfair to them that theyre always viewed as good healthy holy morally upright outstanding people no matter what this post is about racism its about colorism its about white supremacy making people with dark features and skin literally feel evil. this is not about your stupid disney princesses or achilles or your fave anime boys being allowed to be unhinged feral shitty awful people and this sure as hell is not an opportunity for blonde people themselves to show their entire pasty flat asses and beg praise for "breaking the stereotype" by being shitty unhinged people. fandom people you are 192% of the problem. white people in general you are 1,000% the origin of the problem. this site is so unbearably white my GOD

[faytears]

while the blame will always lie primarily on rr for the downgrade of quality of the newer books, mark oshiro is also absolutely culpable for their role in it (pertaining to tsats and tcotd). this is why you can’t use tropes and identity reductionism to inform your belief in what is a good book worth reading or an author worth supporting. representation IS important, but if the story that contains it is dogshit (and we still somehow ended up with blatant biphobia in the final product anyway??????), what does it matter?

[ofswordsandpens]

"Go to hell" is basic and overused. "I hope your beloved childhood series becomes a never-ending hellscape of cash grab content wherein every new addition ruins the power and significance of the original story. I hope the main character loses what was the perfect ending to his story in favor of repeating the same spiral over and over wherein he's constantly on the edge of losing himself to his anger and fear but no resolution will ever happen." is way scarier. It is definitely possible. And it is happening to me right now.

[saltyoldfan]

“PJO ended with The Last Olympian.” I say into the mic. The crowd boos. I begin to walk off in shame, when a voice from the back speaks and commands silence in the room.

“She’s right!” someone says. I look for the owner of the voice. It's Percy Jackson, and he still has the curse of Achilles.