a non comprehensive Bipolar Ilya Rozanov symptoms checklist
HYPERSEXUALITY, PROMISCUITY
Jorkin it in front of a practical stranger / cruising for gay sex on the job when you could get deported if ur fired lol
Me: can i add “tornado blowjob” as its own bullet point under hypersexuality?, sibling: … it at least deserves a mention, i think
Let's self harm…. With Sex!
Im not sure where to put jorkin it alone just to piss himself off but it sure does need to go somewhere
openly discusses with therapist that he starting using sex as a distraction from his anger at age 14 in TLJ
“This is a bad idea.” “what is?” < boy you literally know…
“My coach's son, back in Russia.”
“Weren’t you scared of getting caught?” “not really.”
Saying his room number in front of scott hunter
“Suck my dick” in that dirty ass bathroom really was quite the move after ghosting shane for six months
Kissing Shane on the roof of NHL awards after initial hostility
Kissing Shane at all stars tbh
again i think the entire bathroom conversation is impulsivity as a symptom like i think he maybe wasn't planning to approach Shane in that way but really truly couldnt help himself
Me: you know…. I am going to put “Spent two full years chasing shanes virgin hole after two hookups” under emotional intensity.
Introduced seven new layers of intimacy and then was shocked when his autistic king ran
ELEVATED MOOD, SUDDEN DROP
After giving Shane his first sloppy style BJ
MHL awards power trip domdrop sex
IRRITABILITY, HOSTILITY, AGGRESSION, OUTBURSTS
he sat there and watched shane give an interview in french with the subtitles off just to piss himself off
“Heres fucking view, check it out! Fuck!”
Lashing out at Shane in sochi
“no i did not answer your boring text, now will you go?”
Deflection and hostility when shane brings up how he ran
Deflection when Shane tries to admit his feelings for Ilya
“Thats not what i asked” “what does it fucking matter?”
Physically attacking Alexei when he mocks svetlana
Kissing Shane's cheek on the ice at all stars
“You're an amazing player to watch.” “Yes.”
“Liar told you that- I said fifty.”
his car collection could definitely count under the overspending and risk taking part of bipolar grandiosity
UNCATERGORIZED MANIC SYMPTOMS (could rly put these multiple spots)
Thinking the way to fix his hostile outburst with Shane is through kissing him, showing Shane that he does like him and there is something there, and not realizing that's not what Shane would take away from that behavior.
MHL Awards me when I’m manic as fuuuuuuck
He is in the torture nexus for the entire all stars conversation
“Do you even like it there?” “What difference does it make?”
Complete dissociation as Shane leaves the Vegas hotel room, cigarette isn't even lit
“Sorry” when shane notices him crying.
“I want more, Ilya, more more more. And I have nothing for the people.”
“They look at me and see an enemy.”
“It kills me that he took care of our father and I didn't."
“He will never forgive me for any of it. For existing.”
At the club looking at read receipts just to make himself feel bad
He really did just sit there watching Shane's cottage video looking like he was going to kill himself over it
Reading tweets about shane and rose just to piss himself off
“He's terrible. It makes me terrible back.”
LOSS OF INTEREST IN THINGS ONCE ENJOYED
Ilya refusing to sleep with Sasha being both a symptom of depression as well the obvious sign of his growing affection for Shane.
Do I think Ilya would've jumped off that roof? No. unless he couldn't help it, of course
openly discusses that he knows his depression dips into suicidality with Shane in TLJ
SHANES AUTISTIC PERSPECTIVE
Shane clearly confused by Ilya's reaction on the roof at the NHL awards, both at his hostility and immediate shift into risk taking impulsivity
Shane is confused and frustrated by Ilya shutting him out in Sochi, Ilya misreading the situation as to what Shane is there for as he thinks Shane is mirroring his own behavior even though Shane is just trying to reach out and check on him.
“What the fuck do you actually want from me???” Shane is very upset and frustrated with Ilya's complete tone shift from their first time, to Sochi, to the MHL awards.
Shane is happy then immediately looks around to gauge the crowds reaction after ilya kisses him at All Stars in Tampa, overly aware of how risky it is for ilya to have done that
this is for sure not a complete list, im still working my way through the books for a more complete list but like. i can't stress enough this dude is bipolar
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