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Saw Adele last night. Was a truly amazing night. She is so funny and down to Earth and her laugh... hilarious. She even went up to the fan on stage and did the classic Beyoncé moves, hair flick and all. Here is a snippet of 'One and Only'.

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What is your mental illness

I have a stress and anxiety disorder. That if I don't manage will lead to depression which has happened before and took about 9 months for me to work through.

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Went to Ed Sheeran's concert tonight and he had a surprise for us, he sang 'All of the Stars'.

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Preference #45 - Girls *REQUESTED*

Harry:

‘A pair of frozen hands to hold’

The first drop of rain fell onto your face. Great, just what you needed on the one day that you left your umbrella and rain coat at home. It didn’t help that it was nearly freezing and the water was making the footpaths slippery and you weren’t confident in your walking abilities in these conditions. You eventually found some shelter under a tree where you pulled your phone out to send a message to your boyfriend Harry.  ’I’m stuck in this weather. Can you come and get me please. I love you.’. Your phoned buzzed with his reply ’Of course baby. Where are you?’ You looked around and sent Harry your location and 10 minutes later you saw his Range Rover come into view. He pulled his car to a stop and rushed out of the car with an umbrella over him. “Baby, oh baby, let’s get you out of this pouring rain.” He pushed the umbrella over you and wrapped his arm around your waist steering you to the passenger side. Once your shivering body was in the car he rushed around back to the drivers side and once he was in he turned the heating up high to warm you up from the cold. “Why didn’t you call me earlier? I would have picked you up from work.” You continued to shiver, “I didn’t realise that it was going to rain this badly and I forgot my umbrella today.” Harry reached his hand over and twined your fingers together. “Baby, your hand is so cold.” At this you put your other hand on the back of Harry’s. “You’re so warm.” For the rest of the 10 minute ride back to Harry’s house you started to warm up. When you got inside Harry settled you in on the couch with the blanket wrapped around you and you leaned your front onto Harry’s chest. You wiggled your hands up under his shirt and placed your icy hands on his back causing Harry to yelp. “Next time please just call me to come and get you. I love you but your frozen hands aren’t fun to warm up.” You just snuggled more into his chest. “I just so happen to love putting my hands all over your body.” Harry kisses the crown of your head. “Aren’t you just a little cheeky tonight.” You just squeeze Harry tighter and enjoy the rest of your night together.

Liam:

'But she can’t be what you need if she’s 17’

Liam had reassured you that the boys were excited to meet the girl that had stolen all of his attention. But you were nervous to meet the boys as they were so important to Liam and you didn’t want to make a bad impression on them. You arrived at Niall’s house where a BBQ was taking place for the boys and their partners. Your hand was in Liam’s and he squeezed it tight as he entered into Niall’s apartment. “Hello, anyone here?” Liam dragged you down the hallway to the back of the house where there was lots of laughing and chatter. As we entered the back everyone turned to you both and came over, Liam hugged everyone while you stayed to the side. “Everyone this is my girlfriend (Y/N), (Y/N) this is everyone.” You gave a small wave and smile at everyone. “Hi.” Niall walked over to you and handed you a beer, you graciously took the beer. “Thanks.” You and Liam walked out to the back yard and took a seat. “So (Y/N) tell us a little bit about yourself.” Harry asked you as he relaxed in his chair. “My names (Y/N) and I’m 17 years old, I will be attending university next year hopefully to…” Harry sat straighter in his chair. “You’re 17?” You nod your head in response. Harry stood up and started pacing stopping and staring at Liam.  "Liam you can’t be serious!“ Harry screamed out. "She is 17 years old, you’re nearly 9 years older than her. What do you think you’re doing?” Liam just sits there with his head down low. “She isn’t even legal age yet Liam, she can’t even vote. And she’s drinking a beer. How do you not find anything wrong with that?”  At his you placed your untouched beer down on the ground and stood up. “I think that I am allowed to be with whomever I want to be with, if you don’t like it then that’s your problem not mine. Not that it’s any of your business but I will be 18 in a few weeks. I took the beer from Niall to be polite, I haven’t even taken a sip from the bottle.” You looked at Liam. “I’m going to go home, you stay here.” You turned to face Niall. “Thanks for inviting me Niall, I really do appreciate it.” With that you walked out of Niall’s house hoping Liam will be able to mend things with his friends.

Louis:

'One moment I was tearing off your blouse’

Your eye fluttered open but you quickly shut them again because all you could register was the thudding happening in your head. You groaned and rolled to your side to be met with a random guy just lying there sound asleep. You hastily looked around the damage of the room to see your top and pants pooled on the floor, you looked down your body and you still had your bra and underwear on, that was at least something. You sat up keeping the sheet to your chest letting the cold air underneath the sheet causing the guy to stir. “What?” He squinted at you. “Who are you?” You said a little accusingly. “I’m Louis and you’re (Y/N).” Your eyebrows scrunched together. “What happened last night?” Louis gave you a cheeky smile. “One moment I was tearing off your blouse and kissing down your body and then the next thing I know you’re snoring on the bed, and if I do say so you looked mighty cute even in your sleepy state.” You could feel the heat rising to your cheeks. “Well… I don’t know what to say to that. But I guess I could say thanks for not taking advantage of me.” An awkward moment passed. “I’m a nice guy and I have sisters. So I know I would be absolutely livid if anything like that happened to them.” You relaxed a little at his confession. “But still thanks.” Louis glanced at the clock on his bed side table. “It’s just after 9 and it’s breakfast time. Do you want to maybe go and get breakfast with me?” He looked up at you through his eyelashes. “Yeah I think that would be nice.” You both got dressed and went to a cafe down the street where you spoke for hours. When early afternoon rolled around you and Louis exchanged numbers and it was the beginning of a beautiful relationship.

Niall:

'Worrying about my brother finding out’

There you were sitting in the living room watching your boyfriend Niall laugh and have a good time with his friend Alex on the other couch in the living room. The thing is that Alex happened to be your brother and you and Niall have been dating in secret for over 4 months. It was really difficult for you to stay away from Niall when he’s so close to you, but you knew that your brother would make a huge deal out of the whole situation and would forbid you from seeing Niall. Alex looked at you. “Go and get Niall and me a drink please.” You just raised your eyebrows at him. “Yeah that’s not happening. You have two legs use them.” You pointed towards the kitchen. Alex just rolled his eyes. “Fine I’ll get the drinks.” Alex left the room and you and Niall froze just staring at each other wanting to just touch each other. Luckily while Alex was in the kitchen his phone rang and you heard him go outside. Once you heard the outside door click shut Niall was up and across the room to where you were sitting, pushing you on to your back fusing your mouths together. “I miss…” kiss “you so…” kiss “much.” Niall said between kisses. You stroked Niall’s cheek staring up into his eyes. “Hi, I’ve missed you too.” You both hear the outside door open again and Niall rushes up off you, back to his seat on the other couch. Alex walks in with the two drinks. “Here you go.” Alex sits back next to Niall and looks at you. “Why are you even here? Can you go away so I can spend some time with Niall?” You just rolled your eyes and got up off the couch. “I’ll leave you and your boyfriend on your little date.” You made eye contact with Niall. “Nice to see you again Niall. I hope to see you soon.” The corner of Niall’s mouth curled up. “It was good to see you and I will be seeing you again.” Niall winked at you and you smiled at him turning around walking with a little extra sway to your hips as you knew Niall would be watching you walk away. You couldn’t wait until you and Niall could came out as a couple as the hiding and sneaking was starting to get a bit tiring.

A/N: So this was requested a few months ago and it’s from The 1975’s song 'Girls’. I hope you like it and requests are open if you want to request anything.

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I’m back

Hey everyone,

I have been MIA for well over a year, I was taking another course and have just finished it. But I am back and am currently writing a few things that should be up over the next few days. If you want to request anything then go for it.

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One Direction Preference Master List

I have had many people ask for a master list of my preferences so here it is. Happy reading. 

** are the preferences that have been requested (I am taking requests, just FYI)

Preference #1 - His Smile

Preference #2 - Your Fear

Preference #3 - Spilt Drink

Preference #4 - Photo Subject

Preference #5 - Air Conditioner

Preference #6 - Cloud Watching

Preference #7 - I Won’t Give Up

Preference #8 - Walk

Preference #9 - Autumn Leaves

Preference #10 - Surprise Time

Preference #11 - Mobbed **

Preference #12 - Date Night **

Preference #13 - His Jealousy **

Preference #14 - At First Sight **

Preference #15 - Birthday

Preference #16 - Hands

Preference #17 - I Miss You

Preference #18 - Embrace

Preference #19 - Midnight Memories

Preference #20 - Puddles

Preference #21 - Sunrise

Preference #22 - Water

Preference #23 - Blankets

Preference #24 - School

Preference #25 - Heartbeats

Preference #26 - Stolen Moments At Your Wedding **

Preference #27 - Reminiscing

Preference #28 - Chivalrous 

Preference #29 - A Little Time    Part 2 **

Preference #30 - Not Wanting To Grow Up

Preference #31 - Hush Now

Preference #32 - New Years

Preference #33 - Best Friends Holding Hands

Preference #34 - Daddy’s Home

Preference #35 - He Mentions He Wants To Marry You

Preference #36 - Packing

Preference #37 - His Tears

Preference #38 - Baby’s Milestones

Preference #39 - Night Before Your Wedding

Preference #40 - Don’t **

Preference #41 - I’m Not The Only One **    Part 2 **

Preference #42 - He Gets Car Sick **

Preference #43 - Thinking Out Loud **

Preference #44 - If You’re Not The One **

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Apparently headphones need instructions… I’m so glad they cleared up that L means Left and R means Right, cause what a travesty it would be if I put my L headphone in my Right ear. 😐

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The atmosphere was electric and I have no words for how happy I was at that concert. So here is a snippet of 'Story of my life'

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OnThe Road Again Tour

One Direction again tonight!! Show 2 in Melbourne. I can't wait.

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On The Road Again Tour

So I was lucky enough to get tickets for tonight's Valentine's Day show late last night. So this makes this the best Valentine's Day ever.

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Just wanted to say I've just found your blog and it's amazing 👏👏👏

Hey babes.Thank you I really appreciate your kind words there will be some new stuff coming out soon just been super busy these last few months. Have a nice day. 😃

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To wake up and hear the tragic events that had transpired during the night in Sydney just broke my heart into tiny pieces. My thoughts and prayers go out to everyone involved in the siege and especially to the two innocent victims Tori Johnson and Katrina Dawson and all their families and friends. Australia is in mourning but our bond to unite as one is what will get us through this tough time.

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One Direction Preference Master List

I have had many people ask for a master list of my preferences so here it is. Happy reading. 

** are the preferences that have been requested (I am taking requests, just FYI)

Preference #1 - His Smile

Preference #2 - Your Fear

Preference #3 - Spilt Drink

Preference #4 - Photo Subject

Preference #5 - Air Conditioner

Preference #6 - Cloud Watching

Preference #7 - I Won’t Give Up

Preference #8 - Walk

Preference #9 - Autumn Leaves

Preference #10 - Surprise Time

Preference #11 - Mobbed **

Preference #12 - Date Night **

Preference #13 - His Jealousy **

Preference #14 - At First Sight **

Preference #15 - Birthday

Preference #16 - Hands

Preference #17 - I Miss You

Preference #18 - Embrace

Preference #19 - Midnight Memories

Preference #20 - Puddles

Preference #21 - Sunrise

Preference #22 - Water

Preference #23 - Blankets

Preference #24 - School

Preference #25 - Heartbeats

Preference #26 - Stolen Moments At Your Wedding **

Preference #27 - Reminiscing

Preference #28 - Chivalrous 

Preference #29 - A Little Time    Part 2 **

Preference #30 - Not Wanting To Grow Up

Preference #31 - Hush Now

Preference #32 - New Years

Preference #33 - Best Friends Holding Hands

Preference #34 - Daddy’s Home

Preference #35 - He Mentions He Wants To Marry You

Preference #36 - Packing

Preference #37 - His Tears

Preference #38 - Baby’s Milestones

Preference #39 - Night Before Your Wedding

Preference #40 - Don’t **

Preference #41 - I’m Not The Only One **    Part 2 **

Preference #42 - He Gets Car Sick **

Preference #43 - Thinking Out Loud **

Preference #44 - If You’re Not The One **

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Could you please please please please do a part two for the last preference? So so so good! But I am a sucker for happy endings....:)

Hey babes,I wasn't planning on a part 2 but if that is what you wish I am more then willing to do it. Though it may not be up for another week possibly two. It's just that I am finishing all my school work up and it's end of semester, I hope you understand. Trust me I am sucker for happy endings as well and I can see why you would want more, I did leave them a little unresolved.

I am happy that you enjoy what I wrote.

Have a good day. :D

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Preference #44 - If You're Not The One *REQUESTED*

Harry:

'I hope you are the one I share my life with'

Blind dates are things that occur when you have tried every other form of dating possible and not had any success. You trusted your friend Jenny wholeheartedly and hoped that your date wasn't going to be a total disaster. A few minutes later and man was bought to your table by the head waiter and you glanced up to see these amazing green eyes looking at you and there was something so familiar about him yet you couldn't put your finger on it. "I'm Harry. Nice to meet you." He reached his hand out for you to shake. "Pleasure to meet you. I'm (Y/N)." You shook his hand and sat in your chair. Once settled the waiter took your drink orders and left. "What do you do for a living (Y/N)?" You clasped your hands together. "Something a little unconventional, I have my own blog. What about you?" Harry ducked his head down. "I'm in a band." This peaked your interest. "Anything I would have heard of?" Harry's face scrunched up in confusion. "Possibly. I'm in One Direction." Realisation hit you. "Really? Well I am a huge fan and love your music." You could see Harry become really comfortable. "Thanks." he mumbled out and there was an awkward pause and you being you had to break it. "So what about family? Brothers and sisters?" Harry seemed a little unsure. "Don't you know the answer to your own question?" You just shrugged your shoulders. "Yeah I do. But I haven't heard it straight from you. I know I made you uncomfortable with saying I was a fan and I totally understand if you don't want this date to continue." Harry stayed silent and wouldn't meet your eyes. "I guess I'll go then. It was really nice meeting you." You stood up, placed money down for your drink that had yet to arrive and slipped your jacket on. "(Y/N) wait." You looked down at Harry. "There's just my older sister Gemma and I have to say she is my best friend, and I wouldn't have been able to cope without her love and support. There's my mum Anne and dad Des and they got divorced when I was younger. Now my mum has just remarried to an awesome man named Robin." You smiled at him. "Thank you for sharing that with me." You continued to stand there. "Will you stay? I just yeah..." You smiled at Harry and removed your jacket hanging it on the back of your chair and sat. For the rest of the evening you chatted and got to know each other and you hoped that he would be the one you would end up sharing your life with.

Liam:

'If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?'

You were lying on your bed sobbing your heart out into your pillow devastated over the voicemail message that Liam had just left you. 'I'm sorry (Y/N) but it's over. Be out before I get back.' You didn't understand where this had come from, everything seemed fine when you spoke to him this morning. You cried for a while longer before that sorrow turned into anger and you grabbed all the pictures that were in your shared apartment and threw them against the walls, watching as they shattered into pieces all over the ground. You destroyed everything in your path until you got back to your bedroom where you crumpled down in tears again just after you reached for your phone. You dialled Liam's number multiple times but he obviously turned his phone off. The next best thing was Niall. You dialled his number and it rung a few times before you heard that Irish accent. "(Y/N)? Why are you calling me?" You started to cry all of a sudden which alarmed Niall greatly. "Why are you crying? What's wrong? Do you need me to get Liam?" You shook your head forgetting he couldn't see you. "No-oo-o" You stuttered out. "He broke up with me." There was silence for a moment. "WHAT?! He did what?" You continued to cry but you could hear a commotion through the phone. "LIAM JAMES PAYNE WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?" Niall was fuming. "Hey what's -" There was a thud. "You broke up with her? What the hell is your problem? Having her call me crying is not okay." There was a slight whimper. "I couldn't deal with missing her any more Niall and the only way I could think of trying to fix that was having her hate me and not need me at all. She doesn't need me, she needs someone who will be there for her not someone who is there 4 months out of the year." You had had enough of listening to this. "NIALL!" You yelled. "She's on the phone?" Liam yelled. Niall obviously walked away from him. "Sorry I was just so angry." You wiped your nose on the back of your hand. "Will he listen to me? I mean he doesn't have to talk I just want him to listen." You don't hear anything on the line until Niall's soft voice comes through. "He'll listen to what you have to say. I'm going to put you on loud speaker and I'll be here the whole time." You smiled at how caring Niall was. "I know you aren't going to speak to me and that's alright I guess but I miss you and the hurt I feel for you when you're gone tells me just how much you mean to me. And I wish you had the guts to say it was over to my face instead of being a coward and leaving a 10 second voicemail on my phone." Your voice began to waver. "If I didn't need you in my life then why am I here crying on our bed? I love you. And I'll be gone before you get back." You hung the phone up wanting to fight for him but knowing it wouldn't do any good.

Louis:

'I don't know why you're so far away'

Silence. That's what had become of you relationship with Louis. You wanted nothing more than to go back to the early days where you would talk until the sun rose and with every spare moment you were on the phone with him. Yet now you were sharing a bed with Louis who was sleeping right on the edge of the mattress, even in sleep he was wanting to get away from you. You sighed knowing sleep wasn't going to come and made your way to the living room, you spread out over the couch turning the TV on with the volume on low. You glanced around the room to all the pictures over the walls of you and Louis with your families and you both looked euphoric. You heard footsteps padding down the hallway and a tired Louis rubbing his eyes rounded the corner. He sat in the single armchair and stared at the TV. "Why aren't you in bed?" He broke the silence. "I couldn't sleep." It fell silent again for a few more minutes. "(Y/N)... let's go back to bed." You frowned. "Louis I can't sleep and I don't want to disturb you while you're resting." He finally turned to you. "Why can't you sleep?" You turned your gaze back to the TV. "I have too much on my mind." You heard movements and the TV went silent. "Like what?" You lifted your head. "Like what's happened to us." Louis stood up and walked over to you, you sat up as Louis took a seat snuggling you into his side. "I know sweetheart." Louis kissed your temple. "Louis we barely talk and I don't know why. This is the first time in weeks you have even wanted to be around me." He squeezed you tight. "I'm sorry." You pulled back from him slightly. "Why are you so far away from me?" He pursed his lips. "I'm right here." You pushed his arms off completely. "You maybe here physically but emotionally you're nowhere to be found." He looked down ashamed but you continued. "I ask again why are distancing yourself from me?" He stood up abruptly and started pacing. "I'm scared. I'm scared that my life is always going to be like this, that I'm going to be constantly away from you. I know you want us to settle down and get married and begin a family and we can't even think about doing that for at least 3 years. I'm supposed to give you the world but it seems I can't." You walked over to Louis and hugged him. "You know you give me the world every day by just being you. Knowing I'm the one you'll treasure for the rest of your life tells me that I'm one lucky girl. You've had to grow up so quickly over the last 4 years that you have experienced what only most people dream of, you forget that we're young and still have so much living to do. All I ask is just don't shut me out again. I don't think I could take it." Louis nodded his head. "I promise."

Niall:

'I don't want to run away but I can't take it'

"I have nothing more to say to you, you bastard. You lied to me." You thrashed in Niall's arms. Niall had neglected to tell you that he and the boys plus Sophia and Eleanor were going to the U.S for two weeks for promo and you found out about it from Eleanor as she invited you to go shopping for supplies for the trip. But you had no idea what she was talking about and declined her offer and went straight to Niall to confront him about it. Now a huge fight had broken out between you both. "You need to calm down." You looked at him as if he was a crazy person. "No, you're breaking my heart and I can't take it anymore." You crumpled in his arms letting out heart wrenching sobs. "Baby, I know. But you need to understand this is my job and I can't just stop doing it. If I'm needed I need to be there." You just continued to cry at his words. "But you didn't tell me about it." Niall stroked your hair and placed a kiss on the crown of your head. "I know and I'm so sorry, but I need to go." You gripped Niall tightly. "Can I come with you?" You heard Niall sigh. "You know that's not possible." This just made you angry because you knew that Sophia and Eleanor were going. You pushed Niall away and just stared at him, "You don't want me there do you?" Niall tried to approach you but you kept moving away. "No, that's not true." You laughed sadly. "That's a lie." Niall's face was all of a sudden scrunched up in anger. "With you acting like this I'm glad you're not coming." Your tears started again. "I need to go. I just can't deal with this anymore." Your words echoed through the silent room. "You're not leaving." Niall said. You just stared at one another but you were suffocating in there. You walked to grab your keys and phone leaving the house as Niall rushed behind you. "You can't leave." You faced him. "I don't want to run away but I can't take it anymore." Niall started to cry. "I'm sorry." You gave him a half smile. "I know." You got into your car and left.

Zayn:

'And I wish that you could be the one I die with'

Sometimes life takes you on all these scary twists and turns then out of nowhere you meet the person that doesn't make life seem as scary and you think that you will spend the rest of your life with them. But sometimes life plays cruel jokes and says 'nope you've been happy too long'. This is why you're sitting in a conference room with you and your lawyer on one side and Zayn and his lawyer on the other side. You were going over the last bits of your divorce before you sign the papers and say goodbye to one of the most exhilarating chapters of your life. You and Zayn both loved each other deeply but life just messes it all up. You struggled with him leaving you constantly to travel with One Direction and then you were pregnant and tragically miscarried at 7 months, there was just too much of a strain for you to be together any more. "Before we get you to sign the papers is there anything else you would like to say to each other?" At this you and Zayn made eye contact, having avoided it for most of the meeting. "I do have something to say." Zayn announced. You looked at him intently waiting for him to begin. "I am so sorry that I couldn't be there with you when you need me the most, that I was always gone and that we weren't able to fix what we had. Because what we shared was what people look for all their lives and we were lucky enough to share that. I love you with all my heart, never forget that." You had tears welling in your eyes and replied to his statement. "You gave me a good life and not having you around was the hardest part of the entire marriage. I will never forget what we have shared and I still love you very deeply. I just wish that you could have been the one I lived and died with." With the end of your speech you grabbed the pen and signed on the multiple dotted lines to signify the end of your marriage. You pushed the papers over to Zayn. "Do you really want me to sign them?" You shrugged your shoulders. "That's completely up to you." Zayn lifted his pen and placed it down on the paper and he looked up at you just as the first tear fell out of your eyes. You brushed them away as best as you could, "Don't mind me." You gave him a half smile.  Zayn looked down and signed his name on the relevant lines and that was that. You started your marriage crying at the altar because you married your best friend and now it ends with you crying because you lost your best friend. Why does life do this?

A/N: This is based on Daniel Bedingfield's song 'If You're Not The One'. To the anon that requested this I am so sorry this has taken over a month to do. I actually forgot about this until I checked this the other morning and saw this sitting on my preference to do list. I hope this is alright and once again I am so sorry.

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Four

It's just after 5am and the album has just been released. Ahhh!! Someone needs to help me from this amazing abyss.

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I wake up thinking I am going to have a productive day them BAM!! This is out and I can do nothing but play this over and over again. Sigh...