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& again i find myself ( c r a w l i n g ) back to my art. i want it to love me again. gently, i say. it doesn’t listen. i am a bluebird with a broken ( w i n g ). i am a daughter with a grave in her. a wind that has no place.

[fcklennox]

FORGIVEMEMOTHCR ‌:

“No that’s not ridiculous at all. I hate leaving my house when I’m not working. Order all the sushi,fuck the paparazzi.” 

❝ finally someone that understands me !! you are the only kind of person i need in my life hun, the only energy i need around. ❞

[fcklennox]

HALILCD ‌:

“ wine and sushi… without me ? i cannot believe this. my heart is broken and the love of my life is doing things without me ! i’m coming over and you can’t stop me. “

❝  i’m sorry lilac—however, you’re working under the assumption that i could down two bottles of wine by myself and still work my way to somewhere other than a walk in closet. your invite was scheduled and dependent on the sushi order, but considering you’re beating me to the punch, let’s just see which makes it here first !! ❞ 

[fcklennox]

XCVIAN ‌:

“oh babe, your heart still hurting?” a teasing pout played on his lips, knowing his words would likely push many of the girl’s buttons. “don’t forget what they say lenny — a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips.”

❝  nobody’s heart is hurting, i just don’t want to be around the paps right now, xai. ❞ her eyes rolling as the words exited his mouth. ❝ not that you would know anything about that feeling.. after all, i get followed by crowds, you get followed by what...a DOZEN people at most ?? honestly, xai, just because you haven’t reached the point of needing to hide out from the press doesn’t mean I haven’t. ❞

[jessicahenwicks-deactivated2018]

[fcklennox]

❝  am i ridiculous if i order $296 worth of hibachi and sushi ?? because honestly... i’m home alone, but two bottles of wine and so many sushi rolls i can’t count them anymore ?? that sounds like the ideal avoidace plan. the last thing i need right now is paparazzi following me over some damn spicy crab rolls. ❞

[fcklennox]

· * . ˚ ✦ ⋆ . · intro post for lennox !!

okay are y’all ready because lennox is a wild ride from start to finish. i’ve had her for a while and she’s just.... you’ll see she’s a lot

lennox was the result of a then-a-list hollywood director ( jonathan sims ) having an affair on his first wife with nineteen year old katherine de luca. when the pregnancy was announced & she began selling stories to the tabloids he denied ever having met katherine, let alone having an affair with her… but still showed up for the paternity test the day she was born

obviously, he was the father & he agreed to give katherine whatever child support settlement she desired & agreed to sign the birth certificate, just as long as lennox was given her mother’s last name, not that of a sims

all lennox’s father cared about was trying to make the world forget lennox was in fact his child, and all her mother cared about was clinging on to the 15 minutes of fame she had acquired from lennox’s existence  

her mother began taking her to acting auditions at 18 months & lennox soon became the bread winner of the household before the age of two. at three, she was signed on to her first television show (think full house). the show quickly got picked up & she remained there until she was eight when it finally wrapped up & came to an end

fast forward she’s doing a lot of loose acting jobs + trails into modeling at around 14, this is when things get a lil dark for lennox

her mother would do anything to get lennox famous + make lennox do anything that would help get her famous. teeth whitenings, highlights, spray tans, the works. if a pageant mom does it to her child, lennox’s mom probably has too.  

eventually this turned into lennox’s mother dropping her off at hollywood “casting parties” which just consisted of underage girls in their bikini’s doing what they could to impress the talent agents there and earn the next big rolls

her mother was aware of what happened at these parties + encouraged it, putting lennox is a multitude of bad situations and due to the things that happened at these parties, she is still contacts her therapist regularly to talk things out when seeing the directors and producers that used to attend the parties alongside her.

now on to happier things for her yes?? kinda?? there’s some sad spots still but u know

at fifteen she signed with the manager she’s with now + shine studios offered to take her any direction she wanted. she had already acted most of her life, modeled time and time again and decided she wanted to do what she knew she was destined for all along–singing. she began releasing music at 16 & quickly rose to the top of shine’s social ladder.

the day lennox turned eighteen she cut her mom off completely due to her literally shoveling money out of her accounts & stealing items from her to pawn off for extra cash. she had no addictions, nothing of the sort–she literally just wanted lennox’s money & felt as if she was entitled to it. between her mother & father, she has an extremely hard time fully trusting people. she’s currently trying to work through both relationships – keeping her mother in contact, but only via phone, & seeing her father’s new family at least once a month & spending time w her new siblings ( whether or not her dad is there is his choice )

lennox has been in a lot of pr + real relationships, some lasting a few months, other’s lasting years on & off. recently, she and ryder abbott ended a pr relationship that was ended with him cheating ( we’re looking for a girl for that hi ) and now.. she’s just off the rails

very vulnerable and destructive and kind of acting out just a little??  

sO THAT’S LENNOX’S BASIC BACKSTORY THANKS FOR STICKING W ME

she’s really just a sweet baby who’s been through a lot and will do anything to help anyone else going through anything at all ?? she just wants to help and make other people happy even if she’s miserable asdfasf

she’s like a golden retriever and she’s loyal as all absolute fuck bu…t also if you piss her off she’ll probably hold a grudge forever

i think that’s all ?? she’s here for plotting of all kinds just hmu !!