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HIIIII bro i loved your nagito fic, it was so delicious, i'll give you my left kidney to write more of him in the future🙏
one thing i want to say though, since you're new to the fandom and don't want spoilers. if you've already done this, great, but if not, i'd recommend just blocking the sdr2 and even the danganronpa tags entirely until you're done with game. since the series have been out for so long, most people don't think to give spoiler warnings, so you'd probably get hit with the entire game's plot in, like, 5 minutes
totally fine if you opt to ignore this, just wanted to give you a heads up so you don't get spoiled. sdr2 is the best game imo and i'd hate for your experience to get ruined by spoilers
Ahahaha no need for your kidney I have my own, ur kind words are nore than enough for me (literally editing ch2 as we speak I got too invested and now it's a (semi) full thing so it should b posted soon (bc im rushing it so i dont a. Get distracted. B. Start something else. C. Lose interest while i write other stuff bc this is like 4 chaps long maybe so i just want it out and full and done without a 3 month break in the middle. And d. Delay the updating of my (many) current wips))
And yes! I have been warned by many people (one other person) that it's very common for spoilers to be untagged/uncensored but it's fine bc I've not actually been in any of the fandom tags yet im avoiding it like the plague.
DR/2 spoilers under cut
I found this out bc when I played the first game a year ago I watching a tiktok w a junko cosplayer but id literally JUST seen her die and I'd never heard those voicelines b4 so j was like omg junko isn't dead!! ...or is she?? Little embarrassing now but all my plot theories became reincarnation themed v quickly hahaha
Which is funny bc I'm just at the end of the second game and they're in a video game!! Which is what I thought was maybe happening in game 1!! Still not sure how I feel about it hahaha I'm still playing the last trial
But yeah,, I legit found out how easy it was to get spoiled during game 1 and I have been skipping every DR piece of content I've seen since, it's legit why I put "no spoilers please" in caps above and below the text just bc I know that the games have been over for 10-15 years so most ppl assume you already know the plot
If I'd have known I was gonna get invested and write multiple chaps for nagito I would have waiting until I played the game fully to post but fr it was just to sort my icky hurt feelings but unfortunately I sorted them a little TOO well and now I'm in love w the boy again oops 😳🥺😫😬😬😬😬😤🥲
(Most spoilers I've gotten so far apart from the junko thing are the fact my friend overtook me and has a shit poker face so I say my theories and he goes "hmmm" and I go "I KNOW THAT HMM IM FUCKING RIGHT ARENT I??" And then I'm fucking right)
Also I meant ti write each chap (there's only gonna be 4/5) as I was playing but i got too invested and play3d a bunch so my friend wouldn't overtake me (he did anyway) and I'm SO glad I did bc it altered how I was gonna write some of the plot (to make it cohesive n good yk) but holy SHIT they killed my fucking boy so GRUESOMELY (and I fucking knew he did it to himself like 5 min in first iwas like oh traitor torture!! And then I saw the monokumas and the lighters and I was like ... you masochistic BITCH!!)
God nagito gives me such ' I CAN FIX HIM I CAN FIX HIM I CAN FIX HIM I PROMISE' while I'm like climbing the bars of my enclosure and foaming at the mouth while clawing at the zoo keeper with my hands. I've never wanted to fix someone so bad I know from (personal) (real life) experience that it NEVER works and it ALWAYS hurts you but God fucking damn it do I want to tryyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Ohmygoshhh the amount of hate I keep seeing on my fyp about Ronin’s voice it’s starting to get on my nervessss, idk at times he can be a bit cringy 😭, but it doesn’t deserve THIS amount of hate like idk how to put it into words
And I swear it’s canon that he forces his voice or am I wrong?😓
Ahahahaha everytime i play the game my friend goes "oh no its the one with the voice noooo" and I'm like BROOOOOOO JUST LISTEN TO IT A BUNCH AND ITLL START SOUNDING NORMAL OK???
From what i remember (and my menory is ehhhh so take w a pinch of salt) the issue w the voice acting is either they used a different voice actor for killer chat than gluttony gods and the new voice actor tried to get it as close as possible to the GG voice BUT had transitioned in the past few years (or smthn) so wasn't used to speaking in their lower register so it came out rly forced
OR its the same voice actor but they transitioned so had to force themselves into their lower register that they hadn't used in a couple years and that's why it's so forced
I'm ngl, I do think it's cringy and quite bad voice acting (bc of the cringe, other than that they nailed everything else about it compared to the GG voice), esp bc his voice on gluttony gods is GLORIOUS (or it was b4 the updates, I haven't played since then and have no idea if any voice lines have been updated) like literally the voice I think about when doing my fic is largely gluttony gods inspired and only a little kc inspired (fav lines being the whole "christ on a cross! That shot my back up." "Yep, transferred round five bumfuck routes." "I came to get you" "[ther] I'm not a dog Ronin" "a bitch. Same difference" convo w ther right at the start, phenomenal character work right there, I' have to remind myself of it So Much when I'm writing him and trying to figure out how he'd respond to conflict w a partner) (bc I lean way more in the sappy love responses to conflict myself )
Anyway! My point is I think it's quite cringy, it almost made me quit the game when I started playing it and onG I wasn't gonna do ronins route first, I was looking at V before anyone but then ronin kinda freaked me out a lil and I had no idea what his route would be like (bc I could sort of map out the plots of other routes in my mind a little) so I decided to play him first to get it out the way and found myself a. Not hearing the awkwardness of his voice after a while, b. Being onG honestly kind of freaked out about his whole "I'm gonna murder you dead" thing that he doesn't drop until the last minute (I fr thought I was getting the bad end playing the first time) (the bad bad end not the good bad end) so it was fun from a writing/good plot/charater work stand point, c. being a little in love with emo boys anyway and him being the emo-ist of boys, and d. Seeing his cg and my little feeble afraid heart started going double time in my chest with a clumsy patter and I shit you not I stared at it for five minutes giggling.
But!! It is cringy, but it's cringy for very understandable reasons that are out of the voice actors control and they've literally addressed it b4 (I think on the discord, not sure how offically, I heard all of this in a "friend of a friend told me" way and my memory is ehhhh so don't take anything I say here as gospel) but yeah, it's cringe, but it's been discussed and I don't think anyone should get hate for it like there's reasons it happened??
Honestly tho idk how much hate there is in the fandom im just taking ur word for it here bc im not in tags so much atm bc I got life shit happening lol
But yeah, there's real life reasons why his voice is like that and the "it's canon" thing is bc a lot of us heard the reasons why his voice is like that and went ohh yeah that makes sense, it would also makes sense in the killer chat universe for ronin to have voice trained his voice deeper before testosterone so a lot of us decided he did that and did it kind of cringe haha (it might also be canon but I don't know if it is )
Was feeling a bit peckish and ordered 2 sausage pizza, and 2 burgers,
Then I faced timed my dad and he called me a fat fuck😭😭
Tbf yeah I’m broke now
Ahahaha I fr used to be so fucking terrible for ordering 4 meals every single time I got takeout! I'm so convinced every time I'm going to eat it all and I never can (I keep the leftovers for lunch lol) I only stopped bc it started getting rly expensive and I too am a broke bitch
I have such a sweet tooth its terrible, my dad legit told me today he was gonna start making me eat a vegetable for every sweetie I buy and honestly it's so bad I kinda agreed w him ahahaha
one of my favorite kc writers getting into writing for my favorite danganronpa character omg im filled with joy !!!!!!! <3
Ahhhhhhhh what???? One of ur favs ?!! Shdjfjf I'm glowing u made my day ehehee tysm!!
Uhhhh,,, i meant to give u like a para talking about why i got into writing for nagito but.... i got excited and went a little off the rails so! Prepare yourself for many paragraphs of DR2/nagito focused ramblings hahahah
(SPOILERS FOR DANGANRONPA 2 BELOW CUT BTW YALL)
I'm so glad u like it haha I was a lil worried bc I have like 2 open standalone requests and 3 wips I need to finish but haven't been able to work on atm for reasons, but then I was playing dr2 and I was INSPIRED
(Also ik I don't need to worry about update times n shit yall are so nice but I am a worrier so I will hahaha (but 👆 I am working on it, it's part of why I'm taking a break rn lol))
But yeah i was like AHHHHH during the first trial bc my autistic ass did NOT pick up on nagitos shifty vibes b4 the trial and then when the personality flip happened I was like WHAT??? NO??! WHERES MY HAPLESS EARNEST AUTISTIC MAN??????!!?
Like I liked nagito but in a casual not thinking about writing him way (I was actually outlining the plot for a (much longer) byakuya fic that I was gonna write after I finished some of my current wips, bc I rly shouldn't start another or I'll never finish anything in a timely manner hahaha. So I wasnt planning on writing anything but then nagito turned evil and then i wanted to process my feelings (betrayal) on his personality flip and 6000 words fell out)
So then i wrote arent you going to feed me to like process the fact i got duped???? And at the same time i was watching a ytber play dr1 and then the first chapt of dr2 and then ALL I COULD SEE IS HOW HALF OF WHAT NAGITO SAYS IS LIKE A SLY PICK ME STYLE LEVEL DIG??? the kind of shit where you go to highschool and the meanest girl you know somehow manages to point out your biggest shame by asking pointed questions all while without ever directly mentioning it and I was like OH HES A CATTY BITCH! And that is honestly so fun?? You don't men who use pick me style manipulation very often in media
...and THEN I SAW THE HORNY ASS CG FOR HIM BEING TIED THE FUCK UP IN THE ROOM W HIS HUSKY ASS VOICE THATS ACTED SO WELL BC ITS THE SAME AS BEFORE BUT SOMEHOW EVIL NOW
and I fell in love and the rest is history hahaha
So yeah basically I had to get over it n writing that fic helped me realise how fun his character is???? And I'm so excited to see where its going, I've legit just got to the bit where he's got the book w all the people profiles and is grinning down at it evilly (and I may or may not have written a chapter 2 even tho it's meant to be a standalone)
Anyways point is I'm really into DR right now and I've made my friend borrow the first game to get him into it bc he plays games super fast and now he's on the second so we can share theeeeoorrieess and thirst together BUT 👆👆 we have very different tastes in men (he likes nekomaru and gundam, I like nagito and kazuichi) so I can't talk about my love for them in a way where he gets it? (He just sort of nods and is like that's nice hahaha, we have similar taste in women tho, akane when shes mad/amped up??? A-yes please! Mikan??? The sweetie??? And how pretty she was at the end of her trial??)
so i posted my fic on ao3 but then on here like 3 days after (usually takes 1/2/3 weeks bc I cba writing all the title/summary/cw stuff right away, i need 2 make a template i can copy/paste frrrr) bc I was like whererrrreeee are my nagito lovers pleaaasssseee come talk to me w theories about/love for my boy!!
Broooooo whatt???? My Internet fucking died then tumblr crashed and ate my fucking answer and i tried for TEN MINUTES to get it back but it was GONE and the ask was BACK IN MY INBOX so I SUCKED IT UP and started RETYPING ALL 10 PARAGRAPHS and then I closed the app bc I got pissed and I opened it just here to finish retyping AND NOW THE ORIGINAL ANSWER IS BACK AND POSTED ????? WTF ??
I do not understand. I am equally grateful and fucked off to whatever just happened here. What????
one of my favorite kc writers getting into writing for my favorite danganronpa character omg im filled with joy !!!!!!! <3
Ahhhhhhhh what???? One of ur favs ?!! Shdjfjf I'm glowing u made my day ehehee tysm!!
Uhhhh,,, i meant to give u like a para talking about why i got into writing for nagito but.... i got excited and went a little off the rails so! Prepare yourself for many paragraphs of DR2/nagito focused ramblings hahahah
(SPOILERS FOR DANGANRONPA 2 BELOW CUT BTW YALL)
I'm so glad u like it haha I was a lil worried bc I have like 2 open standalone requests and 3 wips I need to finish but haven't been able to work on atm for reasons, but then I was playing dr2 and I was INSPIRED
(Also ik I don't need to worry about update times n shit yall are so nice but I am a worrier so I will hahaha (but 👆 I am working on it, it's part of why I'm taking a break rn lol))
But yeah i was like AHHHHH during the first trial bc my autistic ass did NOT pick up on nagitos shifty vibes b4 the trial and then when the personality flip happened I was like WHAT??? NO??! WHERES MY HAPLESS EARNEST AUTISTIC MAN??????!!?
Like I liked nagito but in a casual not thinking about writing him way (I was actually outlining the plot for a (much longer) byakuya fic that I was gonna write after I finished some of my current wips, bc I rly shouldn't start another or I'll never finish anything in a timely manner hahaha. So I wasnt planning on writing anything but then nagito turned evil and then i wanted to process my feelings (betrayal) on his personality flip and 6000 words fell out)
So then i wrote arent you going to feed me to like process the fact i got duped???? And at the same time i was watching a ytber play dr1 and then the first chapt of dr2 and then ALL I COULD SEE IS HOW HALF OF WHAT NAGITO SAYS IS LIKE A SLY PICK ME STYLE LEVEL DIG??? the kind of shit where you go to highschool and the meanest girl you know somehow manages to point out your biggest shame by asking pointed questions all while without ever directly mentioning it and I was like OH HES A CATTY BITCH! And that is honestly so fun?? You don't men who use pick me style manipulation very often in media
...and THEN I SAW THE HORNY ASS CG FOR HIM BEING TIED THE FUCK UP IN THE ROOM W HIS HUSKY ASS VOICE THATS ACTED SO WELL BC ITS THE SAME AS BEFORE BUT SOMEHOW EVIL NOW
and I fell in love and the rest is history hahaha
So yeah basically I had to get over it n writing that fic helped me realise how fun his character is???? And I'm so excited to see where its going, I've legit just got to the bit where he's got the book w all the people profiles and is grinning down at it evilly (and I may or may not have written a chapter 2 even tho it's meant to be a standalone)
Anyways point is I'm really into DR right now and I've made my friend borrow the first game to get him into it bc he plays games super fast and now he's on the second so we can share theeeeoorrieess and thirst together BUT 👆👆 we have very different tastes in men (he likes nekomaru and gundam, I like nagito and kazuichi) so I can't talk about my love for them in a way where he gets it? (He just sort of nods and is like that's nice hahaha, we have similar taste in women tho, akane when shes mad/amped up??? A-yes please! Mikan??? The sweetie??? And how pretty she was at the end of her trial??)
so i posted my fic on ao3 but then on here like 3 days after (usually takes 1/2/3 weeks bc I cba writing all the title/summary/cw stuff right away, i need 2 make a template i can copy/paste frrrr) bc I was like whererrrreeee are my nagito lovers pleaaasssseee come talk to me w theories about/love for my boy!!
Also just a PSA for anyone wondering but myfbiask is still coming I've just been really sick this month so I've been playing a lot of danganronpa (and I'm a little obsessed w nagito and kazuichi)
Wait, aren't you going to feed me? Nagito Komaeda/GN Reader
(Reader has they/them pronouns but is implied afab because of events in the story)
I'VE NOT FINISHED THE GAME, NO SPOILERS PLEASE!
Ao3 link!
Summary:
You don't know why you agreed to take breakfast to Nagito when you don't want to see him. Not after everything he did, not after everything that happened. …Not after the trial and how fucked he'd revealed his position to be. Not after Byakuya died saving his ungrateful ass…
You shouldn't have taken the plate from Mahiru in the first place, but she'd practically shoved it in your hands and ran off with an excuse in the same breath. You'd had no idea what you were agreeing to before she was already out of the hotel and running back to her cabin. Everyone else had evacuated seconds after her while you were still piecing what she said together.
OR
a short fic written to reconcile my feelings on Nagitos abrupt personality shift during the first trial. YES the game got me. I was buying his bs before by the KILO.
6'557 words!
CW: (some) (danganronpa typical) cringe humour, awkward situations, sexual situations, mature themes, sexy sandwich eating, (im so sorry), (it was so fun to write
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You've been learning a lot of new things about yourself in the past forty-eight hours, the main thing being the that you're not as good a judge of character as you thought you were, but also, now, that you're not exactly skilled at being stealthy either. All you wanted to do was sneak into the room that Nekomaru and Kazuichi had admitted this morning to leaving Nagito tied up in, leave the food that Mahiru had given you somewhere visible so he wouldn't accidentally starve to death, and then sneak back out before he noticed you.
…Unfortunately for you, it seems that life is out to get you the exact way it has been since you were first transported to this godforsaken island. Almost as soon as you crack open one of the large double doors that bar your entry to the room and attempt to slip through the miniscule gap you've created, taking deliberate care to move as quietly as possible, Nagito calls out to you.
'It's you! You came to see me! And you brought me breakfast, that's so sweet!' His voice is as raspy as it always was- you would have called it husky once upon a time, but you're no longer inclined to give him such favour- with an unsettling quality that it seems to have picked up and kept ever since he dropped his act, like something sinister is lurking in the depths of his tone, ready to jump out and snap you up in one motion as soon as you let your guard down. Some people would call it attractive, you're not that honest kind, not anymore.
He stripped all the kindness from your bones when it became apparent that not only was he the reason any death occurred at all, but that he was deliberately trying to confuse things and help the killer out during the trial. Like he didn't care if you all died, like he didn't care if you died.
It's bizarre how quickyly things have changed here, if Nagito had greeted you like this just one day ago you'd have said he sounded pleased to see you, excited even. Now, you can't help but hear a sarcastic bite to all his words, even when there isn't one. You can't help but think this is all a show, or perhaps he's trying to manipulate you again. …Or maybe he's just happy because you're bringing him a sandwich so he won't become the next body via malicious neglect and starvation- a sandwich that you were forced to bring him, you remind yourself as an uncomfortable thought wiggles forwards to the front of your mind and makes itself known, whispering insideously that clearly you care if he dies.
You don't bother to hide the sinking of your shoulders at the sound of his exuberant voice. You see no point in hiding your recently changed feelings about him, you just wish you had more time to figure out exactly how those feelings have changed. You've been oscillating wildly between hating him, missing him, and wondering if you ever really knew him at all. Your mind has been in a whirlwind ever since the trial last night and you've yet to settle on anything concrete.
You knew you were going to have to face him at some point, you just didn't know it was going to be so soon. You shouldn't have taken the plate from Mahiru in the first place but she had practically shoved it into your hands, voice a fast paced blur that you could barely decipher before she was running out the room.
It was only when you were left staring at her after image in confusion that you put the pieces together and managed finally to understand what she had said: 'can you take this to Nagito, I'm worried the boys won't feed him but I can't look at him right now. You used to be close so it will be fine, right?' And then she'd absconded, leaving you holding a plate and wondering why people were leaving the hotel lobby so rapidly until you figured that out too- they didn't want to be saddled with the task if you decided you couldn't do it either.
You've been left with the metaphorical hot potato and you just weren't fast enough to figure out it could burn you. That's how you got where you are now, staring down the double oak doors to the room Nagito's apparently being kept in, the very same room Byakuya was killed in, regretting all the choices in your life that lead you to this moment. Especially the ones to do with Nagito.
Taking a steadying breath, you raise your head to look at him and the sight that greets you is both exactly what you expected and so bizarre that you could never have expected it: Nagito is literally chained up on floor, laying on his side with his arms pulled behind his back and tied together with a heavy metal chain. You don't know where Nekomaru and Kazuichi even got a chain from, let alone one so heavy duty.
Nagito looks way too comfortable for someone trussed up on the floor the way he is, with his arms pinned behind his back like that. His feet are bound together too, over and over with a long length of rope that you didn't notice until now because you were so focused on the chain. He's grinning up at you like nothing has changed, the look on his face so friendly it almost feels smug, like he didn't try kill someone and betray the very beliefs that attracted you to him in the first place.
'I'm so happy you took the time out of your busy day to bring food for little old me. …If I'm being honest I was starting to believe that Nekomaru and Kazuichi were going to leave me to starve in here! …I can't exactly greet you with my full hospitality but feel free to relax, just pretend we're hanging out in my room after dark again, that should put you at ease.'
At his words, your mind suddenly floods with memories from the last time you were in his room; how comfortable you felt around him despite him being kind of awkward, the way his mere presence and ongoing optimism about the situation had reassured you that nothing bad was going to happen. …The look startled on his face before you kissed him, the rough drag of his chapped lips against yours, how soft they were anyway, the way he'd laughed almost disbelievingly when you'd pulled back. …Then later, falling asleep in his arms because he'd made you feel safe- little did you know how much danger you were really in.
You shake your head to clear it, rolling your eyes at his words and stepping further into the room, wholly intent on ignoring his theatrics. This is why you didn't want to see him so soon, it's too raw, you keep getting caught up in what could have been, keep getting trapped in memories that now make your skin crawl. You'd wanted distance so you could stop feeling so damn hurt by Nagito's betrayal- because that's what it was, betrayal- and Mahiru had ruined that- no, Nagito had ruined that, he'd ruined everything. …You are so pissed at him he better not open his stupid, smiling mouth again while you're in the room.
You walk over to him, crouching to slap the plate down on the floor next to his face, feeling a vague sense of satisfaction curl up in your gut at the sight of his barely disguised flinch while you elect to ignore his needling comments in favour of saying, 'shut up and eat,' before standing and turning to walk away.
'Huh? You're not going to feed me?' Nagito's voice cuts in before you manage to even take a single step away from him.
…The fucking gaul of this man. 'What? No way! You tried to kill one of us of course I'm not going to feed you!' You spit, spinning back round to face him, voice outraged and body lightheaded at how quickly the anger rushed you.
'Well, I can't eat it on my own, y'know, since my hands are all tied up…' Nagito lifts- or attempts to lift his hands behind his back, resulting in his whole body tilting forwards to accommodate the movement, putting what looks like an uncomfortable amount of pressure on his left shoulder, and even then his hands only make it a restrained half a foot into the air before they flop back onto the floor uselessly with a dull thud. It's impressive he managed to lift them at all, considering how numb the one he's laying on must be. You frown- you do not feel bad for Nagito. He deserves this. You do not feel bad for Nagito.
Nagito has the decency to look a little abashed at the rage on your face as he continues, '…actually, I was a little embarrassed to ask Mahiru to feed me, so I'm really glad you're the one who came. We're close, right? So I don't need to be embarrassed.' He grins at you cheerily, supposed bashfulness gone in the blink of an eye, disappearing so fast you're left wondering if it was ever really there to begin with- no, you're left certain that it wasn't real to begin with, that it was there but only to be the set up to a sly, teasing jab about how close you are. …So much for him feeling bad at how upset he's made you. So much for you hoping that maybe tucked somewhere deep inside Nagito might have some kind of conscience.
You grit your teeth, anger resurging as this realisation starts to recontextualise so much of Nagito's behaviour before the truth about him came out; how much of what he said to you and to others wasn't at all sincere? How much of it was just a private joke where he got a kick out of making people feel awkward for his own amusement? So much for the socially unaware, upbeat, optimistic man with such a secure outlook on life that he really had you believing that you'd all get through this together and figure out how to get off this god forsaken island without a single fucking death. So much for fucking anything.
'Really? You're glad I came?' You ask sarcastically, shooting him the dirtiest look you can muster, trying to proclaim exactly how far he's sunk in your eyes since the events of last night with a single look.
'Of course I am! We have a special connection! I really thought you'd hate me after the events of last night but you're here visiting me now, you even brought me breakfast! You must not hate me so much after all, or at the very least you pity me enough to help. It's truly inspiring the way you can have hope for even the most despicable of creatures, because you have to believe I could be better, otherwise why would you be here? Together we make the truest hope- we feed off each other!
'It's like when you kissed me! I never thought anyone as interesting as you would be interested in me, it gave me such hope then and you're here now! Inspiring hope in me again while I inspire hope in you. Isn't that wonderful?'
…That is quite possibly the craziest shit you've ever heard in your life. He thinks you think he could be better? That you're hopeful about him? Just because you don't want another person to die? What kind of twisted logic is that???
'Is that supposed to make me feel better?! Nagito, you lied to me! You led me on! You-' You start, voice full of outrage only to be cut off midsentence.
'When did I lead you on? …It's true I might have been a little misleading about the true nature of my personality but my feelings for you are real. I only lied to you because I knew that if you knew the real me you wouldn't be interested. But the version I presented, the me that you fell for those first few weeks, he made you hopeful, right? He made you think we could get out of this together, that we could escape this island as a group even though that was highly improbable.
'Even now, there's still a part of you that hopes he will return right? Even when you know I'm actually trash, you still hope that I can be better. I did it in the service of something greater than ourselves, it's like I told you, we inspired hope in each other- can continue to inspire hope in each other! You gave me such hope, you still do! Do you know how special that is? To give someone as despicable and despairing as me hope?'
'How do you know?! I might have liked the real you! You never even gave me a chance.' You spit at him, voice laden with venom, choosing once again to ignore his insane ramblings about hope when his actions have caused nothing but despair.
'Wait, are you saying that you could have liked me as I am? You truly are special!' Nagito's head tilts back as a truly gleeful cackle escapes his lips before he leans towards you as much as he can while chained up on the floor, smiling all the while, 'you know, if you really meant it, I wouldn't mind if we picked up where we left off in my cottage.'
…You're flabbergasted, how can he think about that at a time like this????? So you tell him, 'how can you think of that at a time like this?! And- it's- no! No! You killed- you tried to kill someone! Who could like that?'
'It's just that feeling you give me! I'm in the most hopeless of situations, someone like me wanting to be with someone like you, and then you tell me it could have been real? It could have been real and now it can't and yet still I have hope! That's the power you ultimates have, that's the power that you give other people! The ability to hope in the most despairing of situ-'
Sensing that he isn't going to shut up about hope any time soon and completely fed up of his manic rambling, you drop to your knees and press your hand over his mouth to make him shut up but Nagito just keeps on talking, the words becoming unintelligible mumbling underneath your hand. The strangest feeling of dejavu washes over you at this; somehow, seeing him still trying to talk, still trying to convince you, still trying to have hope even though the situation should feel hopeless to him, reminds you of the cheery, slightly hapless Nagito that you started falling for in the first place. The one whose endless optimism had given you hope.
Your shoulders slump as all the fight drains out your body and without thinking you find yourself brushing his wild, bushy hair back from his face with your other hand. At such a tender touch Nagito stops talking, eyes going wide for a second before you feel him smile underneath your hand as his face scrunches up with genuine joy.
You remove your hand from over his mouth and immediately he rushes to say, 'see, even now, when by all reason you should hate me, you find it within yourself to treat me kindly. You can't help but hope that I'm better than what I am! This is why you're my favourite, why we work so well together! You always want to see the best in people, and I am the absolute worst of people with no hope for improvement; together we breed hope in each other!'
Nagito's words infuriate you but with how unrepentant he is, you recognise that this might be the only chance you have to get answers from him- you're not coming back to feed him again, and you have no idea what the others are going to want to do with him after this- so you ask the question that's been running around your mind since last night, 'why didn't you kill me? You were planning to kill someone since the game started and we spent so much time alone together. You had so many chances but you didn't, so why?'
'I can't say the thought didn't cross my mind, but I just couldn't, you're too precious, too important, I-' Nagito stops for a second, throat working as he swallows. For a split second you think maybe he's embarrassed or overcome with emotion but then he continues, voice more sure and excited than before, 'you gave someone as pitiful as me hope, how could I give that up?' Despite your disappointment Nagito sounds so… exuberant that you can't help but believe him, can't help but be carried away by the conviction that's in his voice because he truly believes what he's saying.
Weirdly enough, through this strange, circular conversation, you're slowly starting to understand where Nagito is coming from. Because for a second there, when it sounded like he was getting choked up over you and then it turned out he wasn't, you were disappointed- and to have disappointment you have to have hope in the first place.
You don't agree with him. And you're still angry, but you're starting to understand where he's coming from. You gave someone as pityful as me hope, how could I give that up? You can't help but think, weren't you doing the same thing? He liked- or likes- you for the sense of hope he feels from the relationship, and you liked him for the sense of comfort he gave you. You were relying on him for your feelings of safety and security, something that's been so scarce since you were magically transported to this island and learned about the unsettling reality you've been forced into, the same way he was relying on you for hope.
Whether you want to admit it or not, you're both two sides of the same coin. Isn't part of why you've been so angry at him? Now he's revealed who he truly is, you no longer have that feeling of security, you no longer have hope. Wasn't it the first thing out of your mouth when he angered you? "Nagito, you lied to me", not Nagito you tried to kill someone, Nagito you betrayed us all, but, "Nagito, you lied to me." Yes, you mourn for Byakuya, but more intimately you mourn for your own sense of security and comfort, something you don't have anymore now that you know Nagito's upbeat assurance that you'll all get through this together was nothing more than a steadfast lie.
'That look on your face… you're being swayed to my side, aren't you?' Nagito's voice interrupts your musings and brings you crashing back to reality. You turn your head to look down at him from where you'd been staring off into space and are once again assaulted by how comfortable he looks here. He's looking at you with the same of look of fond awe and disbelief he had the first time you kissed him, smiling at you like you're sitting in his room again, talking about how of all the places to be trapped, at least it's a tropical beach that's stockpiled with good food and water.
Immediately your body floods with annoyance at being accurately called out. You roll your eyes at him again and try sneer at him from your position above him but Nagito doesn't seem to notice. He's either oblivious or a very good actor. He doesn't seem at all bothered by how his arms are pulled behind his back, doesn't seem uncomfortable lying directly on the floor, doesn't seem upset that you're forced to look down on him because of your positions, doesn't seem upset at how you're looking at him with contempt. In fact, he seems to be rather enjoying himself from the look on his face. Irrate at his assumption that he could sway you- just because you understand him a little better doesn't mean you agree with his understanding of the world- you roll your eyes again and put your hands on your knees to stand up.
'Ah, hey! Weren't you planning to feed me?' Nagito interrupts you, voice suddenly a little desperate compared to his earlier sunny disposition.
You frown at him and say, 'feed yourself,' shoving the plate towards him slightly.
'My hands are tied behind my back, you're not going to make me eat like a dog are you? …Unless, are you into pet play?' He sounds genuinely surprised, like his startled realisation is real, but when he continues talking you know he's just fucking with you, 'I'd really rather you ask me first before foisting your fetish on me, you know. I don't mind doing a little roleplay if it'll help you forgive me but consent is important. If you'd have asked first, I could have been acting like a dog this entire time.'
'I should make you eat like a dog just for the comment,' you reply coldly, but the effect is undercut by the way you're settling back down onto your knees and pulling the plate towards you.
Sitting so close to him with the plate in your hands, the reality of what you're about to do hits you with gusto and suddenly you're nervous. This would have been awkward with the Nagito you trusted but you have no idea how to approach the situation with this, new and definitely not improved Nagito.
'…um, how should I-?' You question, looking to Nagito in hopes he will present you with a less awkward option than the one you're currently considering.
'You could unlock my hands but the others might be mad…' The way Nagito says it is so rage inducing that as suddenly as your discomfort had arrived, it leaves just as quicky. All feelings of awkwardness flee you body, replaced with irritation that you're stuck doing this.
'I'll kill you myself before I untie you,' you tell him harshly.
'Really? Do you mean it? Excellent! We should start brainstorming ways for you to get away with it, I have so many ide-'
'Nagito!' You cut him off sharply.
'Huh? What is it?' Nagito sounds confused, like he genuinely doesn't know what he did wrong.
'I wasn't being serious, I'm not going to fucking kill you,' you tell him.
'Aw, why not? I'll help you get away with it,' Nagito sounds so petulant it's almost impossible to believe you're dicussing you potentially murdering him.
'I don't want to, I don't want to kill anyone,' you tell him.
'But surely you want to kill me! After all, I am the person who set off this whole chain of events, Byakuya and Teruteru are dead because of me, even Kazuichi and Nekomaru went to the extreme of tying me up and locking me in here because of how much they hate me!'
Somehow hearing his crimes rattled off like that is more exhausting than listening to him ramble on about hope. You're aware it probably should make you angrier than you already are but instead it just makes you tired. 'I don't want to kill you Nagito,' you sigh. 'I- I don't know what I want to do with you but I don't want to kill you. Not even after what you did.'
'Then let me help you! We can kill-'
'Nagito!' You snap, louder than before. Nagito's mouth shuts abruptly, whatever else he was going to say swallowed and kept in his stomach to be digested. 'I am not killing anyone, end of. I am going to feed you this sandwich and then I am going to leave. And- and you are not going to talk any more of murdering or being murdered during that time! Okay?'
'I didn't mean to make you angry, I just-' At the look in your eyes Nagito trails off, starting again and instead saying, '…will you help me sit up first? Kind of hard to be fed in this position.' It's probably just another act but Nagito sounds appropriately chagrinned enough that you sigh and agree. You're not doing it for him, you're doing it for you because he has a point, it is going to be hard to feed him when he's on his side like this.
'Yeah, c'mere,' you say, putting the plate down to lean over and grab him by the shoulders, pulling him up towards you. Nagito barely moves, just rocks awkwardly forwards and then rolls back onto his arms with an uncomfortable look on his face. The lack of movement isn his fault, with his arms pinned a combination of both behind and beneath him they're likely entirely numb, it's not like there's anything for him to push against to help him up, and his legs are bound.
He's entirely reliant on you, only able to stay still while you manipulate him and try to pull him upright so you put more effort into it, then when that doesn't work you put a considerable amount of force into it, then when that doesn't work you put so much force into it that finally you get him off the floor and upright- success!
You throw your arms up in the air in glee but your success is incredibly shortlived as it turns out you've pulled him so hard that as soon as your hands leave his shoulders Nagito comes crashing forwards, knocking you off balance with his shoulders and tipping you onto your back with gusto.
Your shoulders hit the floor first, knocking the breath from your body before your head connects, bouncing off the carpeted floorboards with a burst of pain. You can only watch, both dazed and speechless, as Nagito windmills wildly for a second even though his arms are still stuck behind him- which largely looks like him doing a bad impression of a fish on land- and then he's tipping forwards, shoulders crashing into your knees and scraping across your thigh with force as his face skids directly across your crotch.
Your knees come up reflexively as you groan in pain. The roof slips by above you repeatedly, the room spinning and you're too startled to move even once it's over. …What just happened? You replay the memory instantly yet still can't believe it even as you recall the sensation of Nagito's forehead bumping your thigh and then your crotch, before his cheek and the edge of his mouth slide smoothly across it.
The memory loops like the spinning of the roof above you and you're left reeling, feeling both very fucking relieved that he had the sense to turn his face to the side and also vaguely disappointed. …Do you still want to fuck Nagito??? You immediately shove that feeling in a box and pack it away to digest later because that is one thing too many to deal with right now.
'Uhm, I need a little help here…' Nagito calls out awkwardly from where he's trapped, head stuck laying on your lower stomach, neck between your legs leaning on- nope, cancel that thought- his shoulders pressed up against your thighs, no doubt leaving bruises from where he's unintentionally bullied your legs open. You sit up on your elbows, looking down at him, face burning as the reality that that really just happened sets in and then you're scrabbling backwards like a crab on your hands and heels, leaving Nagito to crash that last foot or so of space face first onto the floor with a groan.
'Oh shit,' you scrabble to your hands and knees, rushing forwards and adding carpet burned knees and palms to the injury of your now bruised thighs and ego as you grab Nagito by the shoulders again and then, with a similar but less unhinged level of force, lever him off the floor (and simultaneously his face) and up onto his knees with care not to immediately let go once you get him there.
'You really have a talent for that, are you sure you're not the Ultimate Klutz?' Nagito jokes after you've managed to settle him on his knees. This position also seems a little uncomfortable with how tightly his legs are tied together but you can help him lie back down once he's done eating. You can't help but feel a little grateful that he isn't choosing to make this situation more uncomfortable for you than he coul-
'Though I suppose it is equal now. If we had a penny for everytime you've fallen over and one of us has ended up with a face full of the other's crotch- …we'd only have two pennies, but it's weird that it's happened twice. If I didn't know any better I'd think you're a pervert like Teruteru and were doing it on purpose!'
'No. Nope. Definitely not on purpose,' you state quickly, too eager to deny what he's implying to feel sad about the mention of Teruteru- he might have been a massive perv but he was still gruesomely murdered.
'I don't know-' Nagito starts, voice musing like he really doesn't believe you so you reach over and punch him in the shoulder. Hard.
'Hey!' He shouts, 'that hurt.' You're sure if his hand was free to rub his arm it would be, the thought satisfies the part of you that's been getting more and more annoyed with his antics the longer you talk to him.
'It was meant to. I not want to kill you but that doesn't mean I don't want to punch you when you're being a dick.'
'You've really got a mean streak, you know,' Nagito grumbles.
'Shut up, I'm going to feed you now,' you inform him sharply, picking up the plate again and shuffling towards him on your knees. He is not going to make you feel bad for him, he deserved that, the fall was an accident- both times!
'What's with that look on your face? It's so scary. I'm starting to get worried you're going to hurt me some other way-'
You shove the sandwich in Nagito's mouth while it's open, effectively cutting him off and making him choke on his own words slightly. A vindictive little tingle of joy runs down your spine at the sight and you have to cut off a snicker as it worms itself free.
Nagito takes his time chewing, making a show out of savouring the sandwich before saying, 'wow! That was so good, you're a really good-'
'I didn't make it,' you cut him off before he can finish his sentence, 'you're not gonna butter me up by giving me unneccessary compliments,' you tell him.
Nagito shrugs like it's nothing, chucking out, 'oops. Caught me,' while shrugging his shoulders before he leans forwards to take another bite of the sandwich. Even though you just told him not to, his eyes flicker shut and he moans like the sandwich is the best thing he's eaten in his life- which is bizarre because you don't think Mahiru even bothered to butter the bread; Nagito might be eating what happens to be the driest sandwich in the world.
Nagito's eyelids flutter as he leans in to take another bite. He's looking up at you through his lashes in a way that you do not- you do not find attractive when he accidentally catches your finger in his mouth- and that's when you finally catch on.
There's no other way to interpret the look in his eyes than decidely seductive and he's watching you with an intensity that makes you want to squirm in place. His mouth is a burning wet heat on your finger, tongue brushing over in a way that can't be written off as an accident before his teeth graze your skin as he finally takes his bite and pulls back.
You know what he's doing, know this is a stupid ploy to get back into your good graces and yet for some reason it's fucking working. Your breath catches and sticks in your throat as your eyes fixate on his mouth. Nagito sits back, chewing with a smile on his face and his eyes closed, making sounds that would be inappropriate for a porn shoot, let alone eating a sandwich.
'Okay! That's it! I'm done,' you shout, far too loud for how close you're sitting to Nagito and you know this because he startles, eyes snapping open to look at you, bewildered as he stops chewing. Which is rich because he knows what he's doing, he's fucking with you on purpose. He stares at you for a moment before slowly resuming chewing and then deliberately swallowing. You don't know if it's on purpose but you feel more and more awkward as every second passes while you wait for him to speak.
'What? But I've only eaten half of my sandwich, are you just going to let me starve?' Of course the first thing out of his mouth is that.
'If you're eating it like that then yeah. I am,' you say shortly, not willing to entertain his feigned ignorance.
Nagito shrugs and hits you with a sunny smile, eyes crinkling from the force of it, 'how else am I supposed to eat it? With my eyes?'
'Like you're not trying to fuck it, maybe.'
'Wow, maybe you aren't just a klutz and you really are a pervert; what kind of outlandish thought is that? You think I want to fuck my sandwich?'
'No, I think you're using the sandwich as an erotic ploy to try and entice me into fucking you so I'll forgive you or fall into some other fucked up trap you've set.'
'Ah. So I was wrong earlier,' Nagito says cryptically.
You don't like where this is going… But against your better judgement you say, 'about what?'
'You're not into pet play. You're a feeder,' he states, like that means anything to you.
'I'm a what?' You ask.
'A feeder. Someone who gets off on feeding other people and making them fat.'
'I am fucking not-'
'It's the only explaination, after all, I was eating my sandwich is a completely normal manner and you here you are accusing me of seducing you. If I'd have known you were into this I wouldn't have asked you to feed me, it would be cruel to tease you like that. Although I am curious, do you find all food erotic or is it just sandwiches?'
You're going to hit him. You're going to hit him so hard it does kill him and he'll get his wish. You're really gonna do it. The second you stop shaking from rage you're gonna do it.
'Or, maybe for some indecipherable reason you're still into me and you just can't control yourself. It stands to reason that some people have a type that's just terrible, after all you did pull me on top of you earlier.' Nagito genuinely looks musing, like he's concentrating on trying to figure out a puzzle and not just being the most irritating man on Earth.
'Nagito, you are not winning yourself any points here by making me mad,' you grit out between clenched teeth.
Hearing this, Nagito smiles at you again, disposition startling sunny in comparison to how you're feeling currently. 'But you're not sad anymore, right?'
'I- what?' You ask, unsure if you heard him right.
'You looked really upset when you arrived earlier. When I saw that look on your face all I wanted was to wipe it off and replace it with something better. It's a bit early for hope, you're still regaining your strength of conviction from the shocking events of last night, but I figured I could make you angry pretty easily. I even managed to pull a laugh out of you, though it was because I was choking on the sandwich when you shoved it in my mouth abruptly. Not bad for someone as trash as I am.'
Nagito smiles proudly and you- …you don't know what to feel. Happy that someone's looking out for you? Angry at being manipulated again? Afraid that Nagito is so willing and able to lie at the drop of a hat? Conflicted, because in his own way he is, still, looking after you?
You swallow heavily, dropping the plate and climbing to your feet before turning to walk out the room again rather than deal with this. Yet again Nagito stops you in your tracks by chucking out, 'by the way I heard about the Twilight Syndrome Murder Case, was it?'
Your head snaps over to look at him and you freeze, midstep, 'how did you-?'
Nagito barrels on over your words to say, 'I have mixed feelings… I really liked that game a lot.'
'You've played it?' You ask, disbelief colouring your voice.
'Not this version, but I played it back home before we came here. I think it's going to be a really interesting motivation for whoever kills next. Have you played it yet?'
'There's not going to be a next killing, so no I have not played it yet- I'm not going to play it at all!' You shout, angry that he's brought it back to this.
'Oh well, I have to say I'm a little disappointed; it's not like you Ultimates to ignore the threat that's standing right in front of you. Do you think Monokuma will just let that slide?'
He's goading you. It clear from his voice. …But he does make a good point. Monokuma doesn't seem like the kind of human? Bear? Robot? …Being to let something he put out just be ignored. If you don't play it, he'll just make someone play it, and he'll probably pick the worst person for it- the person most likely to kill because of it…
'You guys should confront it… after all, hope springs when you confront despair.' Nagito continues and this time it's convincing. Maybe you just needed the right motivation to believe him- which is even more convincing, what if the game is the exact right motivation for someone else to believe Monokuma?
You still don't agree with Nagito's true intentions, and you still don't know how you feel about him now, but he is right: you might not want to kill anyone but you need to know what's coming, you need to play that game. You spring to your feet, turning and rushing out the room as you hear Nagito call, 'wait! What about my sandwich? I'm hungry!' after you.
Later, in your cabin alone when you're trying to decipher how Twlight Syndrome Murder Case could be a motivation for murder, you realise you left Nagito sitting upright and that he's going to have to flop onto his face to lie down to sleep again. …It serves him right. He's never going to make up for what he did to Byakuya and Teruteru, but this way you can at least feel a little better about the fact that he lied to you. You decide to call it penance for his crimes- the lessor ones, that is.
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I've not finished the game so no spoilers please!
i really liked who nagito was before and am autistic enough that i did not pick up on his shifty vibes i just thought he was socially inept but trying his best like me. i spent the first half of chapter 1 going 'hajime!! stop thinking hes weird hes sweet! leave him alone u meanie!!1!'
his character switch is fun and its a cool flip on game 1's whole ethos but it did make me sad for a minute (and also a little horny WHAT business does he have looking so enticing trussed up like a pig, what a horny fucking shot with his stupid fucking smile and that VOICE?? my god…)
anyway i might add to this as i play btu i also might not so read this as a standalone for now
gosh danganronpa is fun. i played the first one last year and only got around to this one recently. i always knew nagito was a tumblr sexy man and was like yeah ok iget u ig but then i started the game and his personality was so NORMAL??? AND NICE??? I WAS CONFUSED???? and then i got ATTACHED snd he switched up on me and i HATED new nagito,,, but i finally understood why tumblr thought he was a sexy man hahahahaha
i had to take a breather from playing so i wrote this fic to reconcile my feelings like damn. but now i can enjoy nagitos character and how interesting it makes things to have an antagonist within the player charcters collective group yk? bc ya technically sakura was an antagonist for a little bit but she wasnt rly bc we found out she was a spy AS she rebelled against monokuma yk? to have someone who does genuinely fucked shit for their own reasons, not blackmail or being forced when theyre not even the villain/dont view themselves as one is very fun im excited to see where his charcater goes.
Anyway i might add to this as i play btu i also might not so read this as a standalone for now.
anyways! let me know if there are any egregious typos! and leave me a comment (please? pretty please? i need them im weakkkkkk) (jk but please do leave a comment i love hearing from yall :)))) )
*edit, sometimes I reread first when I've posted bc I catch more typos that way and I fucking made nagito rub his arm when they're chained behind his back ahabaha brain fart moment frrrrrrr
NO SPOILERS, IVE NOT FINISHED THE GAME ! please :) ill add an edit when i do
everytime i post any writing my body fills with shaking fear like a chihuahua that doesn't know anger exists. its fine and i know its fine but my lizard brain is convinced ive spelled every word wrong including character names and im going to be booed and jeered by the colloseum and i'll have to walk home covered in tomatoes even though i do not like them
I’m not sure if this has been brought up before, but imagine a reader who's on t and anytime Ronin is around them
it’s on site.
hey! this is fun but i didnt have the inspiration for anything long so you get 686 words of edited once drabble right here right now!
mature themes below the cut! its legit about being T horny so you've been warned!
(this is p much for ppl interested in taking testosterone bc of the nature of the ask btw)
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You knew testosterone was going to make you horny, you knew it was going to make you unreasonably horny. You'd read the posts, you'd seen the memes, Ronin himself had snickered while giving you your first injection, making some remark about how you were horny enough without it, and that you're in for one hell of a ride before it evens out.
You'd rolled your eyes at him and said, 'yeah right, as long as you're the one giving the rides I'm sure I'll be fine.' You weren't worried, your sex life is good- really good, so what if you have to bang it out a couple more times a week?
'What a stellar review. Careful now, or you're gonna give me a big head, darlin',' Ronin had drawled, the look on his face amused like he was in on some joke you didn't quite get yet.
'Like your ego isn't big enough already,' you'd snickered and that was that.
…Or so you'd thought. A couple of jokes and the assumption that you'd be able to have sex a couple more times a week and you'd thought you were prepared. The idea makes you laugh now.
No one could be prepared for this. It's like your entire body has been rewired so that your eyes are connected directly to your dick. Every little thing sets you off: stupid sexy perfume adverts that you used to laugh at on T.V, attractive strangers on the street, and one memorable time- the vacuum on a teleshopping advert- which was not your fault!
It sucked too well and unfortunately that was all it took to get your brain thinking about other things and types of sucking and also maybe what the vaccuum would look like if it was anthropomorphised into a human and then you were shoving your hand down your pants and pointedly ignoring the fact that it was a vacuum cleaner that had turned you on in the first place while thinking about it.
…You're taking that last one to your grave.
The absolute worst culprit though is Ronin himself, he's been driving you absolutely crazy and the worst part is that he isn't even trying. It's all the damn time. Literally everything sets you off, both things that would normally turn you on but also things that are categorically not sexy.
You were expecting it when he stepped out the shower with wet hair and the strands were sticking to his face and neck, stray water droplets rolling down his chest, towel slung low on his hips turned you on; you were expecting it slightly less when the cuteness of his sleep-puffy face when you woke in the morning and rolled over to face him for the first time also turned you on, thoughts near immediately slipping into how soft, wet and inviting his open mouth looks when he's drooling on the pillows dead asleep.
And it just doesn't stop, it's the little stretch of midriff that gets exposed anytime he stretches his arms above his head; the sharp corner of his grin when he's feeling particularly proud, the way his shirt settles around his pecs when he's leaning back on the couch watching one of his slasher movies, every. single. time. he says your name, sometimes just because he's looking at you.
It's hell. You're going through hell. You're a little worried your dick is going to fall off from chaffing with how much action it's been getting and with the way Ronin is stretched out like a big cat on the couch, reaching for the remote with his t-shirt riding up his stomach, you're probably about to chafe it some more.
Scratch that. You're definitely going to chafe it some more because just glanced over his shoulder at you with an expression that says the fucker knows what he's doing to you- what he has been doing to you. Oh he is going to get it. You're not sure in which way yet he's going to get it, but he's going to get it.
Probably the sex way. Yeah, no, definitely the sex way.
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on another note i couldnt find this in my asks bc id put it in drafts bc i started typgin here but then moved to my writing doc bc writing here is stupid even if its short (ive lost many a drabble to this when i used to run an obey me headcanon account bc tumblr didnt have an autosave feature 5 years ago)
on ANOTHER another note this is me post final edit and i am a glutton for writing insanely long things i am too sick to write rn (hence editing) and had to actively restrain myself from adding plot to this when it was 70% finished and would need wholly rewritten for that to work like fuck my big chungus life come ON
Tumble gave me a frightful scare there. It decided to display every notification I have ever received at once in the little red box over the application, so when I went to open tumblr I was terrified something stupid I've said had gone viral because apparently I had ONE THOUSAND NOTIFICATIONS.
I did not. I had two. Honest to god scared the shit out of me, I went omg yay! And then immediately reality crashed on me and I was like... I can't answer to all those people, dear God what do i do???????
will you ever finish the "my fake boyfriend is a serial killer" or have you dropped it
It's in progress! Taking a break rn bc I'm having a brain blip but I've already got the whole plot mapped out and everything. I write quite long chapters so it's normally a couple months between updates to give me time to edit and do life stuff as well.
Its best to assume that if a fic of mine is chaptered and unfinished I'm still working on it. I have no plans to abandon any of my wips atm but if I ever did (god forbid) I would put "(DISCONTINUED)" in the title to make it clear. Hope this helps :)
Hiii baby! I can definitely try to write this ! But it will be a while before I start it bc I have to both finish the V fic I'm writing and play misaki's route before I can even start lol
Thank you for the request tho! I'll post ur ask with a link when I've finished so you dont miss it :)
