Loosing weight gave me more body dysmorphophobia than i had when I weighed more. I always feel like the ugly chubby girl but then i look in the mirror and i dont really hate what i see, but my self perception hasn't improved, instead its more fucked up than its ever been.
At least when i was chubby i was aware of what i looked like, so how can i even stop now when ive become so delusional? I guess thats the power of ana














