Just another fangirl

she/her, 22, Polish, Just another fangirl making her way through the galaxy simping for things she should not be simping for, Nr.1 Gaster and Optimus Prime enjoyer, XGaster can experiment on me any time

[feniksiara]

ITS TIIIIIIIIIMEEEEEE! The humble anual art-fight time.....

[feniksiara]

I had to switch to a new art program because my old one betrayed me by deciding to change all old brushes and make downloading new ones be behind a monthly subscription pay wall. I have crawled back to FireAlpaca like an ungrateful ex and oh boy.... it sure evolved since the last time I used it. Having said that I'm throwing this at you and running away.

Maybe more weaver girlie for Chronos soon once I figure out the program better. But for now have my favourite OC's first flight. And my XGaster's variant breakdown. One finally got to taste true freedom, and the other realised just how far he had fallen...

[feniksiara]

Listening to his voice lines on repeat is not enough I need him to fall in love with a mortal weaver and meet her again in the underworld years later.... The day I learn how to copy Supergiant's artstyle for Hades and Hades 2 I will not be held responsible for the amount of self indulgent art I'll curse this world with. I pray they don't have Tumblr and can't see me going feral over grandpa time of all people. It's not my fault he checks every box on the list of my types...

[astarions-veins]

Help I'm trying to be serious about my grim task to kill Chronos, the Titan of Time, but he's a kintsugi'd gilf cringefail asshole and all this 'my girl' is smashing the wrong buttons and I desperately want to Time to, let's say...

... Take his toll on me....

[feniksiara]

LOUD CORRECT BUZZER! I am tired of pretending Chronos isn't the hottest character in this game

[feniksiara]

Going insane trying to find ACTUAL xreader fics on Ao3. If I start to read a promising fic only to have the protagonist get a random name half way through again I swear I'll explode.

The "Y/n has a name" tag exists. U S E IT! I am looking for fics where I can project myself or my characters into the story. I do not want to read about your oc "Nyx Luna Starlight" or worse, have you randomly decide in the middle of the fic to name the reader just cause "I hate writing y/n or (your name). Don't use xreader tag then??? XOC tag exists??? And so does xoriginal character? Please, it's just rude to hide the fact there's a named reader and not use the tag for it. It makes it impossible to filter it out.

This rant has been brought to you by: Multiple Gaster/Reader stories starting very promising only to have untagged "guys i decided to name reader you're now this name" thrown in my face. If I had a nickel for every time this happened.... I'd have like 5. Which is 5 too many considering I have all variations of "reader has a name/nickname" tags blocked.

[feniksiara]

Art Fight starts soon, we all know what that means! Here's my card if anyone would like to look me up there! Don't hesitate to leave your username in the comments either!

[feniksiara]

1am thoughts. I'm back in my Minecraft phase. Herobrine decided to remind me he was one of my first crushes. Send help. 13 year old me is laughing her ass off.

I am currently staring sadly at barely 20 fics on ao3 with most of them being abandoned. That's it goodnight.

[0peachystars0-deactivated202604]

Herobrine doesn’t watch you because he wants to kill you

Herobrine watches because he has a crush on you and is going about it the worst way possible

[azureeall]

Just something I made for a playlist cover of mine

I may or may not suffer from same art "idea" syndrome

Anyways here's the said playlist I also listened to while drawing this if ure interested 👍

And yes I listen to drift phonk so?

[feniksiara]

I caved. This is XFeni(wow such original name I know), my self-insert for XTale. God damn you voices in my head for making me actually post my art.

Yes this is the affermentioned OC I ship with XGaster. Have mercy on me I am but a poor, unstable mentally young adult on way too mamy meds. This is my way to cope ToT

This scene is very important in my head it has so much lore importance but I will not bore anyone with it that's it ok goodnight

[feniksiara]

Current mood is holding back a 3 hour long rant about how despite hating XGaster and all that he stands for his kids(XChara especially) have a lot of him in them both personality and actions wise. How the entire XTale shows not only XG's descend into madness but also how, despite claiming to be different, XChara and XFrisk can be just as manipulative, cruel and perfectionist as him.

But I can't since nobody would get it. Like noooo I'm not defending an abuser I promise I just find the narrative perspective of the circle of abuse and 2 sides of the same coin interesting please ignore my XGaster simping posts I can be objective and put aside my feelings because I'm a writer and lore enthusiast first and a simp second

But that may just be me- >_>

[selfshipie]

"being smitten with your f/o" but imagine your f/o being smitten with you. them going home and screaming into a pillow after you smiling at them, or making a playlist of songs that remind you of them. researching movies and books and albums just because you mentioned liking them in passing. and if your f/o is a "i feel Nothing. Ever" kind of character? yeah they're kicking their legs and twirling their hair at the thought of you, they told me themselves sorry

[feniksiara]

The thought of XGaster(or any Gaster really) doing that has me weak excuse me while I daydream for the next 50 hours

[vergils-beloved]

i hope every selfshipper who reads this gets the best f/o dreams ever

[lovipop]

What selfshipping is like

[shitposting-extraordinaire]

Posts that read wildly differently based on self image

[feniksiara]

I'm Kermit every single time and I am not ashamed. Give me my godlike powers men(or women) while I sit on their lap useless but nobody can call it out because they're scared of my beloved committing murder over it <3

[feniksiara]

SPOILERS FOR UNDERVERSE 0.8 PART 1 BELOW(it's all a simp rant you have been warned)

The new Underverse episode was absolutely amazing. Truly the series is at it's best both writing and art wise. Especially art wise.

XGaster looks absolutely GORGEOUS and I am tired of pretending he isn't hot. That smirk at the beginning when talking with Cross and XChara??? I was gone. Deceased. Ascended off this mortal plane of existence. His batshit crazy look to Frisk at the end when tauting them over their choices?? Breathtaking. I know it's supposed to be intimidating but please look at me like that I would not mind at ALL. The glimpse of his past self in the intro with that God damn sleeveless turtleneck??? It was a treat for me. Specifically. I don't know how Jakei heard me ranting to my friends about a screenshot from XTale of him without his outer layers on(and melting/in pain but shhh) but clearly she somehow did.

The last 2 episodes have FED me with XGaster content. I will be re-watching them on repeat for the next year and a half. Would he treat me right? Probably not. Do I care? Not particularly after seeing his claws and fangs. Would he kill me? Maybe, but it's a risk I am willing to take. Do I have a self insert for him hidden deep in my art folder? You can't prove anything.

In short: XGaster is hot. I need him to hold me gently or throw me against the wall, either is fine. Go watch the new episode if you haven't already.

May Jakei get the rest she deserves for years of constant amazing animations, content and patience towards this fandom.

[feniksiara]

We as a society need to make more fuckable dragons. Like PLEASE. I am so starved for good dragon/human content. Or hell even dragon/dragon.

Most WoF characters are minors or barely adults so they feel weird to like for me, Smaug and The Dragon Prince can only get a gal so far and don't even dare suggest HTTYD dragons.

I am a desperate dragon lover who wants smoochable dragons who are not questionable please

[feniksiara]

Guess what? I'm going to be joining art fight for the first time this year! If anyone wants to pop by and attack one another I wouldn't be opposed to at all!

Also here's my pfp for it because it came out 10 times better than it was supposed to on accident(I turned off the coloured layers for the phoenix and it simply looked better as a starry outline. Thank you Bob Ros for your wisdom. There are no mistakes, only happy little accidents)