no i'm not related to Minus.

i don't care

[felixthegoldmountain]

Intro post

Bungou stray dogs OC roleplay account [21/02/2025]

name: Félix Goldenberg

age: 18 years [08/11] (month/day)

identity: Gender apathetic AMAB, aromantic (he/they)

ability: Tabacaria -> allows him to create windows with a view to anywhere he wishes to see on any wall

Curling up against the wall, can't shut you up, you know it all. Yeah, honestly, i'd kill you if i could. /lyr

Félix uses mobility aids (wheelchair and crutches) after injuring himself in an mysterious accident

He has depression and passes through common dissociation and hallucination episodes. Félix drinks and smokes as a way to cope with all of that (don't be like him, kids)

Enjoys fish, jazz, being left alone and listening to indie bands

Dislikes horror movies, onions, pure silence, extremely happy people, children and his old family

picrew

||mod info||

Main account: @ranidaee

other rp account: @the-catsushi , @kaisilveira

mod is a minor! (In the can-drive-a-car way lol) please avoid heavy nsfw topics, I am not comfortable with those!

My interactions will probably be around hurt/comfort topics. Heavy angst isn't my thing. I like humor/crack rps but don't know how to do those right lol.

Thaaat being said. Content warnings for this blog are mainly for angst, use of legal drugs, unreality and possibly body horror! I try to tag those but won't promise anything

No DNIs just don't be an asshole and we'll be vibing

english is not my native language, sorry for any (very) possible mistakes (I'm from Brazil!)

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*a young adult leans against the wall right next to the open store doors. They look... a bit ragged, to say the least, but for a man like Fukuzawa, who've seen everything this port city has to give, it's nothing out of the ordinary. He carries with him a pair of crutches, a backpack. and the cigarette in between his fingers. His expression seems to be of passive annoyance*

"hey, sir. Would you hand me a lighter for a quick?"

*Now directly facing Fukuzawa's gaze, the other side of his face which was previously hidden shows a pretty nasty bruise. It seems like he got in a fight and got punched*

@felixthegoldmountain

I'm afraid I don't have one

[felixthegoldmountain]

*He sighs*

Well I tried

*Félix throws the unburned cigarette on the ground, right next to a drain*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You don't look old enough to have those anyway

[felixthegoldmountain]

Aren't folks like you the ones to say "don't judge a person by their age" or something like that? Mind ya business

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Very well.

[felixthegoldmountain]

*scowling, he changes his attention into searching for something inside his pockets and bag, but abruptly stops, chocked, with his gaze looking away from where Fukuzawa stands*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Everything alright?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Uhm, ye-yeah.

*he fishes out some pocket change from one of his pockets*

I need to get hammered so fucking bad right now *mumbling under his breath*

*he starts walking to go enter the shop*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You sure? I'm happy to help if you need something

[felixthegoldmountain]

i need a bottle of licor but I don't think you're willing to donate me that

*his head twiches, almost like a flinch. He heads straight to the alcohol section, looking for something he can afford*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*he follows him*

What's your poison?

[felixthegoldmountain]

whatever's the cheapest. I'm not a high-hat consumer

*his posture speaks of tension, for some fucking reason*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Pick one. On me.

[felixthegoldmountain]

Fuck man...

*he grabs a bottle of sake*

Why?

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*a young adult leans against the wall right next to the open store doors. They look... a bit ragged, to say the least, but for a man like Fukuzawa, who've seen everything this port city has to give, it's nothing out of the ordinary. He carries with him a pair of crutches, a backpack. and the cigarette in between his fingers. His expression seems to be of passive annoyance*

"hey, sir. Would you hand me a lighter for a quick?"

*Now directly facing Fukuzawa's gaze, the other side of his face which was previously hidden shows a pretty nasty bruise. It seems like he got in a fight and got punched*

@felixthegoldmountain

I'm afraid I don't have one

[felixthegoldmountain]

*He sighs*

Well I tried

*Félix throws the unburned cigarette on the ground, right next to a drain*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You don't look old enough to have those anyway

[felixthegoldmountain]

Aren't folks like you the ones to say "don't judge a person by their age" or something like that? Mind ya business

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Very well.

[felixthegoldmountain]

*scowling, he changes his attention into searching for something inside his pockets and bag, but abruptly stops, chocked, with his gaze looking away from where Fukuzawa stands*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Everything alright?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Uhm, ye-yeah.

*he fishes out some pocket change from one of his pockets*

I need to get hammered so fucking bad right now *mumbling under his breath*

*he starts walking to go enter the shop*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You sure? I'm happy to help if you need something

[felixthegoldmountain]

i need a bottle of licor but I don't think you're willing to donate me that

*his head twiches, almost like a flinch. He heads straight to the alcohol section, looking for something he can afford*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*he follows him*

What's your poison?

[felixthegoldmountain]

whatever's the cheapest. I'm not a high-hat consumer

*his posture speaks of tension, for some fucking reason*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*a young adult leans against the wall right next to the open store doors. They look... a bit ragged, to say the least, but for a man like Fukuzawa, who've seen everything this port city has to give, it's nothing out of the ordinary. He carries with him a pair of crutches, a backpack. and the cigarette in between his fingers. His expression seems to be of passive annoyance*

"hey, sir. Would you hand me a lighter for a quick?"

*Now directly facing Fukuzawa's gaze, the other side of his face which was previously hidden shows a pretty nasty bruise. It seems like he got in a fight and got punched*

@felixthegoldmountain

I'm afraid I don't have one

[felixthegoldmountain]

*He sighs*

Well I tried

*Félix throws the unburned cigarette on the ground, right next to a drain*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You don't look old enough to have those anyway

[felixthegoldmountain]

Aren't folks like you the ones to say "don't judge a person by their age" or something like that? Mind ya business

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Very well.

[felixthegoldmountain]

*scowling, he changes his attention into searching for something inside his pockets and bag, but abruptly stops, chocked, with his gaze looking away from where Fukuzawa stands*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Everything alright?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Uhm, ye-yeah.

*he fishes out some pocket change from one of his pockets*

I need to get hammered so fucking bad right now *mumbling under his breath*

*he starts walking to go enter the shop*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You sure? I'm happy to help if you need something

[felixthegoldmountain]

i need a bottle of licor but I don't think you're willing to donate me that

*his head twiches, almost like a flinch. He heads straight to the alcohol section, looking for something he can afford*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*a young adult leans against the wall right next to the open store doors. They look... a bit ragged, to say the least, but for a man like Fukuzawa, who've seen everything this port city has to give, it's nothing out of the ordinary. He carries with him a pair of crutches, a backpack. and the cigarette in between his fingers. His expression seems to be of passive annoyance*

"hey, sir. Would you hand me a lighter for a quick?"

*Now directly facing Fukuzawa's gaze, the other side of his face which was previously hidden shows a pretty nasty bruise. It seems like he got in a fight and got punched*

@felixthegoldmountain

I'm afraid I don't have one

[felixthegoldmountain]

*He sighs*

Well I tried

*Félix throws the unburned cigarette on the ground, right next to a drain*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You don't look old enough to have those anyway

[felixthegoldmountain]

Aren't folks like you the ones to say "don't judge a person by their age" or something like that? Mind ya business

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Very well.

[felixthegoldmountain]

*scowling, he changes his attention into searching for something inside his pockets and bag, but abruptly stops, chocked, with his gaze looking away from where Fukuzawa stands*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Everything alright?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Uhm, ye-yeah.

*he fishes out some pocket change from one of his pockets*

I need to get hammered so fucking bad right now *mumbling under his breath*

*he starts walking to go enter the shop*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*a young adult leans against the wall right next to the open store doors. They look... a bit ragged, to say the least, but for a man like Fukuzawa, who've seen everything this port city has to give, it's nothing out of the ordinary. He carries with him a pair of crutches, a backpack. and the cigarette in between his fingers. His expression seems to be of passive annoyance*

"hey, sir. Would you hand me a lighter for a quick?"

*Now directly facing Fukuzawa's gaze, the other side of his face which was previously hidden shows a pretty nasty bruise. It seems like he got in a fight and got punched*

@felixthegoldmountain

I'm afraid I don't have one

[felixthegoldmountain]

*He sighs*

Well I tried

*Félix throws the unburned cigarette on the ground, right next to a drain*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You don't look old enough to have those anyway

[felixthegoldmountain]

Aren't folks like you the ones to say "don't judge a person by their age" or something like that? Mind ya business

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

Very well.

[felixthegoldmountain]

*scowling, he changes his attention into searching for something inside his pockets and bag, but abruptly stops, chocked, with his gaze looking away from where Fukuzawa stands*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*a young adult leans against the wall right next to the open store doors. They look... a bit ragged, to say the least, but for a man like Fukuzawa, who've seen everything this port city has to give, it's nothing out of the ordinary. He carries with him a pair of crutches, a backpack. and the cigarette in between his fingers. His expression seems to be of passive annoyance*

"hey, sir. Would you hand me a lighter for a quick?"

*Now directly facing Fukuzawa's gaze, the other side of his face which was previously hidden shows a pretty nasty bruise. It seems like he got in a fight and got punched*

@felixthegoldmountain

I'm afraid I don't have one

[felixthegoldmountain]

*He sighs*

Well I tried

*Félix throws the unburned cigarette on the ground, right next to a drain*

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

You don't look old enough to have those anyway

[felixthegoldmountain]

Aren't folks like you the ones to say "don't judge a person by their age" or something like that? Mind ya business

[fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency]

*a young adult leans against the wall right next to the open store doors. They look... a bit ragged, to say the least, but for a man like Fukuzawa, who've seen everything this port city has to give, it's nothing out of the ordinary. He carries with him a pair of crutches, a backpack. and the cigarette in between his fingers. His expression seems to be of passive annoyance*

"hey, sir. Would you hand me a lighter for a quick?"

*Now directly facing Fukuzawa's gaze, the other side of his face which was previously hidden shows a pretty nasty bruise. It seems like he got in a fight and got punched*

@felixthegoldmountain

I'm afraid I don't have one

[felixthegoldmountain]

*He sighs*

Well I tried

*Félix throws the unburned cigarette on the ground, right next to a drain*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Baby, I promise. Can you please look at me/

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix yanks his arms from Nikolai's hands, puts them behind his back and then looks to him with a very confused, very hurt expression*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything is okay. You drank the medicine, so you'll be okay. You aren't infected and the bugs are gone

[felixthegoldmountain]

There... were bugs?

*God. He wishes some higher being just put him the sleep already*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Your brain was mean and made you think there were bugs but there aren't any anymore, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

*She just gains a "hm" as a response. Félix turns to the bed, still trying not to give much attention to his arms, pulls the blanket to him and covers himself with it. There. Problem kinda solved*

Im no baby

*he grumbles*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I know, honey, it's just a sweet nickname I give you and the others

*Niko stood and walked over to Felix before scooping him up and tucking him into bed*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he bites his cheek, letting himself be manouvered (for only this time)*

Grab my mp3... *sighs* please?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Of course, baby

*Niko kissed the top of his head and went to grab his mp3*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*félix clears his throat, taking the device and conecting it to his headphones*

Ffu.. get out with those nicknames

[mama-bird-kyola]

Never. I'm your mama.

[felixthegoldmountain]

A'ight. Fuck off with them.

[mama-bird-kyola]

Never. Now I'll go get you some medicine so you can sleep, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

*grumbling, he nods. Maybe tonight his "higher being" will be some forsaken medicine*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Baby, I promise. Can you please look at me/

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix yanks his arms from Nikolai's hands, puts them behind his back and then looks to him with a very confused, very hurt expression*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything is okay. You drank the medicine, so you'll be okay. You aren't infected and the bugs are gone

[felixthegoldmountain]

There... were bugs?

*God. He wishes some higher being just put him the sleep already*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Your brain was mean and made you think there were bugs but there aren't any anymore, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

*She just gains a "hm" as a response. Félix turns to the bed, still trying not to give much attention to his arms, pulls the blanket to him and covers himself with it. There. Problem kinda solved*

Im no baby

*he grumbles*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I know, honey, it's just a sweet nickname I give you and the others

*Niko stood and walked over to Felix before scooping him up and tucking him into bed*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he bites his cheek, letting himself be manouvered (for only this time)*

Grab my mp3... *sighs* please?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Of course, baby

*Niko kissed the top of his head and went to grab his mp3*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*félix clears his throat, taking the device and conecting it to his headphones*

Ffu.. get out with those nicknames

[mama-bird-kyola]

Never. I'm your mama.

[felixthegoldmountain]

A'ight. Fuck off with them.

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Baby, I promise. Can you please look at me/

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix yanks his arms from Nikolai's hands, puts them behind his back and then looks to him with a very confused, very hurt expression*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything is okay. You drank the medicine, so you'll be okay. You aren't infected and the bugs are gone

[felixthegoldmountain]

There... were bugs?

*God. He wishes some higher being just put him the sleep already*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Your brain was mean and made you think there were bugs but there aren't any anymore, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

*She just gains a "hm" as a response. Félix turns to the bed, still trying not to give much attention to his arms, pulls the blanket to him and covers himself with it. There. Problem kinda solved*

Im no baby

*he grumbles*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I know, honey, it's just a sweet nickname I give you and the others

*Niko stood and walked over to Felix before scooping him up and tucking him into bed*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he bites his cheek, letting himself be manouvered (for only this time)*

Grab my mp3... *sighs* please?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Of course, baby

*Niko kissed the top of his head and went to grab his mp3*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*félix clears his throat, taking the device and conecting it to his headphones*

Ffu.. get out with those nicknames

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Baby, I promise. Can you please look at me/

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix yanks his arms from Nikolai's hands, puts them behind his back and then looks to him with a very confused, very hurt expression*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything is okay. You drank the medicine, so you'll be okay. You aren't infected and the bugs are gone

[felixthegoldmountain]

There... were bugs?

*God. He wishes some higher being just put him the sleep already*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Your brain was mean and made you think there were bugs but there aren't any anymore, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

*She just gains a "hm" as a response. Félix turns to the bed, still trying not to give much attention to his arms, pulls the blanket to him and covers himself with it. There. Problem kinda solved*

Im no baby

*he grumbles*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I know, honey, it's just a sweet nickname I give you and the others

*Niko stood and walked over to Felix before scooping him up and tucking him into bed*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he bites his cheek, letting himself be manouvered (for only this time)*

Grab my mp3... *sighs* please?

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Baby, I promise. Can you please look at me/

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix yanks his arms from Nikolai's hands, puts them behind his back and then looks to him with a very confused, very hurt expression*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything is okay. You drank the medicine, so you'll be okay. You aren't infected and the bugs are gone

[felixthegoldmountain]

There... were bugs?

*God. He wishes some higher being just put him the sleep already*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Your brain was mean and made you think there were bugs but there aren't any anymore, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

*She just gains a "hm" as a response. Félix turns to the bed, still trying not to give much attention to his arms, pulls the blanket to him and covers himself with it. There. Problem kinda solved*

Im no baby

*he grumbles*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Baby, I promise. Can you please look at me/

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix yanks his arms from Nikolai's hands, puts them behind his back and then looks to him with a very confused, very hurt expression*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything is okay. You drank the medicine, so you'll be okay. You aren't infected and the bugs are gone

[felixthegoldmountain]

There... were bugs?

*God. He wishes some higher being just put him the sleep already*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Baby, I promise. Can you please look at me/

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix yanks his arms from Nikolai's hands, puts them behind his back and then looks to him with a very confused, very hurt expression*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I promise they're all gone baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nhgnh-uh

*shaking his head "no"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*reaching Felix's door, Nikolai saw that it was no longer closed*

@mama-bird-kyola

[mama-bird-kyola]

Felix? Honey? Can I come in please?

*Nikolai stood outside and waited for an answer*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*she got no response. The only thing one could hear right now were the leaves and crickets outside*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she got very worried and quickly entered his room. hoping he was okay*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*It finds Félix laying on the floor in a fetal position, his eyes were open but he definetly was not present at the moment. Surprisingly, she found her phone on his side. It was locked, but should he turn on the cell phone, it would see a lot of searches like:

difficulty breathing illness

loss of sensation on the arms is what?

how do I know i am sick?

Well, those two recent ones could easily be attributed to a panic attack, that's for sure*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*niko went and got a cold water bottle from the fridge and sat next to Felix before adjusting him so his head was resting on its lap and the water bottle was pressed into his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*His body lightly jerks from the sudden low temperature, his hands do not grab the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*she pulled the bottle away a bit so it was gently laying on his hands*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his eyes slowly turns to the bottle. He looks really, really puzzled*

C-cold.?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Honey? Are you feeling okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

Huh? Why...

*his voice was kind of hoarse. Félix still stares at the bottle*

[mama-bird-kyola]

I think you disassociated and had a panic attack while I was taking care of Kai

[felixthegoldmountain]

Sick... i, was sick... t-there was sores. All over it

*the young man turns to look at the door instead. He still hadn't associated that he was laying on Nikolai's lap*

Why d.did he do that to me? I deserved, it...

[mama-bird-kyola]

You didn't deserve it, honey. You're a good kid and I promise I'll make sure "he" doesn't do that again, okay?

[felixthegoldmountain]

He's dead. I- killed him.

*Félix says in a monotone voice*

I had to. F-ffuck, i had to!

*he hides his eyes with his fists in shame. Maybe if he blocked his vision, he could convince himself whatever it is happening right now isn't real*

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai began gently playing with his hair to calm him down slightly as well as humming the lullaby she always sang to the other kids*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*dry sobs flow out of his throat, painfull, agonizing ones*

I h-hope he rots in hell

[mama-bird-kyola]

I'll make sure of it, baby. I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

Nn.NO! Don't. Please don't- no...

*his voice breaks and gives into more confused sobs. What is he even trying to say here?*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Okay, honey. I won't do anything you don't approve of

[felixthegoldmountain]

*some few minutes passes before he forces himself to take a breath and pull himself together. He stands up, sitting with his legs bent to the side*

What does k-kai has? Is it contagious?

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's just a fever, it'll pass in a few days with some meds. And don't worry, as long as you don't get too close you shouldn't catch it

[felixthegoldmountain]

How close?

[mama-bird-kyola]

Just stay about 3 feet away or wear a mask when you want to get close

[felixthegoldmountain]

Bu-t i got close to him earlier! And you too!

*he crawls on the carpet backwards, trying to get as far as possible from Nikolai. He ends up hitting his back on the bed, so not much distance was gained*

[mama-bird-kyola]

It's not a deadly sickness, it just makes you throw up a bit. I promise you that everything is okay, baby

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Felix's breathing starts getting more and more irregular as the seconds passes. For some reason his mind doesn't accept the possible probability that he may get sick*

[mama-bird-kyola]

You were only around him for a minute or so, you won't get sick from that, I promise

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he's full on hyperventilating now. His brows are furrowed, focused on a empty box of cigarettes discarted at his floor. His forearms itched, and logically Félix knew it was just his mind playing tricks again, but he couldn't diverge the ideia of a caught illness- or maybe infections. Maybe there was germs and worms crawling around his arms, trying to enter into his pores-*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Félix! Félix! Félix!

*Nikolai was now in front of him and gently holding onto their shoulders, giving him a comforting look that said "everything is okay"*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*his stare now moves to her eyes, trying to make sense of it. His breathing levels out, although it's still rapid, it isn't getting worse*

[mama-bird-kyola]

Everything's okay, honey. I promise.

*Niko held out his hand with her pink out to make Félix a pinky promise*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*Félix doesn't brings his hand up, no. That would mean seeing his arm- his skin. He has to kill those maggots before they eat him to the bone.*

Antisseptic... o-or poison- maybe alcohol. I need one of those,- one of those.

[mama-bird-kyola]

*nikolai reached into his overcoat and took out a bottle labled "sickness killer" and poured Félix a glass (it was just regular water with a bit of lemon juice but he didn't have to know)*

Drink this, baby, it'll make the sick bugs go away

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he closes his eyes while taking the cup out of Niko's hands and drinking it all in one go. He takes a sharp breath through his teeth after all of what's left in the glass was just a drop of the liquid*

My a-arms. Have disinfec-ct it.

Ther's bugs- maggots. Infected...

[mama-bird-kyola]

They're gone, baby. Look, there's no bugs

*Niko took the glass away and gently held Felix's wrists to show him there were no bugs on his arms*

[felixthegoldmountain]

*he jerks away, closing his eyes*