I speak inside a hidden common voice but is it mine,a chance or trust yes broken from past make me regret these ways that have developed so fast, speeding and earning nothing back too much too small,little in what is perceived and felt,a hidden goat,or rambling stumbling from its ways my emotions keep turning back more then time but a folded future page,how could I discern these feelings if I was never meant to be with them in the beginning,yes my mind rules my heart cause it's easy to get lost from the start when everything is fake and people love to keep it that way,when I,and all I wanted was a slumber after the last difficult days,wanted my rest and not toggle the difference of finding this out,there has to be hurt and struggling at the end of this world,or does it keep getting misunderstood cause I'm trying to figure what's already understood,how can I access my heart to accept this battle when I don't understand the war of love,don't want it never did but good as it feels I don't want to break again and heal, afraid of the timing and what it'll do to me,yes loosing my face in struggles that's so far it's near,opening my heart to someone who has the power to destroy me is deadly less alive that it chooses but I'm hoping in something better less painful with years.Then you call me in a shutter in love and lust for your love I'm so near I'm drowning in smile and happiness that I can't find myself anymore only seeing the world in you,I'm opened to accept you just as you are and nothing less better than what you can be,my forever all,my love eternity,my Simone,my baby.
In shadows I speak, a common voice unknown,
Is it truly mine, or a seed regret has sown?
Past trusts are shattered, a rapid, hurtful pace,
Speeding onward, yet finding no embrace.
Perceptions dwindle, too little, too small,
A hidden goat, I stumble, destined to fall.
Emotions rewind, a future page untold,
How can I know feelings, if I're not meant to hold?
My mind rules my heart, a safer, surer way,
When all is illusion, and people love to play.
I longed for slumber, after days of strife,
Not to unravel this tangled, confusing life.
Must struggle and hurt define this world's end?
Or do I misunderstand, what I seek to comprehend?
How can my heart embrace a war it can't conceive?
The war of love, I never sought to believe.
Though good it may feel, I fear the broken gleam,
Afraid of the timing, a recurring, painful dream.
Losing my essence in struggles, far and yet so near,
To open my heart to one who can bring such fear.
Deadly the power, less alive than it seems,
Yet I hope for something better, in hopeful, distant dreams.
Then your voice calls, a shuttered, loving plea,
In love and in lust, for your love, I am near, you see.
Drowning in smiles, in happiness I immerse,
Losing myself, seeing the world in you, my universe.
Opened to accept you, just as you are, nothing less,
My forever, my all, my love, my eternal caress.
My Simone, my baby, in you, my heart finds its rest.
