like the moon, we borrow our light

Felix. 19. Sometimes people call me Fe, you're welcome to if you'd like. Runaway. New York born. Feel like prying any further than that and I'll be all ears.

[cant-winn]

[felixcarlevaro]

I'M ALIVE.

No, but seriously, my computer's about to die and I don't know when I'll have it back. Hopefully soon! 

[lastkeeperofthelight-deactivate]

[srslyrowan]

No, that’s awfully nice of you to say. You can trust me. I mean, I won’t go around telling everyone or anything. Why are you nervous? I hope it’s not because of me. Oh, no. Don’t be nervous, Felix. I get nervous too, but I just talk a lot and I get really jumpy.

[felixcarlevaro]

Yeah, I didn't think you would. Why am I nervous? Aside from... because you're beautiful and nice and I like talking to you and I feel like my heart's gonna beat out of my chest. It makes me a little nervous. I can't help it. Jumpy, huh? That's better than stuttery. 

[srslyrowan]

Thank you. I usually end up with just a bruise or two. It’s nothing ever major. It just happens a lot. That’s okay, really. I get that. I don’t think anyone really likes sharing how they got here or stuff like that, so. You’re nice, too. And cute. Even when you’re not good with words. 

[felixcarlevaro]

Of course, Row. I think, if I were to tell anyone around here how I got here and why, it'd be you. Which I hope doesn't sound super creepy or weird or whatever. I must be pretty cute all the time then, because as soon as I get nervous, I'm fucking awful with words.

[srslyrowan]

That’s really nice to hear, Felix. You’re pretty wonderful yourself, you know? Okay, I trust you. I’m pretty clumsy sometimes. Wow, thank you. You can always count on me, too. I mean, I’m not always the best person but you can come to me whenever you need me. I’ve even been told I’m a good listener. 

[felixcarlevaro]

I didn't, really, but it's nice to hear. In that case, I'll make sure you don't trip or fall or anything while we're hanging out. If it's alright with you, maybe we can work up to that. I have a hard time talking to people about myself. But for now, I'd really like to just keep spending time with you. It's nice. You. Are nice. Spending time with you is nice. Wow, I'm bad at this.

[srslyrowan]

I think you fell into a little misfortune with meeting me, but I suppose luck did bring me lots of nice people that actually care about me. I hope I don’t trip. But, in that case, you should probably stay close. I can? Wow, that means a lot, Fe. Really, it does.

[felixcarlevaro]

I don't think so, nor would I ever think that. I think you're wonderful. Honestly. You won't. I mean, okay, you might trip but I'll be there to catch you, yeah? I promise. You can, absolutely. For anything. If you need anything, I'm here. I figure you should know that. 

[srslyrowan]

I think I’m pretty lucky, but you know, I also don’t believe in luck. I think I can. I’ll scream for help if I get carried away in the undertow of the blanket, though. I might just wrap it around me then and walk up the stairs. That might be easier…well, unless someone trips.

[felixcarlevaro]

My name means 'lucky' in Latin, I can't really let it go. Besides, my luck must be infinitely better than usual if I got to meet you. If that does in fact happen, I'll rescue you immediately, don't you worry. I'll catch you. If you trip, I mean. I can catch you. You can count on me. 

[srslyrowan]

I don’t think people get that. I don’t much like most people around me, but there’s a few decent ones. I can handle it! They’re just blankets, silly. I’m stronger than I look, I promise! Pop tarts are my favorite, so yes. That would be lovely. I think I have a bit of food left in the cupboard too.

[felixcarlevaro]

Well, I'm glad I get to be one of the lucky people who get to be around you a lot then. I know, but it'd like... drown you in fabric. Either way, it's super comfy and warm and you'll like it. Pop tarts it is then. Whatever you want to bring then, I'm not all that picky, so I'll eat pretty much anything. 

[srslyrowan]

Aw, weren’t you a sweet boy? Still are, actually. I’ll keep that in mind. But, right now, I think cuddles will suffice. Bring up your blankets! Or I can come help you grab some, too. Maybe some snacks. We could be up here for a while. 

[felixcarlevaro]

I try my best. There's no point in being a douche all the time. Cuddles I can definitely make happen. Well, one of 'em is probably bigger than you are, but if you think you can handle it. Snacks, got it. You like pop tarts, right? Blue always wants them, so I make sure we always have some. 

[srslyrowan]

Well, at least you’ve got the height thing. I’m sure they loved it for when they needed stuff that was high up. I know I would have. Oh, no. I mean, I could but that would be rude. Cuddling would be nice, really. Oh? I feel really lucky then, wow. 

[felixcarlevaro]

I'd say so, considering my mom used to make me put stuff on high shelves for her, and y'know, clean cobwebs off of the ceiling and stuff. Well, you can always come get me when you need stuff that you can't reach. Or anything at all, really. Fe, the handyman, at your service. Cuddling with you sounds pretty awesome, I agree. 

[srslyrowan]

You must come from a family of really tall people, then. I don’t even know why I’m so short, but you know, it’s okay. Except for when I can’t reach the top shelf for stuff. Did you say cuddling? Wow, I really enjoy cuddling. I wouldn’t mind cuddling with you either. Oh, did I actually say that? Oops. Anyway, my little brother used to do that a lot. He was a lot younger than me, so I guess it was supposed to happen.

[felixcarlevaro]

My... dad is really tall, my mom wasn't and my sisters are all tiny in comparison, so. I guess I got the better end of the deal as far as height goes. At least you don't crack "how's the weather up there" jokes all the time. I did say cuddling. And I don't do it really ever, but I would happily cuddle with you. You did, and there's no reason to 'oops' - I don't mind. My sisters are all older, I think they did it just to mess with me. 

[srslyrowan]

I’m not that tiny! Just a little tiny. But, your second warmest blanket would be lovely. I have lots of chairs and a few pillows up here, too. It’ll be a nice, cozy little fort. Like when I was little. 

[felixcarlevaro]

Row, I'm sort of a giant in comparison, so. I'll bring my warmest blanket too, for cuddling purposes or whatever. I used to try and make forts when I was a kid, but my sisters would always barge in and knock 'em down. Not on purpose, but they never lasted long.

[srslyrowan]

I have a lot, Felix. Promise! I don’t really wanna freeze. But, you can bring me some, if you want. I want to make a fort with them!

[felixcarlevaro]

I trust you! I'm just saying, I'd be awfully, awfully sad if you weren't around anymore. I... will bring you my second warmest and fuzziest blanket. And help you make a blanket fort, because you're sort of tiny and I'd be happy to help.

[srslyrowan]

I find myself on the roof more and more lately. It’s really quite peaceful up here. I’ve brought chairs and more blankets. I may even bring up a tent for like, camping out or something.

[felixcarlevaro]

You know it's cold as shit, right? I hope you have more than enough blankets. And like, y'know, good ones. I'd hate for you to freeze.

[wynterjfc-deactivated20140413]

You should play for me sometime, I love guitars, however odd that sounds. Or we could form some super power, you play, I sing. We’d be rolling in money by Thursday.

[felixcarlevaro]

I'd love to play for you some time, that'd be awesome. I can't guarantee I can play a whole bunch of songs you like, but I do know a fair few. We could also totally do that. We'd make bank. Maybe then you wouldn't have to, y'know, do the waitress thing.

[wynterjfc-deactivated20140413]

It’s the greatest job in the world, I know. —Really, you actually do that? Are you any good?

[felixcarlevaro]

It's better than not having one, Wyn. I'm... decent enough to get tips, so. I'd say I don't exactly suck. I've been playing guitar since I was... nine.