[feinic]

#fenic --

To rise like a phoenix, I must die like a phoenix,re-born anew from the remnants of the old,missed yet forgotten as the ashes mold into new flames —giving the ultimate breath of lifeinto this new essence, new being, new form,but I’m still me.

a private and selective joshua rosfield as penned by jade

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Final Fantasy 8 Starter Sentences

That's so mean! I worked really hard on mine!

Your Mom wears combat boots!

I dreamt I was a moron.

So, how did it feel out there on the battlefield?

A speech…? Forget it. Cut the mic!

I hate it when people wish me luck. Save those words for someone that needs them, eh?

Sounds like a brat…I mean, a spunky girl.

Don't scare me like that!

I'm fine by myself now. I have all the skills I need to survive.

Oh, you knew?

This isn't some kinda club you can sweet-talk your way into.

To tell you the truth… I worry too much about what others think of me.

Why do people depend on each other? In the end, you're on your own.

Even if you become the world's enemy, I will be your knight

You guys…sure have guts. You know how high this cliff is…?

Collect all the hot dogs and store everything in the secret shelter. Don't leave anything for the enemy.

Thanks to you guys, I was able to see how much I was loved.

Hey, hey, hey, what's up? I'm not invited? I thought I was part of the gang.

Just a little longer… I don't wanna go back…

Man, you look way too serious.

I don't want anyone to look back and regret this day.

Why do you always play me like that?

You know what…? I'm gonna do something. I'm tired of sitting around watching others and judging them.

I have no musical aptitude whatsoever.

Do you actually have fun acting so callous towards your comrades?

I say things that get a rise out of some people. Just don't let it bother you and we'll get along fine.

I've come this far because I've… fallen for you.

…This guy needs to grow up.

This is my house. But don't make yourselves too comfortable!

I hate having nothing to do. It gets me thinking too much.

Right and wrong are not what separate us and our enemies. It's our different standpoints, our perspectives that separate us.

There are no guarantees in the future. That's why TODAY, the time we have now, is important.

I don't believe in relying on others.

You're still a teenager. Why don't you act like one for a change?

Forget it. I don't want friends who won't be around tomorrow.

I feel like a helpless puppet being manipulated in some major scheme.

You should feel honored that a very, very cute girl sat on your bed, you know!

…I don't need you to understand me.

This is so typical. Adults reminiscing and talking on and on about the things they couldn't do or didn't do… I hate it.

Someday you're bound to lose everything. Everyone around you will be gone. Then what are you left with? Nothing. Nobody…

I don't want the future. I want the present to stand still. I just want to stay here with you…

This is the scene where you swear your undying hatred for me!

Well, fine then! We WILL have a good time!

Someone might not be there. Someone you love may disappear before your very eyes. It's tough when you live your life thinking that way. But that's why I fight…

Heeey! Lookin' good!

You have to voice your feelings or else I won't understand.

Am I that untrusting…? Maybe I'm this way because I'm scared. Nothing lasts in this world.

Everyone has to take care of themselves. I don't want to carry anyone's burden.

I'm more complex than you think.

Reality isn't so kind. Everything doesn't work out the way you want it to. That's why… As long as you don't get your hopes up, you can take anything… You feel less pain.

[feinic]

the fight with bahamut is so good and learning about what happened to dion im so emotional

[annori]

Donna Tartt, from The Goldfinch (2013)

[praesparo]

                    ❛ do all you dominants come with this level of confidence?  ❜ he bluntly spoke, shifting past his client before swinging the door open to the mezzanine of the tavern, taking one or two tentative steps before nodding back inside. ❛ we're clear. let's mosey.  ❜ he commands, immediately moving towards the exit of the tavern before repeating the same process. this wasn't going to be any sorts of simple journey, cloud knew this already. ❛ let's making fighting the last resort. we can't have them seeing your magic. i've got plenty crystals on me.  ❜

[feinic]

for  someone  of  cloud's  build,  joshua  expected  him  to  use  a  much  smaller  weapon.  it  wasn't  that  cloud  wasn't  strong,  joshua  could  see  muscles  shifting  each  time  he  moved,  but  surely  that  weapon  had  to  weigh  at  least  four  stones.  it  also  stuck  out  like  a  sore  chocobo,  and  it,  perhaps  more  than  anything,  makes  joshua  a  bit  apprehensive.  'i  cannot  speak  for  all  dominants,  as  i've  only  met  two  others,  but  they  are  also  that  confident.'  

exploring  an  underground  ruin  that  could  possibly  be  teeming  with  fallen  relics  and  other  enemies  sounds  difficult,  and  one  that  makes  joshua  very  excited  for  the  sellsword  he  hired.  his  voice  drops  down  to  a  murmur,  for  the  other's  voice  alone.  'i  do  not  rely  on  the  power  of  the  phoenix  alone.  i  am  capable  with  a  sword,  and  i  was  taught  how  to  fight  with  my  fists.  but  i  do  thank  you  for  your  help.  we  will  be  heading  deep  into  a  fallen  ruins,  looking  for  books,  tapestries,  or  things  similar.'  

[braskide]

bevelle wasn't always cruel. it gave her a father that brought her into the world with kindness and then did her the kindness of taking him away, too. but before they could unmake it, they brought it to her on a silver platter, and on it two rosfields that cherished her and were cherished in return. she always held onto the hazy memories of them, being so young and forgetful, and yet even on the sandy shores of besaid she'd find herself thinking about them, about the warmth of friends back home. but they weren't home anymore, and bevelle wasn't home for none of them since, either. they had left her behind on the same damned bridge where everyone would later celebrate the calm her father brought. eventually, the pilgrimage would take her, too. all it does is take and take, and word came that the rosfields were no more for this world, but joined in the spiral.

every choice would lead her here, many years later in this very moment, where the flame that cautiously approaches feels familiar, kind. one that protects the gentleness of his voice that is warmer, far warmer than any fire that burns from the hidden phoenix. her hand is brought up enough to shield her eyes from the bright flames surrounding the two figures, enough to distinguish the protector that approaches through the grey mist : memories of children laughing together engulf her at the calling. ❝ it's you, ❞ it feels so obvious to state, and she still does. the chosen of the rosfields : ❝  joshua?  ❞ even in chaos, even in danger, she steps forward, tranquil that the wings of healing will warm her against the harm of luca. ❝  you are alive.  ❞

[feinic]

he  was  always  in  awe  of  yuna's  kindness,  something  that  was  apparent  even  as  a  child.  it  was  something  inherent,  something  deep  in  her  soul,  and  something  that  reminded  him  of  his  eldest  brother.  to  him,  there  was  no  one  kinder  than  his  older  brother,  whose  steady  hands  guided  many  and  lead  with  an  leadership  that  only  comes  naturally  to  some.  

seeing  her  now,  seeing  how  she's  grown  up  fills  joshua  with  joy  and  perhaps,  a  tough  of  sadness.  he  hates  that  anyone  tries  to  become  a  summoner,  hates  that  it's  a  requirement  due  to  sin,  and  hates  that  someone  he  watched  grow  up  (even  for  a  fracture  of  time)  felt  the  need  to  choose  that  path.  it  makes  him  feel  sick  to  his  stomach.  how  does  he  get  her  to  stop?  how  does  he  make  sure  she  does  not  die  at  the  hands  of  a  false  fronted  church?

'it's  so  good  to  see  you  again,  lady  yuna.'  is  he  playing  his  cards  too  soon?  perhaps.  is  clive  possibly  cursing  his  name  from  here  to  zanarkand  itself?  yes.  but  he  could  not  let  all  of  these  people  get  hurt  in  front  of  him,  not  when  the  phoenix  could  heal  them  all.  

but  he's  nervous.  what  does  one  say  when  the  entire  country  thought  he  was  dead  for  a  decade.    'i  am  alive...just.  but  i  am.  i  couldn't  let  others  get  hurt  in  front  of  me.'

[feinic]

❛ you don’t mean that. ❜

short angst / accepting / @dewrose

'but  i  do.'  joshua  never  wants  to  be  cruel,  he  never  wants  his  words  to  hurt  but  he  needs  to  be  honest.  he's  dying.  the  second  he  sealed  ultima  in  his  chest,  the  second  he  stepped  in  front  of  his  brother,  his  fate  was  sealed.  

'i  am  dying.  i  will  be  dead  within  two  years.  sometimes  i  think  it  would  be  for  the  best  if  i  joined  metia  sooner  than  later.'

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  an  assortment  of  short  and  angsty  dialogue  prompts.  feel  free  to  change  and  edit  as  you  seem  fit.  )  

❛ i didn’t know where else to go. ❜

❛ i’ll never be that me again. ❜

❛ you can still be good. ❜

❛ i thought you’d be here. ❜

❛ don’t act like you know me. ❜

❛ because i care about you, okay? ❜

❛ it wasn’t supposed to end like this. ❜

❛ i was scared. i thought you had lost your way. ❜

❛ am i supposed to just let you go? ❜

❛ you deserve better than me. ❜

❛ don’t make me do this. ❜

❛ i’m not who you think i am. ❜

❛ you don’t mean that. ❜

❛ please just hold me. ❜

❛ i don’t want to understand, i want you to stay. ❜

❛ and why should i care? ❜

❛ you look awful. ❜

❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜

❛ don’t let me lose you too. ❜

❛ for what it’s worth, i really am sorry. ❜

❛ it’s not your fault. ❜

❛ i don’t know who i am anymore. ❜

❛ is this the part where you kick me out? ❜

❛ don’t we deserve to be happy? ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you can’t save everyone. ❜

❛ it was a nightmare, that’s all. ❜

❛ it’s just a scratch, don’t worry. ❜

❛ you know me better than i know myself. ❜

❛ don’t go where i can’t follow. ❜

❛ you’re better off without me. ❜

❛ we all die alone. ❜

❛ people get hurt if they get too close to me. ❜

❛ i hate what i’ve become. ❜

❛ i’m not going anywhere. ❜

❛ is there anything i can do to help? ❜

❛ i don’t even recognize you anymore. ❜

❛ who did this to you? ❜

❛ please don’t leave me. ❜

❛ oh, now you care? ❜

❛ don’t come any closer! ❜

❛ i missed you so much. ❜

❛ you don’t have to say anything. ❜

❛ do you want me to leave? ❜

❛ why are you avoiding me? ❜

❛ you could have died, you know. ❜

❛ i wish you were here. ❜

❛ you’re not alone. i’m staying right here. ❜

❛ i can be your family. ❜

❛ of course i’m here. where else would i be? ❜

❛ we just can’t seem to get it right, huh? ❜

❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜

❛ don’t push me away again. ❜

❛ this wasn’t how it was supposed to go. ❜

❛ you’re leaving already? ❜

❛ this was a mistake. ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

[verreprincesse]

"I'll be fine." Sure, her hands were shaking, and sure she had yawned three times in the past five minutes, but she was fine.

[feinic]

'no,  my  lady,  i  insist.  there's  a  wonderful  place  to  eat  just  up  ahead  &.  it'll  be  my  treat.'  and  he's  worried.  when  someone's  hands  start  shaking,  the  healer  in  him  starts  to  show  up.  

[feinic]

anyways dion muses come to me please

[feinic]

new tomb raider game?????!!!

[feinic]

so sorry i haven't been on / writing much. my knee has been hurting / i've been playing games all weekend and im so very close to fighting bahamut

[feinic]

i'm about to be fight bahamut and the absolute pain and terror in joshua's voice when he realizes what's going on and his unwavering belief that dion wasn't in control and joshua believes in him wholeheartedly because he knows how kind and genuine and noble dion truly is

[feinic]

happy pride everyone!!!

[nirmiti]

the intimacy of "how do you know that?"

"because I know you."

[feinic]

joshua is a biseuxal man

[fatewalkr]

𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙮'𝙨 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 ; 𝙨𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙨 & 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙨. indie DISSIDIA FF OC as lovingly portrayed by valkyrie.