this blog has been moved !

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since i have terrible blog management , i am gonna be moving this blog to a side blog on my main blog .

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with this said , i have moved this blog so it can be found here !

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since i have terrible blog management , i am gonna be moving this blog to a side blog on my main blog .

[feralrites-a]

this blog has not been abandoned , i am just trying to recover from y.ellowjackets finale ...

[roseguided]

𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏 𝐎𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐁𝐘. 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃, 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒. for hours it felt lottie had been laying on her back, covers pulled up to her chest with the blue hue of night time, almost early morning ? , streaming through curtained windows. eyes fixate on the ceiling, teeth chewing mindlessly against her bottom lip. slowly irritation begins creeping inside her mind at her lack of being able to sleep, the minutes ticking away as quickly as seconds do. she could get up, roam around her deadly quiet home, but what if it wakes her parents up ? she can't leave the house & hardly does her mind consider leaving her own bedroom. then, however she hears something that draws lottie's attention behind her: knock, knock, knock ... was that someone outside her window ?

@feralrites GETS A RANDOM BUT PROMISED STARTER ! for natalie.

getting out of bed slowly, lottie makes her way behind her bed to peel back a white lace curtain. brown eyes widen, lips hanging open, to see ... ❛ natalie, jesus ! ❜ proclaims lottie in a hushed whisper, fingers immediately going to lift up the lip of her window. worried, eyes shoot to her door for any sign of a light being turned on before addressing natalie. ❛ what the hell are you doing out here, natalie ?! ❜ she asks, brows furrowed. ❛ it's two in the morning ! ❜

[feralrites-a]

however long it had been going on ,   it was uncertain ,   it could have been weeks ,   maybe months ,   but natalie was not exactly keeping track of time .          not when there were other things to worry about than the fact that she ended up getting involved with her teammate ,   her close friend .          one thing she was appreciative of was just how ...          open lottie had become ,   how they were now sharing secrets ,   hardships even ,   more than they used to .          naturally ,   due to her background ,   they had to mostly sneak around ,   more so to avoid those judging looks   &&   snide comments from the brunette's parents .          however ,   it wasn't like natalie exactly minded ,   or cared ,   she did not ,   most of the time .          especially not when she had decided ,   after standing outside of the other's house for what felt like an eternity ,   to climb a tree that perfectly led to her bedroom window.

two in the morning ,   only natalie was crazy enough to do such a thing so late at night .          luckily enough ,   it looked like lottie's parents were asleep   ―   she had ,   pretty much ,   checked the perimeter ,   as she would put it .          lights were off ,   even in the taller's room   &&   for a moment ,   even if it was a split second ,   she felt guilty for having to wake her .          it was kind of a struggle to keep herself perched on the windowsill   &&   having to knock on the glass with a hand ,   nearly slipping as she did so   ―   fortunately for her ,   it wasn't that big of a distance from the ground ,   perhaps she'd have ended up with a sprained ankle but risking practice was not in her plans .          there is a breath of relief coming out of her when lottie comes into sight ,   a half smile tugging at her lips before she climbs all the way up   &&   into her room ,   the other's complaints falling to deaf ears .          ❛ ⠀ nice room ,   very cozy .          though i would put some more posters over there . ⠀ ❜          she nods towards one of the walls ,   brushing past her before kicking her shoes off   &&   throwing herself on the bed .          it was clearly not the first time she had been there ,   but it was always fun to try get under the other's skin .          pressing her forearms on the bed ,   she lifts herself up to glance at the brown eyed girl ,   head leaning to the side with that sneer on her face .          ❛ ⠀ i'm almost emotional with how ...          happy you sound to see me .          can't hold your excitement ,   can you ? ⠀ ❜          

[zaldarias-a]

# ZALDARIAS  is an independent ,   private ,   semi selective   &&   mutuals only rp writing blog for rhaenyra targaryen from the FIRE AND BLOOD book series as well as the hbo tv adaptation HOUSE OF THE DRAGON .          portrayal based on both canons ,   book   &&   show ,   with the latter used for personal headcanons made from the bits that were liked .         crowned by rai .      

[reticent-vampire]

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE 1.03 | 2.07

[feralrites-a]

everyone is treating lottie like the antichrist but we are forgetting who the real enemy of christ here is. shauna shipman.

[feralrites-a]

just a little update about the url change. g0reism › feralrites

[simoneashley]

Lottie Matthews Yellowjackets 3.03 "Them's The Brakes"

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.ೃ࿐  ░          ↪         @rotttensaint   ft.   natalie .      ›      ❛  we’re older now— i’d hope we’re wiser, too .  ❜ ( post-switzerland , pre-camp green pine )

how long had it been already ?          sometimes keeping up with time in that place was a hard task .          she remembers having to ask the nurses   &&   doctors if it was a certain day of the week to make sure she wasn't straying too far from present time .          her mind had wandered ,   plenty of times ,   to back then .          the plane crash ,   the cabin ,   the village ,   the wilderness .          most of the time ,   she was almost too scared to mention it ,   she tried to stop the thoughts ,   to block out the memories ,   but they always ended up coming back .          was it calling for her again ?          it was a question she asked herself from time to time .          maybe it just came home with her .          home ,   what a concept .          this was not home .          she knew the second she had stepped inside that big ,   empty house .          i won't be well ,   i won't be me ,   she had told them ,   because she knew .

lottie did not eat ,   did not sleep ,   did not speak ,   started wandering around the house at late hours of the night .          her parents' solution had been sending her off to a mental institution to fix her .          was there anything to be fixed ?          what was there that needed fixing ?          she could not understand .          it had been a decade now ,   maybe a bit over that .          there was no more switzerland ,   no more doctors ,   no more pretending nothing had happened to her out there in the wilderness .          a long time had passed ,   all of them had lives of their own   &&   lottie did not go her way to involve herself in those .          after everything they've gone through ,   each one of them deserved a happiness of their own without their shared trauma holding them back .          that wasn't the case with natalie ,   though ,   was it ?          it was almost as if lottie had this need of making sure she was safe whilst watching from a distance .          though that did not work out ,   not with this constant back   &&   forth as if they were teenagers again .          it had been more than a decade ,   natalie had barely changed .          ❛ ⠀ you can't deny ,   nor ignore ,   something happened to us out there ,   natalie . ⠀ ❜          her voice as soft   &&   calm as ever ,   brown hues locked on her face as she steps closer ,   yet still manages to keep a safe distance .          ❛ ⠀ sometimes ...          don't you feel it ,   too ?          almost looming over you .          watching .          calling to you . ⠀ ❜          

[nataliescatorccioapologist]

Lottie and Nat will forever and always be two sides of the same coin

[roseguided]

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐍𝐀 𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐉𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐀𝐘 𝐒𝐇𝐄'𝐃 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐃𝐀𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐄𝐑 the seed of an idea for what happened. sure, jackie might not have said to door dash a bag of raw, bloody guts to her school for this particular prank but she did tell her to do something, didn't she ? it's what shauna gathers when the other woman starts talking. eyes do widen, lips do part in surprise, but shauna's usual reaction does not register in her mind nor make it out of her mouth. if it weren't for the weed she'd smoked not minutes before she call then this would be an entirely different conversation, a whole different reaction to finding out this news. jackie should be thankful in the moment, shauna wants to think. however, later when the buzz is gone ... who knows how she'll react ! ( shauna always had been someone who's anger boiled under the surface, didn't it ? boiled, boiled, boiled until she lashes out or crashes out at someone who does or does not deserve it in the moment. she's always been violent, always been impulsive--as much was clear in the wilderness. )

brown eyes remained on @g0reism as she spoke. all the while, shauna's hand casually continues to reach into the chip back to shove more chips into her mouth. not what jackie would expect, is it ?

the woman hums for a moment, scrunching her nose for a second. as 'video' is mentioned, eyes turn back. ❛ video ? no, what video ? ❜ asked shauna, sighing a little with the furrow of her eyebrows. ❛ god, callie- ... callie filmed it, of course she did. i swear .. ❜ & with any luck, knowing kids today, it's already found itself onto social media. the girls in question will be humiliated, their parents will be angry & demand some kind of punishment. ❛ we're gonna have to sit in some .. principle parent meeting because of this. you do know that, don't you ? ❜ hand gestures toward her, ❛ what exactly did you tell her to do, jackie ? ❜

[feralrites-a]

it was not exactly a lie when she said it was not her idea .          because …          it was not ,   was it ?          all jackie said was callie should stand up for herself ,   to not let anyone give her any kind of trouble   ―   not exactly those words ,   but it wasn't like shauna needed to know   ―   &&   assert dominance .          though ,   thinking about it after everything was done ,   as a supposedly responsible adult   &&   a parent ,   perhaps that was not the best move .          not when callie had all these bottled up emotions   &&   was going through this rebellious phase mostly to piss shauna off .          naturally ,   brushing callie off or even telling her to simply let it go were not options for her .          after all ,   sometimes it felt as if the teenager was closer to jackie than she was to shauna   ―   it was mostly a trauma response from the woman ,   she knew ,   it did not mean she loved callie any less .          

too calm ,   shauna was strangely too calm .          it was enough to have jackie nearly squirming in her seat ,   it was nerve wracking .          shouldn't she be losing it by now ?          perhaps screaming at her because their daughter is suspended from high school ,   throwing one or two things at her because jackie took it as a joke   &&   advised callie to take action rather than dealing with it like a normal person by taking it to the principal .          she sits ,   waits for the anger to finally kick in ,   stares with those big ,   green eyes of hers .          expectant .          but it does not come because shauna continues dealing with the situation in a calm way .          eyebrows furrow ,   eyes narrow slightly   &&   she leans back on that stool with hands resting over the counter .          ❛ ⠀ what …          is going on here ? ⠀ ❜          she asks ,   rather than answering shauna's question .          but she realizes this is better than their usual arguments ,   so she settles for it .          it'd be best for callie to walk in on them discussing things like adults rather than yelling at each other like they were teenagers again .          her head shakes ,   a hand running through her hair before speaking again .          ❛ ⠀ i only told her to …          assert dominance .          to stop taking those girls' shit .          she should defend herself―    or well ,   us . ⠀ ❜          her shoulders shrugs nonchalantly .          ❛ ⠀ she did .          they won't mess with her again . ⠀ ❜          

[mcflymemes]

"I CANNOT SHOW ANY WEAKNESS" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for those who think they need to be tough at all times to get through a difficult situation, adjust as necessary

i don't have time for games, [name].

you can't stop me.

these people are counting on me to save them.

every second i wait, every moment i take for myself, is another life lost.

i'm not willing to put anyone else's life on the line.

i have to be tougher than this.

you taught me to be strong.

i'm not giving up.

there's no time to waste.

you stay behind. i'm leaving.

that's not a risk i'm willing to take.

there's no time to sit and chat. i have to keep going.

i'm not tired.

i was just resting my eyes.

you're imagining things.

i'm perfectly fine continuing on.

we have to pick up the pace.

they're counting on me to fix this.

there are so many lives at stake.

we can't slow down.

don't ask me to take a break.

i wasn't crying.

i can't let them see me falter.

there's no time for breaks.

i don't need sleep. i need answers.

i'm not wasting another second on this.

we have to figure out a way around it.

get up. we're going.

we're finding another way through.

if i have to break the door down, i will.

so many people are counting on me.

i can't afford to fail.

i can't let them see me quit.

there's no room for failure.

too many lives are at stake for me to just sit here and do nothing.

they need a hero.

i'm not sitting around and waiting for someone to save me.

i don't have time for this.

i can do this on my own.

get out of my way. let me try.

move out of my way.

you're not going to stop me.

do you realize how many people are relying on me?

sometimes i think of the faces of those who died because i wasn't fast enough.

i'm not sticking around to find out.

let go of me. i'm leaving.

there has to be some way to stop them.

i haven't quit yet.

"giving up" isn't in my vocabulary.

i don't need you to look at it. i'll be fine.

it's just a flesh wound. it'll heal.

you can't make me stay here.

they put me in charge.

i can't afford to let anyone down.

i'm not strong enough.

[catvalentines]

⤷ endless gifs of jackie taylor ♡ 2/∞

[feralrites-a]

the tension between me and adding melissa , mari && jeff ...

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.ೃ࿐  ░          ↪          @roseguided   ft.   lottie matthews .      ›      ❛  am i just not what you want ?  ❜

with the farm they had been able to put together ,   their own village with shared   &&   individual huts built by them after the cabin was burned down ,   the berries   &&   random fruits   &&   vegetables they were growing ,   this was more than unnecessary .          she had been forced to give him mercy ,   what he had been asking since the start ,   now with leadership taken from her ,   shauna had given her the task to carve him up   &&   prepare him for a feast to …          what ,   exactly ?          give the wilderness what it wanted ?          it had started to feel like everyone was just losing their minds   &&   she was being punished for taking their bridge from them .          they were not going to be rescued ,   ben scott alive or not ,   that thought had started sounding too unrealistic to her .

since lottie had announced shauna would start leading them ,   natalie couldn't look at her in the face anymore .          it hurt ,   for some reason .          wasn't she the one who gave her that role to begin with ?          only to take it from her .          everything would go to chaos ,   more than it already was ,   with shauna as their leader .          she was filled with too much hatred ,   too much rage ,   too much bloodlust .          perhaps it was the cause of her grief   &&   pain ,   natalie has been trying to be kind to her only to be treated with indifference   &&   bitterness .          she was still sitting on that same spot ,   one of the seats from the crashed plane they took to their village ,   the metallic smell of the blood still clinging onto her clothes   &&   skin .          green eyes were still filled with tears ,   void of any emotion   &&   hands slightly shaking   ―   ben scott was ,   in a way ,   her father figure   &&   now that was taken from her .          when the dark haired girl's voice hits her ears ,   she jumps slightly before head turns to look up at her .          there it was ,   that confused   &&   almost innocent looking face   &&   brown eyes staring back at her .          eyebrows furrow ,   a sigh coming out parted lips before shaking her head   &&   her gaze turns to look straight ahead ,   to nowhere in particular .          ❛ ⠀ i don't know what you're talking about ,   lottie .          but you know this is not something i wanted ,   &&   it definitely isn't something we need . ⠀ ❜          

[jackietaylorsghost]

YELLOWJACKETS 307. Croak