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[thomasreidfreak]

deleting a failed art account always hits me right in the feels in a way nothing else really does. it’s a mix of existential dread, sadness, and desire to become a recluse that’s only really theoretically matched by the loss of a life long friend, or at least what that should feel like. maybe i just need to stop making grand gestures and take my art one step at a time. well duh that’s what i need to do, but will i? who knows…

[thomasreidfreak]

discovering a passion for teaching is so odd because it always felt like something i'd stumble into but never feel driven towards. my answer was always "professor" but really just because it seemed easiest or like the only real answer to what to do with a philosophy degree. but now it seems that my joy in helping students has turned to a desire to teach.

they never tell you when you apply to be an RA that your maternal instinct is going to kick in, but oh does it. i want to sob thinking about the fact its almost over.

[thomasreidfreak]

Jesus Christ Vampire Hunter is exactly what i think of when i hear "Jesus was Way Cool" by King Missile

[thomasreidfreak]

Got excited when this manga quoted Wittgenstein but then they completely misinterpreted "The limits of my language are the limits of my world." 😔💔

[thomasreidfreak]

im not sure what it really means to be "agender" as someone who may or may not fall under the label. if im a gender abolitionist, agender feels like the wrong term because it still feels intrinsically linked to the structures of gender just via the label itself.

the only term i can think that maybe adequately explains it is "gender adverse?" borrowing terminology i maybe heard from the asexual community about distinctions between "types" (that word feels wrong but idk what to replace it with) of asexuality. so maybe im agender, gender repulsed? or maybe just gender repulsed. i don't know, open to thoughts, critiques, and concerns.

[thomasreidfreak]

i think on my 21st i want to smoke a cigarette. that will, for better or worse, involve buying a pack of cigarettes which means regardless of my feelings about the first i will have n-1 cigarettes left in my possession.

all this is simply so when i struggle to cope and think "man i wish i had a cigarette now," simply based on the ideal and the gestures, i can recall what it actually feels like to smoke. what actually is a cigarette and what does the inside of my mouth feel like?

[conchobarbarian]

hate when I'm trying to just take a normal drink but it turns out I'm thirstier than I thought so I end up gulping it down like a goddamn cartoon characer. the indignity of water lust.

[thomasreidfreak]

the entirety of pride yesterday, i drank like 3x the amount of liquids ive had all month i swear

[depsidase]

[armandology]

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

[thomasreidfreak]

its like, what do you mean there's not a binary of who i am and who i want to be where i can just time travel to be everything ive ever wished for???

[dailyhistoryposts]

The Original Rainbow Pride Flag (1978) by Gilbert Baker.

[acmeoop]

Happy Pride Day 🌈

[homunculus-argument]

Ok imagine squeezing an orange like this, gripping so hard you crush it and the juices explode everywhere.

I don't know how, but somehow some men use public bathrooms like this. Piss everywhere.

[despazito]

[duckbunny]

remember kids, the moral of "Irish and Italians weren't even considered White yet!" isn't "because in those times people were so ignorant they didn't think the Irish were white". the moral is "because white is an unreal category created to justify slavery and ongoing hoarding of power and wealth". It's not that you know better about Italians. It's that the boundaries of the higher caste have changed.

[tannisroute]

isn't it crazy that a woman being gender nonconforming literally just requires her to exist in her own body without making any changes whatsoever. why does the fact that i don't wear makeup and i don't shave and i don't wear a bra have to be some political act. why can't i just fucking exist

[transpigeon]

STOP! before you decide you are irretrievably doomed, try one of the following options:

transition

bdsm

iron supplements

[homunculus-argument]

The people who go "well who's going to look after you when you're old?" when you say you're not having kids are breathtakingly naive. Our next-door neighbour, somewhere in her mid-80s, has a son, grandkids, and a grear-granddaughter, and who's the one she calls when she needs help, and checks that she's not spending christmas alone? Me and my boyfriend.

Having kids is irrelevant if the answer to that question is still going to be "the mentally ill faggots next door."

[oh-lordy-lord-save-me]

i want to talk about my ocs but im literally this image. i got nothing

[thomasreidfreak]

i am one of my ocs i fear...