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Cece - 12/26
Celeste: [I shouldn't be here at all. I shouldn't be here alone but curiosity is really starting to get the best of me. Something deep down keeps urging me to seek out the truth behind my parents death. When they died I couldn't take it and I gladly let #Leslie swoop in to handle things for me. Including talking to the police. In the years since their untimely demise I've told myself reading a police report would not change anything. Clearly there isn't enough evidence to catch fucker who did it. But now. .. now I feel like I can't move on with my life without figuring it out. With this heavy thought weighing on my mind and heart I made my way over to the police station. Charming police are a joke. How else could you explain #LasDiablas getting away with all of our dirt? Snorting as I get off my bike. My large eyes scanning the area as I cross the street. Oddly enough this feels like Sons' territory. Anybody with half a brain knows #Unser is on their side. Scrunching up my nose as I push open the doors and head inside. Marching up to the desk I quickly explain why I'm here. The young lady at the desk makes me fill out some bullshit paperwork before walking off to make copies of the file. My nerves get the best of me and I end up pacing the small reception area while I wait. What of the contents of these pages change my life? What if it raises more uncertainty? Before I can weigh out all the pros and cons the officers in my face with an envelope. Nodding my head and turning to leave when I hear her comment, "I hope that gives you some kind of closure, Miss Connolly. " My brow raising as I pivot on the balls of my feet to face her. ] Closure? You think reading about my parents unsolved murder would accomplish something for me? Do you honestly think this department's failure is comforting? Obviously, they hire all the village idiots in this place. [Shaking my head as I bolt out out of there before I do something to land me in cuffs. The last thing I want to do as a new member is get hemmed up over nothing. Taking a deep breath as I step outside. Clutching the envelope in my hands like a lifeline. Hoping that there's a small chance I see something in these files the cops missed. Something that leads me right to my parents killer. ]
Talk Dirty
Jax: [I was tired of waiting on shit to get done around here. Abel was better, but the reminder that I'd almost lost my son was ever present I knew my judgment on shit was clouded but I didn't give a fuck. I hate the Diablas to begin with. For bringing their shit to our streets. I needed to know for sure. If Diablas were the ones who'd gotten their shit to Wendy. My fucked up druggy ex was a problem that I'd deal with on another day. But now? I was dealing with @DebauchedDame. Rory fuckin Thatcher. She was getting close to Wendy lately. Too close. Made me twitchy. I wanted to figure out what the new president of Diablas was up to. Because if I knew anything, it was those Diablas were sneaky bitches. I'd parked my ride a few blocks from @DebauchedDame's place. Keeping to the shadows of backyards because @DebauchedDame didn't need to know I was coming. It was sad how easy it was to break into her home.] So... [I kicked the door shut behind me as I entered @DebauchedDame's home.] Ready to talk?!
Rory: [It was a long night of negotiations with the cartel. We'd gotten our old price back, so it was worth it, but my morning shift at St. Thomas had nearly done me in. When I got home, I stripped off my uniform and hopped in the shower with one eye open. I'd barely gotten the t-shirt over my head before I landed in bed and crashed. I remembered my cell ringing a few times, but I couldn't be fucked to answer it. At the moment nothing was more important than sleep, which was why the slamming of my back door woke me, I was instantly frustrated. The voice spilling from the other room was one I knew but couldn't place. Men didn't just show up at my front door, let alone burst into my back one.] Fucker... [Quietly as I could, I sat up and leaned at the waist to open my nightstand. The new piece I just bought was inside, all chrome and pearl grip - the silencer already intact. It was heavier than what I was used to, but in that moment, a gun was a gun and whoever had let himself into my home was going to regret it. Clambering cautiously off the bed, bare feet padded towards the door, where I halted to listen and get a good indication of where my intruder was and what he was doing. To my dismay all was silent, so I took a chance and stepped out of the room, keeping the pistol aimed and ready with the safety already off. Stepping further into the house, a familiar flash of blonde caught my attention and instantly my eyes rolled.] What the fuck are you doing here, @PrinceOfSOA? Get out.
Jax: I'd put that shit down if I were you. Shooting me would be more than unwise. [I leaned against @DebauchedDame's doorframe, my arms crossing over my broad chest and eyes focused on @DebauchedDame. I moved forward, further into the house. It wasn't what I expected. I started towards what looked to be a desk. I figured something might be in there. Whether it be Nordic shit or theirs. I saw how they worked. I pulled one drawer out fully before rummaging through @DebauchedDame's things.] You always had me a little bit fooled, Rory.
Rory: [Not because @PrinceOfSOA asked, but because I didn't have reason to shoot yet, I lowered the pistol and watched him from beneath knitted brows. @PrinceOfSOA looked crazed, not at all like the man I'd seen in the hospital a few days ago. Crossing svelte arms over my abdomen, I leaned into the wall, more curios than anything as to what @PrinceOfSOA was doing here. If he thought I'd sit idly by while @PrinceOfSOA rummaged through my stuff much longer, he was mistaken.] Best I keep you on your toes, Jackson. Again, what are you doing here?
Jax: [Everything is mounting inside me. And @DebauchedDame is the perfect metaphorical punching bag for all the shit in my life. Abel. My dad's words from beyond the grave so to speak. Clay. Wendy. It's all just becoming this tightening in my chest that won't go away. But I'm a SAMCRO. We don't sit there and pout about all the shit wrong in our life. We don't have epiphanies. We fight. We kill. We get shit done. This was me getting shit done. I could handle this. I could figure out who gave the drugs that almost led to my son's death. Or even the woman who was finding herself closer to my ex-wife. Who, I'd found out through word of mouth, was attempting to get Abel from me. It didn't help that @DebauchedDame had become someone I'd coveted. Hardcore as fuck MC female. I could get any woman I'd wanted. Except @DebauchedDame. Because I wouldn't allow myself to go there. That shit was not kosher. I opened another drawer. Scattering @DebauchedDame's papers all over the floor.] I'm getting to the bottom of this shit.
Rory: What *shit*? [Exasperated with @PrinceOfSOA, I pushed off the wall and stalked towards him with cat-like strides. Whatever he was looking for @PrinceOfSOA wasn't going to find it here; he should have known I was smarter than that. Lifting my free hand, it pushed against the leather covering @PrinceOfSOA's shoulder.] I don't know what you're looking for, Jax, but there's nothing here that would be of any interest to you. You might not think it's in my best interest to shoot, but don't mistake the haven't with won't. This is my house, @PrinceOfSOA, and you need to leave. If you have something you'd like to ask me before you do, spit it the fuck out already.
Jax: Don't touch me. [I pull away from @DebauchedDame's push and turn around to face her. I'm about to erupt. All I can see is the face of my enemy. @DebauchedDame is nothing but a two bit drug pusher. And I know what my ex was hopped up on. Crank. I know they don't sell that shit. So why am I here? I tilt my head to the side with a pop and my eyes close... before they open once again and I stare @DebauchedDame with a clenched jaw. My focus was gone. And I was moving past reason. All I knew was that my entire world was shaken to the core and any outlet of that was suppressed. I moved towards @DebauchedDame silently.]
Rory: [Despite my best effort to understand what it was @PrinceOfSOA was looking for, he'd evaded every inquiry, leaving me frustrated and conflicted. This was Jax, I'd known him all my life, and yet, on the other hand @PrinceOfSOA was still the enemy, SAMCRO. If recent events hadn't taken place there wouldn't have been a moments hesitation, but know what @PrinceOfSOA had been through, I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. The look in @PrinceOfSOA's eye as he came at me wasn't the one I had expected. The hatred remained, but this was something feral, something needy, I had seen it before in my own reflection. Taking a step back, I lifted the pistol to half-mass, my own hatred searing through to the core of me.] Don't…
Jax: [I paused before @DebauchedDame for what felt like an eternity before hands moved to my shirt. Unbuttoning the blue plaid shirt with eyes still locked on @DebauchedDame. I shrugged off my cut, my gun's holster and shirt. Draping them over the back of her desk chair.]
Rory: [Wandering eyes took to the impressive expanse of @PrinceOfSOA's chest and narrowed menacingly as things started to click in place. That look... @PrinceOfSOA was looking for an outlet and I was pissed. I wasn't like the porn pussy SAMCRO kept in their back pocket and wasn't going to be treated like one, though admittedly, the sight of @PrinceOfSOA had me squirming, which angered me most of all. Balling my hand into a fist, it connected with @PrinceOfSOA's jawline before I could comprehend the act, and as it fell, it fell to the waistband of @PrinceOfSOA's jeans to tug him closer. Nose to nose, I whispered harshly.] If I wanted some naked white ass in here I would have rented porn, @PrinceOfSOA.
Jax: [I know what's coming as soon as @DebauchedDame's fist begins to rise but if anything, I lean into it. Begging for the release of pain and @DebauchedDame's right hook isn't weak by any means. My eyes close once it connects and I breathe out through my nose. Eyes open quickly when I realize @DebauchedDame's closeness. Smirking as she speaks. I grab at her wrist, pushing her hand down to where I'm more than fucking hard for @DebauchedDame. Pressing her palm against denim.] Porn won't get you anywhere near where I can, darlin'.
Rory: [A shiver rolled down the curve of my spine @PrinceOfSOA's words, causing my body to involuntary arch into him. Truth was, I didn't doubt for a second that @PrinceOfSOA could live up to his statement, and I wanted him to. Trailing the tips of nimble fingers down his jean-clad bulge, the corner of my mouth quipped into an arrogant grin. @PrinceOfSOA's length was impressive, more than I expected, the more I touched, the more I hungered and @PrinceOfSOA knew it. An internal battle started to brew. The contact alone felt like a betrayal to my club, but in that moment I needed @PrinceOfSOA to eat his words and show him he didn't hold all the cards. Easing the zipper of @PrinceOfSOA's jeans down before popping open the button and using the weight of my chest to push him back onto the couch.] You talk a big game, @PrinceOfSOA. I thought you were more of a doer.
Jax: [@DebauchedDame knew how to get under my skin. I didn't let her push me towards the couch. Instead, arms wrapped around her and hands grasped @DebauchedDame's thighs. Lifting her up and wrapping legs around my waist. I put her ass just on the edge of the desk that I'd been rummaging through. My hands pushed at the oversized shirt @DebauchedDame wore to find not much else underneath and groaned. Pulling @DebauchedDame roughly tighter to me. Jeans falling to a puddle around my feet. I knew both of us would be more than bruised after this.]
Rory: [Palms flattened against the desks surface once the t-shirt I'd been wearing made it up and over my head, succulent thighs part in invitation to @PrinceOfSOA. In the time I'd been back in Charming there was only one other man I'd been with, and even that was a rarity. #Fitz was my fall back, the place I felt comfortable. This with @PrinceOfSOA was foreign territory and it only added to the ravenous want that drove the guttural moan from my lips as @PrinceOfSOA's initial thrust filled me to my end and stirred the movement of my hips as our eyes met and @PrinceOfSOA's gaze mirrored my every emotion. That look that said this changed nothing between @PrinceOfSOA and me.]
Jax: [My eyes never left @DebauchedDame as one hand settled to her thigh. The other moving the nape of her neck, tangling in waves and tugging roughly on @DebauchedDame's hair. Hips thrust forward and I groan before burying my face in the exposed flesh of her neck. Lips never connecting with @DebauchedDame's flesh. This wasn't about that. This was about pure need. I wasn't one to think of repercussions. And this with @DebauchedDame was no different.]
Rory: [Head falling to rest against my shoulders, I was grateful to be free of @PrinceOfSOA's captivating gaze. My own eyes closing, an arm lifts to wrap about @PrinceOfSOA's shoulder to tangle slender fingers in golden strands. Tugging freely, my walls clenched as thrust after thrust @PrinceOfSOA's cock stroked my sweet spot. A part of me, the part that knew I'd regret it tomorrow wanted to stop, but @PrinceOfSOA felt so good buried within me that instead I found my hips churning restlessly and the sensitive flesh of my sex growing more sensitive with each and ever pass.] Fucking... fuck. [I didn't know what exactly I was cursing, the fact that I was screwing @PrinceOfSOA or the fact that I liked it.]
Jax: [An arm wrapped around @DebauchedDame's waist, keeping her pressed close as I stay deep. Thrusts shallow. Feeling that familiar buzz and natural high that comes with fucking get closer. @DebauchedDame is so tight. Tighter than I'd imagined. And her clenching. Fuck. She knows what she's doing. I pull back just barely to look down between us, bringing my hand to my lips. Licking my three middle fingers before reaching down, flicking @DebauchedDame's swollen clit. My words are whispered roughly.] Come on, darlin'.
Rory: [Pleasure coursed through me when @PrinceOfSOA found the tiny bundle of nerves at the apex of my pussy. Legs shaking, my head shook and a hushed mantra of "no" slipped past slightly parted lips. I didn't want to give @PrinceOfSOA the satisfaction of making me come, but he had me. I'd never felt so completely possessed. @PrinceOfSOA's shallow thrusts brought me to the edge and I'd pull myself back, soon enough it was all too much and @PrinceOfSOA's languid motions were met with root hitting slams from my hips that sent me spiraling into bliss as the tips of manicured nails slipped from @PrinceOfSOA's hair and scratched down his shoulder, marring his flesh.]
Jax: [That. Bitch. I growl when I feel @DebauchedDame nails tear flesh. But the pain is enough to cause my own release to come. My hips motions are stunted, jerky. My hand grasps @DebauchedDame's hip. Fingers dig as my climax is at it's peak. Surely bruising the porcelain flesh of @DebauchedDame.] Fuck!
Rory: [Gasping at the ache of @PrinceOfSOA's grasp, I lower my hand to grab hold of the lip of the desk. As fast as my high came it subsided, leaving me breathless and aching in places I didn't know possible. With trembling lower limbs, my ass scooted back and away from @PrinceOfSOA once he was finished. Overridden with emotions that ranged from guilty to pissed, I spidered my fingers back to find the hilt of my gun and brought it to my lap once it was in my grasp. With my heart rate still erratic, I looked to @PrinceOfSOA with my expression void of feeling and ground out my request once more through gritted teeth.] Leave.
Jax: [My chest still heaved with breaths as @DebauchedDame moved away from me. Eyes catching sight of that gun causing reality to come crashing down around me. I just chuckle @DebauchedDame and shake my head. Reaching down to pull up my jeans. Buttoning them quickly before running my hands through my hair to smooth back the mess @DebauchedDame had made of it. I grab my shirt, cut and holster. Not even bothering to put them on. I turn back to face @DebauchedDame. Regret isn't a word I would use for what I feel. I never regret things. I give @DebauchedDame a smirk before nodding my head.] Thanks for the ride, darlin'. [Turning on my heel, I walk out of her house.]
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Cece - Solo [2]
CeCe: [It's been a long few days, so when I finally got a day off my plan was to lay around the house in boy shorts and a t-shirt. Clearly, #Leslie didn't get the memo and showed up this afternoon ready to have a heart to heart. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate how she's always willing to give me advice but today I wasn't in the mood for a lecture. I just wanted to sleep and maybe smoke a blunt until it was time to roll to the clubhouse later. But like I said #Leslie wasn't hearing it. So, for a good hour she felt the need to pry into my private life. Did I need private conversation about how she hasn't seen me dating anyone lately or talking about a guy? Fuck no! And I definitely wasn't appreciating other people noticing my dry spell. Shifting uncomfortable in my chair as I pray to whoever gives a flying fuck for #Leslie to stop and talk about something else. Anything else. Thinking about relationships give me hives and puts me on edge. There's too much about my life that I can't share with someone outside the MC. And plus relationships can make you vulnerable. I haven't made it this far to be broken into a million pieces over some dude's dick. Of course, #Leslie had her opinion on this. She thought it had less to do with Las Diablas and everything to do with my parents murder. As much as I love #Leslie for a split second I hated her. I hate thinking about it and I hate that she's right. I can't lose anyone else so why open myself up to more pain? My eyes close as I try to block it all out. The pain of losing my parents is still fresh no matter how many years pass. Especially since I have no idea why they met an untimely demise. Or why their death was befitting people who were involved in illegal activity. Opening up my eyes as I take a deep breath. ] I hear you, #Leslie and I'll take your advice under consideration. But I'm happy. Honestly, for now the shelter and Las Diablas is enough for me. I'm not turning into an old maid yet alright? Now can you get out here so I sleep? [Giving #Leslie a sly grin as she throws her hands up in mock surrender. I'm a little too excited as she stands then walks over to give me a hug. "I'm just looking out for you, Celeste. You deserve to be happy after everything that's happened to you. And I promised your mom. .." Her words trail off as she shakes her head then pats me on my shoulder. My brow furrows in confusion as I wonder what she promised my mother? It's time like this when I wonder if she knows more. More than she's ever told me. Patting the back of her hand as I rise to my feet and walk her towards the door. ] Whatever promise you made my mother, you've more than fulfilled it #Leslie. Trust me. [Pulling her into a tight hug then letting her go. Perhaps it's time for me to get down to the bottom of this and find out what happened to my parents. I just hope I can live with the answer. ]
Axel - Solo [1]
Axel: [It was so freaking cold that I was getting antsy. Most people wouldn’t care that it was cold out, but being cold meant that I had to give up riding my Harley. I was born into an MC. I was named after the creator of one actually. The mother charter of my own, SAMCRO. I’m a rookie member. The next step up from a prospect. You would think being named after John Teller would give me some leeway when it came to prospect duties, but that wasn’t the case. I earned the cut I wear fair and square. I would be riding my bike right now if it for the damn snowstorm outside. The joys of living in Niagara, New York. The only good thing about this time of year was Christmas. This year, going to be different for me though. I had just gone through a really rough breakup. My girl gave me an ultimatum that I wasn’t happy with. She wanted me to choose her over SAMNIA and that wasn’t going to happen. The club was all I ever knew. Even as a kid the clubhouse was my playground. There was no such thing as going to the park for me when I was with my dad. I was at the club with him especially after the divorce. My mom took off for a while leaving my dad in charge of me. What else was he going to do? He let the club have a hand in raising me. Today, I am more grateful for that than anything else in my life. I’m an only child so the club became my family once mine fell apart. Being caged was the worst feeling in the world because you lose your sense of freedom when the bike is taken away for any reason at all. I’m young, but I know the ins and outs of the club already because I have years of experience watching everything that went on. The only thing that’s different now is that I’m allowed to attend church with the rest of the guys. We have church tonight in fact. This is why I’m dressed in everything with the SAMNIA logo on it. Grabbing my keys to my cage I slipped my cut on and headed to the clubhouse. This would be my first church meeting since being patched in. Excitement ran through my veins along with a very, very high level of nervousness. The last thing I want to do was fuck up before I even had a chance to prove myself worthy of wearing the cut I was just given. After pulling into the clubhouse, I took a deep breath and climbed out of my truck. I was the first one here which gave me a second to look around church before taking my seat at the table as a full-fledged member of SAMNIA for the first time.]
The Special Visitor
Clay: ||The ache in my joints only got worse as the cold rolled into Charming. Without a driving force a fist was nearly impossible. A fucking nuisance when it came time to ride, but I couldn't let it show and let myself seem weak. @SonsOldLady was in the back getting that damn needle that would take away the stiffness. Bless her heart, @SonsOldLady was my reprieve in many ways. The definition of old lady, there wasn't a thing she wouldn't do for me and I had to reciprocate, show my gratitude in whatever way I could. @SonsOldLady put up with a lot of shit. It didn't go unnoticed. A knock at the door had me pushing away from the table.|| What now? ||The words left me as I swung open the door. All suit and tie, hands clasped in front of his body, I knew a cop when I saw one.|| Can I help you? ||"I'm looking for Gemma Teller." A hand came up to scrub at the hairs of my chin.|| Morrow and she ain't here. ||He was smug from the get go, even more so when the lie left me and he knew it. "You must be Clay. Here's my card. Please tell Mrs. -Morrow- to call me. It's an urgent matter that I could use her help with." My jaw unhinged as I rolled my tongue around the expanse of my mouth. A fucking cold case detective.|| Mind telling me what this is about? ||He grinning in that knowing way that told me I already knew. "In due time, Mr. Morrow, but I really should speak with your wife first." I nodded in careless understanding.|| Fair enough. I'll let her know. ||His one knew about JT. It was a reminder I had given myself many times over the years and something I believed. This wouldn't unnerve me. Whatever he wanted with @SonsOldLady had nothing to do with me. Turning to stride into the bedroom, I called out to Gemma. She wouldn't have to call him, but better she get it over with sooner rather than him show up at my fucking door again.||
Gemma: {Filling theses syringes have become second nature. @KingOfSOA needed to keep his hands. @PrinceOfSOA wasn't ready to take over and if @KingOfSOA couldn't ride, he couldn't lead. It was a small price and secret to add to the growing pile to keep order within our world. The heavy footfalls followed by the tenor of @KingOfSOA's voice from the hallway had my hand stalling on the needles} I'm not finished yet, @KingOfSOA.
Clay: ||Continuing on my quest for @SonsOldLady, my brow lifted in acquisition, even though I knew the answer before I even asked. The detective had merely stirred my irritation and I was aiming it in the wrong place when I leaned into the doorframe of @SonsOldLady and my bathroom, where she was busy fill in the syringe and held up the card.|| Any idea what this is about?
Gemma: {Looking up from the case and briefly glancing in @KingOfSOA's direction} It looks like a business card to me, Clay. {Turning back and holding up a filled syringe, pointing toward the toilet for @KingOfSOA to have a seat} Where did you get it from?
Clay: ||Chuckling lowly, I moved to the take a seat as @SonsOldLady asked, swatting her ass when I passed while the opposite hand laid the card out on the counter in front of @SonsOldLady. Tilting my head back to search her face.|| Some detective just dropped it off. Says you need to give him a call, @SonsOldLady.
Gemma: {Pulling @KingOfSOA's hand away from the care and into mine and rubbing my thumbs against his knuckles} You've caught me. I'm having an affair with a cop. {Smirking down @KingOfSOA but inside my mind was racing. Trying to figure out what the fuck this 'detective' could possibly want. Moving the needle to press against @KingOfSOA's hand and slowly injecting it} Says cold case on it. There is no way it could be about you know who, right? {Pulling the needle from one spot in @KingOfSOA's hand to another}
Clay: Nah. ||My free hand tightened into a first and I suppressed a groan when the needle went into my skin, the medication spreading like fire through the extremity. Taking a moment to let the sting subside, my head shook @SonsOldLady.|| That was ruled an accident long ago. Case closed. I'll stop by Wayne's today when I leave and see if he's seen anyone snooping around the station, but as far as I'm concerned, we ain't got nothing to worry about, baby. ||Standing from my seat, my hand lifts to show @SonsOldLady that it's already feeling better and wrapped around the back of @SonsOldLady's neck, forcing her head to dip for my lips to meet her forehead.||
Gemma: {My eyes closing, the stark contrast from @KingOfSOA's rough exterior to his soft gesture. Reaching out and rubbing his hand again.} Be careful. With @PrinceOfSOA snooping around JT's old things, it doesn't make me feel good, @KingOfSOA. {Reaching up and cupping the side of @KingOfSOA's neck, eyes borring into his} The past is where it should be, in the past. Help me make sure it stays there?
Clay: ||There wasn't a lot I could say to make @SonsOldLady's mind rest easy, but I'd lie if I had to. @PrinceOfSOA was veering off course and asking questions. I had the guys keeping an eye on him, but I couldn't help but wonder, how long before @PrinceOfSOA became a liability? Covering @SonsOldLady's hand with my own, I forced a grin.|| The past is dead and buried, Gem. Don't you worry about @PrinceOfSOA. Once his boys out of the hospital he'll get his head back into the game and as for that detective, well, we do what we have to. You call him, find out what he wants, and do not worry before then.
Gemma: Me? Worry? Never. {Smiling and placing a kiss on @KingOfSOA's lips before turning to the sink to clean up the evidence} I should go down to the hospital today too. See how my grandson is doing. You'll tell me what Wayne says, @KingOfSOA? We don't need another fucker in a cheap suit lingering around the club. // @KingOfSOA.
Clay: As soon as I know. ||Leaning in behind @SonsOldLady, my lips connect with her temple as I fist and unfist my hand to work it out, needing for it to be okay for me to ride out.|| I'm heading out. Call me if anything happens. Otherwise I'll meet you at TM later. ||Before I even left the room, my cell was in my hand. If Wayne wasn't home I would have Bobby head down to the station to see him. Whoever was trying to get into contact with @SonsOldLady had a purpose and I was going to make sure I found out what it was before it effected my old lady or my club.||
SoA Cast
- Behind the Scenes at the SoA Live Premiere Chat
Decisions, Decisions - [Solo]
Rory: [Ever since my run in with @PrinceOfSOA, my mind wouldn't cease long enough to stop stewing over his words. He may have been wrong on a lot of fronts; for starters, the crank that put @NoHopelessCase in the hospital wasn't ours. We had an arrangement with the Nordics that said they wouldn't dip into our business and vice versa, and even set each other up with potential clients when the dealer in search was looking for the wrong product. It was an agreement that kept a drug war at bay and other crews from moving in. However, one thing @PrinceOfSOA got right was the fact that if it came down to it, SAMCRO had an entire nation and beyond of MCs waiting to back them up, and us? We were the lone charter that depended on six members and two prospects as a defense. In the past, we were content being a small organization. It kept things simple, but simple wasn't doing anyone any good when shit got complicated. Sighing aloud as I leaned forward to grab my beer off the coffee table, I kicked up my feet and resumed staring at the wall as I drank. Expansion... It didn't sound like a possibility for us. We didn't have the numbers, and unless I was willing to let one of my girls free to start her own charter there really wasn't another option. Tipping the bottle back, I downed the remaining contents, equal parts frustrated and saddened about the possible future of my club. If I really wanted it... if I really wanted to move us to another playing field, I knew what I had to do, but it wasn't up to me alone. There were people I needed to talk to, things that needed to be set in place, but before that could happen, I needed a second opinion. @AdoredPoisonVP was going to think I had lost my mind.]
Hard to Handle
Thomas: -I tugged at the knot of my tie. Loosening the thing from around my neck. It felt like a noose most days. Getting tighter and tighter until I was suffocating. The automatic doors slid open as my feet hit the floor with easy strides. I was making my usual stop after work to the hospital. I ran a hand through my hair as I looked to the tiled floor. Making my way to the elevators. Pressing the button for the NICU floor. After a shit day at work, it was nice to see my nephew. I walk out of the elevator, making my way to Abel's nursery.-
Jax: [I smiled at Abel as he opened his bright eyes and thought maybe he might be smiling back at me. Something caught my eyes in the window and I frowned. Fucking @TheBetterTeller was here. I stood from my spot and make my way towards the door.]
Thomas: -I look inside the small room and roll my eyes as I see @PrinceOfSOA make his way towards the door. Stepping back because I'm sure he's got some big speech planned for me about watching myself. I waiting for @PrinceOfSOA to enter the hallway before speaking.- Hey, Jax.
Jax: [I walk out into the hallway just as @TheBetterTeller speaks. I look him over for a minute and straighten out my cut. The bastard was always in nice, snooty fuckin suits that made him look like a pussy. I didn't get it. @TheBetterTeller turning his back on us when I was /always/ there for @TheBetterTeller. He was my little brother. But he became nothing but a stranger.] Why are you here?
Thomas: Checking on my nephew. That a crime? -I leaned against the wall behind me as my hands found my pockets. My eyes intent on @PrinceOfSOA's-
Jax: Just because you've got the same last name, don't make you his family. [I stared @TheBetterTeller's face to discern any emotion at my words. @TheBetterTeller was better at a poker face than I was. Idly wondering if maybe he just didn't have any.]
Thomas: Why does it always have to be a big display with you? I just come to check on him, Jax. Not steal him. -I shook my head @PrinceOfSOA before looking both ways down the hallway. I didn't need the skeletons in my closet brought out for the world to see.- @PrinceOfSOA
Jax: [I quirk a brow @TheBetterTeller as he looks around us. Ever since he started up his own business, he's too good for the club. His family. Scared to even be seen with us. Which shocks me that @TheBetterTeller even comes to see Abel.] Scared to be seen with someone from an MC?
Thomas: No. Just you in general. -The words were said with a little more sick satisfaction than I had intended. @PrinceOfSOA was a pain in my ass.-
Jax: You better get out of here before I take you out. Heart defect or not, I'll kick your ass. [I raised a challenging brow @TheBetterTeller as I stood between @TheBetterTeller and the door that led to my son.]
Thomas: -I held up my hands in defeat before peeking inside the window of Abel's room. Watching the monitor to make sure he was still okay all that I needed. I stared at my brother for a few moments longer before speaking.- He's my family. Even if you don't think so, @PrinceOfSOA.
Jax: How can /my/ son be your family if you don't even claim me? Just go. I need to focus on him. Not you, @TheBetterTeller and your pompous ways. [I turned my back on @TheBetterTeller and walked back into the room. Keeping my brother shut out. Just like he always wanted.]
Wendy - Solo [4]
[Since the other day in @TheBetterTeller’s office I’d stayed in my apartment. I don’t know why I thought he rejected me. He hadn’t. I just freaked out. There was nothing wrong with what @TheBetterTeller had asked, but I was in a bad place. I hadn’t expected things to end up where they had. Jesus Christ. When they did? Holy shit, I couldn’t think straight. Even now, the memory of @TheBetterTeller’s mouth on @TheBetterTeller could do with that mouth of his. I felt something sharp come down on my finger.] SHIT! [I’d forgotten that I was slicing vegetables when my mind drifted to @TheBetterTeller. I ran my finger under warm water and thankfully it didn’t require a trip to the ER. The news came on the TV making me realize the date. Christmas was getting closer, there were a lot of firsts this year, but mainly it was #Abel’s very first one. This would also be the first Christmas I’d spent alone in years.]
Bir bitiremedim ilk sezonu çıldıriciim.
The solution is always an equal mix of might and right.
History Lesson
Rory: [After @BrazenedHunter returned from Nevada, I followed her home to thank her for accompanying me and asked her to hold on to the guns we brought back until I finished my shift at St. Thomas. Not having slept the night before, I was exhausted when I pulled into the employee lot of the hospital, and wondered how much longer I'd be able to keep up. I loved my job. Helping people was the only thing that gave me reprieve from the crimes I committed. I'd tried confessional once and all it did was make me feel like I was letting the world in on my dirty little secrets, and gave me a bout of paranoia that Father Hunter was going to rat. As usual, the weekend had brought more casualties and accidents. People tended to lose their minds at the slightest indication of freedom and two days off equated to freedom in the surrounding factory towns. The hospital was understaffed, tension riddled; I wasn't in the mood. It was going to be a long twelve hours, a fact that was only solidified when dispatch ordered me upstairs from the ER to help one of the doctors with a hysterical child. Every now and then when we weren't out they'd offer us up as an extra set of hands. Usually I was okay with that, however, today when I walked into pediatrics and was directed to @DocKnowlesItAll in room three-oh-one, I considered quitting then and there. Tara Knowles... I'd known the Good Doctor since high school. We both left Charming after for college, only my heart and mind were still rooted here. Charming was home, a four year stint in Oregon never changed that. But @DocKnowlesItAll, no one thought she'd be back, but here @DocKnowlesItAll was, and I couldn't help but wonder why. Once upon a time she was believed to be the princess of SAMCRO, next to become an ol' lady. Looking at her now, it was hard to believe @DocKnowlesItAll was the same person. Her eyes held a knowing, but sad glint. Something happened to @DocKnowlesItAll during her time away. I just hoped that was the cause of her return to California, and not the Vice President of SAMCRO. Walking into the room, the center of my brow creased with concern as wails poured from the mouth of some red-faced kid, and I hoped @DocKnowlesItAll would hear me over the sound.] They said you needed some help.
Tara: ~My job was my salvation. It was my purpose in the greater scheme of things and I loved it. However, dealing with children wasn't always candy and rainbows. Dealing with their small sick bodies and cries were not the perks of the job. Another non perk was running into @DebauchedDame. Rory was just a cautionary tale after cautionary tale. Looking up from the thrashing child on the bed.~ Yeah. Come over and hold him down so I can do a spinal tap. ~Motioning for @DebauchedDame to come hold the child's neck and legs, curving his back.~
Rory: [My eyes met @DocKnowlesItAll as she instructed me to hold the child. I was usually good about things like that, but being around her unnerved me. Nodding in acceptance, lean legs led me further into the room and I went to stand at the side of @DocKnowlesItAll's table. Leaning in just slightly, a grin etched itself upon lightly-glossed lips and transferred into my tone as I spoke to the kid I was about to restrain.] I'm going to hold onto you for just a second and it will be over before you know it, ok? [His cries didn't cease, but he turned his head enough to see me and that was all the recognition I needed before I leaned across his little body and held a forearm to his neck while keeping the upper half of his torso still with the weight of my frame, a firm grasp holding him tightly to me. Looking up @DocKnowlesItAll, the wriggling body beneath me fought against my form.] We might need to use the straps.
Tara: ~Turning my back to the child and @DebauchedDame, busying my hands with the needle and syringe.~ If you can't handle this, Rory, I can request for someone more capable to do this job. ~Turning back and lifting the little boy's shirt, rubbing an alcohol wipe on the location in his spine. This was a procedure that was horrible to do on adults, let alone children. Having @DebauchedDame wasn't really helpful, but I needed to do this test regardless of my feelings toward her. @DebauchedDame and I had to work together. For once.~
Rory: [All professionalism went out the window the moment @DocKnowlesItAll made her snide remark. I hadn't remembered her being such a bitch, but time changed people. I was proof of that.] If you could just speed it up he might not be able to wiggle his way from under me, *Doc*. [My eyes rolled in irritation aimed @DocKnowlesItAll, but I kept a firm grasp on the boy beneath me. I wasn't going to lose my job because @DocKnowlesItAll flew back into town with her nose in the air, like the town owed her something.]
Tara: ~Placing a calming hand on the boy's back and pressing the needle to his soft skin~ Breathe with me and @DebauchedDame, Johnny. It will be over before you can say ice cream. ~Smiling down on the little one as the needle punctured him. I held my breath, just like I noticed @DebauchedDame did. Having her in this room reminded me of everything I could have been with @PrinceOfSOA. I didn't like it.~
Rory: [The way @DocKnowlesItAll spoke to the little boy she called Johnny lightened my mood instantly. She was so tender, like she was meant for this job, this life. It made me both nostalgic for the future I let pass me by and grateful for what I had. Who knew where I would have ended up had I not returned to Charming. Letting up on Johnny as @DocKnowlesItAll slid the needle from his spine, I kept a palm pressed to the center of his shoulder blades and tried to soothe him, though his cries had sobered into sniffles.] Almost done. See? @DocKnowlesItAll knows what she's doing. That wasn't too terrible, right?
Tara: ~Placing the needle on the try and watching the liquid come out clear. I smile knowing Johnny isn't severely sick. Topping off the vial and taping up the wound. Rubbing Johnny's back but my eyes are locked on @DebauchedDame ~ Say thank you to Miss Rory, Johnny.
Rory: [Giving @DocKnowlesItAll a shallow smile, I listened to Johnny mutter a thank you and straightened from my place. It was good to see @DocKnowlesItAll could play nice, even if I got the feeling she didn't care for me much. Maybe it was because I was the rival of @PrinceOfSOA's MC, but whatever reason the feeling was mutual. Her association with the club alone made me wary.] Anything else, Doctor?
Tara: ~Moving Johnny to lay on the bed and removing my gloves, I looked to @DebauchedDame. The way doctor flowed off her lips reminded me of places in this world. Nodding toward the door.~ Outside? ~Following @DebauchedDame out of the room and away from little ears. Once there arms crossed against my chest, protective stance against @DebauchedDame ~ Thanks for that in there. But know, this doesn't change history because we share a present, Rory. ~My stare held against @DebauchedDame ~
Rory: [Sarcastic laughter slipped past smiling lips as I shoved both hands into the pockets of my scrubs. Arching a brow @DocKnowlesItAll, my head angled inquisitively.] What history are you talking about, @DocKnowlesItAll?
Tara: Don't act ignorant, it's beneath you. ~@DebauchedDame knew the history we shared.~ We aren't what you would call friends, are we? I know things about you that let's say Deputy Hale would be interested in. But I also know you're better than that @DebauchedDame.
Rory: [Deputy Hale... The name rang through my thoughts in form of a question. It made sense that @DocKnowlesItAll would be talking to him. In high school I always thought David had a thing for Tara. Pursing lush lips, my gaze narrowed @DocKnowlesItAll.] Are you threatening me, Tara? You may think you know about me, but you left, remember? You don't know shit. If this is your way of trying to get back in with @PrinceOfSOA, I'm sure you can come up with something a little more inventive. You're the doctor here, after all. [@DocKnowlesItAll struck a cord when she said I was "better than that". She waltzed back into town after years of running only to pass judgment? I needed to distance myself from @DocKnowlesItAll and fast. I knew the second she took this job that she'd be nothing but a nuisance.]
Tara: If I was threatening you, Rory, you'd know it. Just call this a public service. In addition to @PrinceOfSOA, if I wanted him back I would be with him instead of talking to you, @DebauchedDame. When I wanted out of the MC, I meant it. Maybe you should have stayed away too. ~Leaning in to @DebauchedDame, my voice just above a whisper~ Maybe you should watch yourself before you end up just like @NoHopelessCase. ~Distancing myself from @DebauchedDame. It felt like looking into a mirror but instead of a reflection, it showed a alternate verison of myself. @DebauchedDame wasn't stupid. Neither was @PrinceOfSOA but like Jax, they were bound to the MC life.~
Rory: [Resting my head back against my shoulders, I barked out a humorless laugh @DocKnowlesItAll. How off base she was, but I couldn't blame @DocKnowlesItAll. Before she left I was heading down the same path as @NoHopelessCase. What Tara didn't know was that I no longer used, just dealt.] Whatever you saw, Doc, just remember, you no longer have SAMCRO at your beck and call. I'd be careful whose buttons I pushed. Now, if you'll excuse me. I'm sure we both have better things to do than rehash a history that's obviously beneath you. [Turning on my heels, I glanced over my shoulder @DocKnowlesItAll. A part of me liked Tara, always had. She felt like a mystery, one I didn't have the time to unfold.] You take care, Tara. I don't know what brought you back here, but whatever it was, I wouldn't let the ghosts of my past linger too long. They can paralyze you.
Tara: ~Eyes narrowing at @DebauchedDame's retreating back. Something about what she said crawled under my skin. She was right that I no longer was in SAMCRO's pocket. @PrinceOfSOA wasn't mine anymore. It made me wonder who was in my corner these days. ~