Open-Hearted

[feelingsajared]

I've got a secret...

I've got a secret I cannot tell.

It's one you keep locked up inside,

darkness being it's faithful bride.

It echoes inside me like an ocean in a shell.

Sometimes I wish I could yell it to the world.

Show that I have the courage to stand up for myself.

But I can't, instead I leave it hidden in a book on a shelf.

Unfortunately, I'm just not that bold.

I've got a secret I cannot tell.

It's been eating away at my mind and soul,

and I want someone to listen with a heart not made of coal.

I make no sound, I am a broken bell.

[feelingsajared]

There is always something you can do...

You don't understand what it's like.

You don't understand what I'm going through.

You can't just listen and suddenly know.

You can't just listen and give a heart felt reply.

You won't be able to fix the problems I've had.

You won't be able to undue the mistakes I've done.

You shouldn't ever blame it on yourself.

You shouldn't ever ignore the things you feel are hopeless.

You can do one thing though, and that is to care.

You can be there when I'm down and don't know what to do.

You can show me that there is something more to this than just another problem.

You can acknowledge the face that I am here.

You can believe in me and everything I have yet to accomplish.

You can tell me that I'm better and that I will get through this.

You can be the person who changes everything.

[feelingsajared]

Of Some Come All Righteously

I've felt the strangest when I'm around you,

Its practically indescribable too.

I can easily be myself when you're around,

You're voice being a soothing and beautiful sound.

Everything you say will always have it's way,

With a giggle, a laugh, attentive ears will always stay.

You have the most wonderful personality,

Being kind, nice, gentle and the most caring mentality.

[feelingsajared]

Think twice before acting.

Nothing really ever ends.

There will always be that which never disappears,

They stay in pictures, our hearts, and spoken about with tears.

The chain has no limit,

it reaches the world in days, hours, maybe in a minute.

The closer you are to them the harder to forget,

the further you are would only bring thoughts of regret.

The worst part though is that there is no going back,

Never will there be a second chance, not a loophole, not a crack.

[feelingsajared]

Dead-End?

They say always that someone has it worse than you,

that you should stay positive and be true.

They always say life wouldn't be easy,

that it wouldn't just fly by and hand free-be's. 

They always say that we all have our moments,

that we need to stay strong and look past those dents.

What if there wasn't a way and you just couldn't?

Am I just being prudent?

[feelingsajared]

Something not easily taught.

My heart isn't made of gold,

but it isn't that cold.

Any little thing makes it fold,

or so I have been told.

It's easy to mold,

make it into something that can't, shan't, or won't be sold,

and it's something that is worthy to behold.

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Now is it sensitive,

or am I just primitive?

Is this not a common thing to strive,

maybe by a community, or at least every other five.

It's as though everyone fears the dive,

I sometimes wonder if they're even alive

or just simply part of their own beehive.

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I question, if there isn't something we can do,

to help bring back what society has bid adieu.

There needs to be someone who could, but who?

It isn't simple you see, multiple have tried but poo,

people are rigid and wouldn't budge not even their shoe.

This couldn't possibly spread like morning dew,

we can only hope for a start of something new.

[feelingsajared]

So many people just don't understand.

There will always be someone who cares,

there will be someone who stares,

there will someone who gives dares. 

Not everyone is the same, 

nor is anyone out to play a fair game.

Just cause one person decides to be mean,

don't expect everyone else to follow the scene.

Not everyone will show sympathy,

not everyone has empathy.

However, what you've got to understand, is that there is someone.

Someone who will dare to care,

someone who will always be fair,

someone who will go all the way to share

their life with you and will always be there.

[feelingsajared]

Sometimes people just can't take a hint...

There is this feeling inside of me,

it feels like something new,

maybe it's just part of feeling blue,

or maybe it has something to do with you.

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If you could just walk away,

you know? That place near the galaxy,

somewhere that will keep you astray.

Please just stay out of my way.

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I know, it's something mean and cruel,

maybe it's me just being a fool.

But I can't help but feel that you're just a piece of stool,

that helps to fertilize all my anger like fire to a fuel.

[feelingsajared]

You will always be somewhere.

Not a day goes by that you don't leave you're fingerprint somewhere.

Uniquely, given the opportunity to leave a different mark compared to others.

How you choose to leave the mark is what makes the difference.

Each one showing the work that you, as a person, do.

Impacted, worn out, smoothed, clean, dirty, rigid.

Everything you do impacts things around you as well as yourself.

Your "work" remains there for times to come.

Even if you don't see it in as clear as through a vivid, lucid, transparent window.

How others react to is, defines the outcome of your actions. 

[feelingsajared]

What once was is now no longer...

There once was a dark, small little room.

It lacked decoration, liveliness, and seemed to almost meet it's doom.

There wasn't much to it, it was just simple and plain,

there were spider webs, dust, and anything else foreign.

My little heart was crushed because this once was my little place,

it was once alive and full of happiness and joy, almost like a palace.

This thought, once a memory, will only forever be in my head,

never to be true again, almost as though it were dead.

Why can't we preserve what's good and nice to us,

why is it so difficult? Why must you all through such a fuss. 

Never be true only to yourself, but to others as well.

Don't hide, don't fret, don't be afraid life isn't meant to hide under a shell.

[feelingsajared]

Be more aware of things done by, to, and around you.

You've got to stop thinking this way,

If not it will come back and you will pay.

It's one thing to understand the now and present,

And another to know what will result and if you could repent.

Nothing is ever small, tiny, or insignificant,

It's these lies that hide everything that's excellent. 

Something that may seem miniature, 

Could end up being the greatest cure!

And thanks to what societies way of thinking,

We could all miss it without even blinking.

[feelingsajared]

Being blue can only be so true.

There once was a man that was colored blue,

it wasn't till later that he found out he had the flu.

Sad and depressed 

he decided to rest.

Nothing was left, nor was anything right,

so therefore he decided to take the first flight.

Up high in the air,

he saw a bright flair. 

It was then that it all made it sense!

It was all part of his trance. 

[feelingsajared]

Nothing is as hard as being truthful.

It's always something new,

only known by few,

hardly seen like dew.

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If only it were true,

that it could be easily conversed with you,

something everyone could do.

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Ever wondered what someone thought,

if there was something they sought,

of maybe something they fought.

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If only it were easily taught,

that nothing is wrong with being caught

by whatever it is that is being bought. 

[feelingsajared]

What a kindhearted person might be like...

There is no need to have any fright, 

it's only just a bright light.

It's there to help you when you are sad,

so maybe you will know that darkness doesn't hide what is bad.

Somewhere, somehow you will see the good side of me,

but till then I promise I won't be such a bully. 

Not in front of you, others, not even in my head,

because then I will be feeling not happy but sad.

[feelingsajared]

Never leave a book to pile up dust after reading it...

It's difficult to even try and compare,

Especially when I never even share.

I'm not an open book,

But I never said you couldn't take a look.

Please don't tear out any pages,

Or even censor it, as if I lived in multiple cages.

However I do warn you now, 

I'm not like everyone else, so don't expect a show.

Let me be me,

And hopefully you will understand what you see.