* YANG

[fcrya-blog]

[petalier]

merry christmas, part one by manyfires on Flickr.

[wclyo-blog]

' tell me, ' her voice is the snow that lands quietly upon the frosted ground , left hand coming , almost instinctively , to frame his chin as she has done many times before. her bright white eyes stare , glistening abyss of nothingness , at her other half as she voices her inquiry. ' how does hunger feel? '

@fcrya​ [ unprompted ]

if she is the snow that lands softly ‘pon the frosted ground then he is the sun’s rays that batter against the frozen landscape to melt it all away. if she is the gentle embrace of salvation then he is the agonizing grip of starvation.

his own eyes - so empty yet full of emotion at the same time – keep their gaze onto hers, leveled and curious and knowing and full of something no words could ever hope to describe. they are more than two puzzle pieces that fit together – they are… the entire puzzle.

his other half’s question brings a huff from his snout and his mist swirls around her in a mockery of an embrace – ghosting over every inch of her form before he snaps her teeth at her endearingly.

> “ always there – never gone. gnawing, gnawing, G N A W I N G. ”

[fcrya-blog]

‘ you touch me & my skin burns & it burns for you, always you. ’

here where death reigns master alongside silence and where the sunshine melts permafrost , the yin and the yang stand. the pale hunter is quiet as she presses her black mask against his white one and her hands linger against each sides of his ethereal countenance and she is quiet as he speaks , voice barely above a hoarse whisper , unusual from the boastful beast for it was a display simply for the alabaster lamb. words are not needed when they cannot portray the intensity of a feeling that transcends this realm’s mind , a feeling that is not - a tether that binds him to her and her to him forever more.

a mortal would show emotion through action alike a smile or fluttering eyelashes ; the lamb replies with a stare from her widened white eyes , glacial abyss alight with a candle - perhaps the only warmth one could find within those orbs.

she didn’t need to speak for all words were dull , too tied to the language of human , too fragile and unworthy to serve as an answer.

growling suggestion. | accepting.

[wclyo-blog]

                                    every life…

                                                                    ends with us.

independent kindred - written by jasper ( @wclyo​ ) and tora ( @fcrya​ )

[fcrya-blog]

‘ i’m okay. i’m alright. this is all in my mind. ’ ( from ashe ! )

the furious winds of war were hard upon a young pale heart that wanted nothing but the calm after the tundra. days could be as dull as a blade unused while some heavy with the burden of losses and confrontations - thus is the path of a warmother. war was synonym of death and whenever it went - the kindred followed put in its tainted trail ; a silent prayer slipped through the avarosan’s lips and fell into lamb’s ears.

pale coat seemed brighter than the snow that clothed the ground and her hooves left no prints upon the frost when she danced from fallen to fallen ; never a drop of vermilion staining the purity of her alabaster. her arms had cradled the souls of those who wished for a simpler end , the respite of the lamb ; while her yin was elsewhere leading the hunt , the pale hunter’s unreadable eyes would stare at the warmother and ashe would find that the longer those colorful hues lingered , the more a freezing shiver awakened in her spine.

-- ‘ humans lose themselves to their mind so often. worry leading to fear and fear to folly ; those who tremble in the dark find us sooner. ‘ the entire world quietened down when the voice of salvation echoed in the furious winds as it they had stilled and bowed in respect. ‘ do not let your mind hinder you from your life’s purpose , dear child , for when the dark consume you...

a choice will have to be made. ‘

growling suggestion. | accepting.

[spctlessminds]

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

[fcrya-blog]

“Tell, Spirit. Did my family, my wife and son, face your arrows? I already know a majority the Noxians took your counterpart’s teeth.” He needed to know, although he feared the answer. They’d been brutalized when he found them in the fire of their home, and he’d hoped it to be quick and painless despite the look of the duo’s corpses. But he needed to know if they fought against their fate...if they raged against the dying of the light.

lamb remembered every single soul that passed through her embrace and those who were lost to wolf’s teeth. every single end and every single last faces , those who died staring at her dark mask and those who fell asleep - his family died with tears in their widened eyes , teardrops rolling upon pallid cheeks and unto a darkening pool of blood. lamb remembered that she trailed her digits upon the youth’s lids to close those blinded hues.

-- ‘ when their time had come and their soul met us - it is to me they turned in need of guidance , a roof to rest from the weariness of a brutal end. yes , they met my arrows. ‘ the pale hunter’s head canted to the side as her delicate voice carried itself upon the frozen breeze , the atmosphere of the dead.

-- ‘ if it brings any comfort, ‘ though her words were empty. ‘ they were never parted even as they drifted to oblivion.

unprompted | always accepting.

[fcrya-blog]

wrath what the fuck

[fcrya-blog]

> " who's next, little lamb? "

she was perched upon the armored frame of a resting corpse embraced by emerald blades of grass and dirt stained , the white lamb’s arms had held up the wounded head in an almost motherly embrace yet the hands that ghosted over the flesh were cold and apathetic even when the countenance is gently placed back down and digits closed the still opened eyes. this soul had gone without a fight , drifting with the slow tides of death to oblivion , the shine of an arrow piercing the chest fading bit by bit.

lamb stood up with natural elegance , her bow twirling delicately in her hands as her empty eyes stared to the horizon. -- ‘ patience , dear wolf. ‘ the lamb says in a hushed tone.

-- ‘ they might find us sooner than they think. ‘

unprompted | always accepting.

[benditnow-deactivated20210416]

2016-11/6 Kindred

[fcrya-blog]

/ anyway, ain't Kindred Death's fursonas?

- jasper

[umbranatus]

/ k.indred coming 4 k.ayn's life when he busy riding v.iktor. colorized.

[lecataste]

[booksqouted]

Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.

Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar (via booksqouted)

[fcrya-blog]

kayn : can you kill m- kindred : no.

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

Real but unreal at the same time.

Margaret Atwood, from “The Testaments,” released c. September 2019 (via violentwavesofemotion)