Exploring

Just a blog for me to explore who I love and what that means for me, via tumblr. Minor & she/her. Oh and my name is Kath, Oh and I follow/like from my main which is kathiefeeling

[recordstorepearlsarchived]

dedicated to a love a few summers ago

credits: gold rush by Taylor Swift | Pierre August Renoir | Places/Plans by Skullcrusher | Gregory Frank Harris | Strawberry Blond by Mitski | Henry John Yeend King | august by Taylor Swift | William Russel Flint | Graceland Too by Phoebe Bridgers

[femmesapphi]

She’s the light of my life, I will give my all for her. But it seems that my all is my own heartbreak in exchange for her comfort. I would not change that.

It’s uncomfortable. When she gets too close, my guilt is overwhelming. She doesn’t know the way I feel, she wouldn’t do this if she knew. 

But I let it happen, because her affection and love, however different from my own, is still the thing that keeps me going.

And I hold the hope that one day that the stars will align, and her affection will match with mine.

-Kathie

[sapphothetical]

Norman Lindsay | 1879 - 1969

[princesskuragina]

Sometimes I think about lesbian icon renée vivien lauging so hard she had to leave a lecture bc the man was talking about how a book of anonymously published love poetry was the pinnacle depiction of a young man's desire towards women...... but it was her book. She wrote it. About her girlfriend.

[adayinthelesbianlife-deactivate]

Donna Gottschalk’s “Brave, Beautiful Outlaws” is opening at Leslie-Lohman Museum of Gay and Lesbian Art on Aug. 29. While Ms. Gottschalk doesn’t identify as a documentary photographer or a photojournalist, she has been making pictures since she was 17. Photos selected from her 50-year personal archive will be made public for the first time.

Her work documents her closeness with her working class family and her involvement with the radical lesbian, sometimes separatist, communities in the late ’60s and ’70s.

The photos are tinged with mourning and mystery. She’s been holding their memory for decades, “fiercely protective” and unwilling to “subject them to scrutiny, judgment and abuse” from the outside world.

”Understand, people didn’t care about them or my pictures of them back in the day,” she said. “These people were all very dear to me, and they were beautiful. These pictures are the only memorial some of these people will ever have.”

[femmesapphi]

I love things like this. Having a view into lesbians of the past as regular people. Just living. Not in hiding as far as we can see.

[ancient-mystery]

Fragments of Sappho, circa 630 - 580 BC. Translated by Anne Carson.

Follow my instagram for more: instagram.com/ancient_archives 

[usurperss]

safe

[oh-sewing-circle]

“Lesbian subcultures of the era responded in their own unique ways to Hollywood cinema. Some working-class lesbians expressed their sexual identity by adopting either butch or femme personas, rigid roles that in some way parodied the very structure of heterosexuality. They often latched on to films and figures that spoke to those constructs. For example, Julie Harris’s tomboy in The Member of the Wedding (1952) and Joan Crawford’s butch gunslinger in Johnny Guitar (1954) became important lesbian icons. The love/hate relationship between Crawford and Mercedes McCambridge in Johnny Guitar, a rare female western, also fueled lesbian fandoms, as did James Dean. Apparently Dean’s rumored bisexuality and his combination of both “tough” and “soft” masculine characteristics made him a role model for “baby butch” lesbians.

Another key butch image of the 1950s was Doris Day as the title character in Calamity Jane (1953). Jane wears buckskin breeches, talks in a low raspy drawl, and repeatedly challenges any man to try to outdo her. The film plays with all sorts of gender turmoil: Wild Bill Hickok dressed up as a squaw at one point, and a male character named Francis is assumed to be female named Frances. Perhaps most memorably, the butch Jane and the femme Katie become roomates and move in together. Their duet about interior decorating, “A Woman’s Touch,” certainly had extra meaning for lesbian audiences of the era. Jane’s anthem “Secret Love” also became a huge hit in lesbian and gay bars because of its obvious ties to life in the closet.“

-From Queer Images: A History of Gay and Lesbian Film in America by Griffin Benshoff

[butch-draws]

It will get better.

[whiskey-glitter]

I said that I wanted to fast-forward to the good soft stuff, but you know what? I don’t. This middle stuff, this mundane loneliness, it has to be important, it has to be what drives me into that final happiness. So I don’t want to skip it, I don’t want to skip the growing and learning. It’s painful and I have never hurt this much, but if this is what it takes to get there, to get to happy, to get to her? I’m OK with that.

wg // in fact I welcome it

[at-sixes-and-sevens]

[femmesapphi]

So uh. I know I don’t have too many followers on here, especially people that would want to talk to me, but I’m currently going through it

I have a crush on a girl. If I’m honest with you, I’m in love with her.

She gave off extremely gay vibes. By that I mean, she listens to girl in red and king princess. She dresses like a very cute bisexual or a cottagecore lesbian. And she is always talking about how much she dislikes men. So I had hope.

Well, last week she messaged me to tell me about this guy she’s gone on a couple dates with. They’re holding hands. She really likes him.

And idk, we’re going on a picnic later this week and if I don’t get my crap together I’m gonna cry when I see her so. What should I do? How do I get over this?

[perrfectly]

[mayticks-art]

i’ve felt your teeth

Art from 2020 by Mayticks Prints available on Etsy 

[romansroys]

[lesbianblackphillip]

[missnothing22]

Dolce & Gabbana

[oak23]

Not to sound like a 90s shallow prep, but how you dress can affect your self esteem, and putting energy into wearing things you actively like and projecting an ideal of yourself through fashion instead of seeing clothes as things you have to put on out of obligation helps.

It also can give you a sense of control over your appearance that you otherwise wouldn’t have lmao

[oak23]

I bought a cape because of this

[michaelmilkers]

this post is written in a humorous tone but this is the realest shit.

two years ago i wore baggy sweatpants and flip flops every day because i was depressed but then decided eh to hell with it and bought some black edgy emo clothes bc thats how i always wanted to dress but never got a chance to and it was only then that i realized that the sweatpants flip flops look was just keeping me in my depression funk. i didnt like the way i looked and i didnt identify with the clothes i was wearing and it only made me feel worse.

i then went through my entire wardrobe and got rid of everything that made me feel that way.

now i have multiple outfit possibilities requiring different levels of effort but on days where putting on clothes just seems like a project i just have to put on black jeans and a band t-shirt and i can still feel good about the way i look which is a really good way to start off my day.

i can not recommend this approach to clothing enough.

[12housescorpio]

Can I just say this is the healthiest mindset related post I have seen on this sight and I want every single person on here to read this