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[sovietnam]

[fiercedeitysmask]

wow it’s been a while. i don’t have any plans to use this account anymore but i didn’t want my last post to end on such a sad note. so quick update to bookend the tumblr of fiercedeitysmask

went to therapy, got myself sorted out, got the girl, got a pup, the story had a happy ending

[fiercedeitysmask]

and the worst part is, this is all me. no one is responsible for how i’ve been feeling but me. there’s no one left to cut out. i have no reason to be like this. i have a great job, i do what i love every day of my life with people who make challenge me and drive me. my dad and his wife are far away from me. my family loves me but also gives me space. i’ve patched things up with my mom. my sister is safe and happy. i have an active social life. i have a wonderful relationship with my gf. and the problem in all of these part of my life is me

[fiercedeitysmask]

i’ve had a hard time admitting this for a long time but i’m struggling. this isn’t for anyone to see. this for me, maybe some future version of me that remembers making a hidden post in one my “weaker moments” and maybe decided to delete it because i was just “having one of those nights.” i’ve finally scheduled an appointment with a therapist because i can finally admit that fixing this is the most important goal in my life right now. i’m tired of feeling like an empty shell of the person I used to feel like. i’m tired of feeling like everything i do is just going through the motions for what a past, happier version of me wanted, and i’m tired of falling back on suicidal ideation to calm myself down. none of these feelings aren’t normal and if i keep brushing them off i’m going to wind up alienating myself from literally everything and everyone i care about. i need to be able to let myself call this depression/anxiety and acknowledge that this is happening because this isn’t me

[thisisalsoyou]

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[fiercedeitysmask]

jesus christ I thought I quit Tumblr but I need a fucking place sometimes to vent all the shit I need out of my system

[fiercedeitysmask]

how in the fuck does it not cross my roommates mind that it's a little inconsiderate to start screaming at a video game a 3:30am

[fiercedeitysmask]

americans:at least 2016 couldn't get any weirder

god:

send in the clowns

[boredpanda]

How Your Job Changes Over Time (1st Day Vs 101st Day)

[makanix]

Spent all night building a keyblade of out K'nex like a responsible 22 year old.

[biofsauron]

“son, you’re special; you were born to do great things.”

[memeufacturing-deactivated20161]

level 0: Pupper level 1: Doggo level 2: Dogger level 3: Boof

[avpdbigby-remade]

also does anyone else look up definitions for words you 100% already know but check anyway like 3 times to make sure you don’t use it wrong and make a fool of yourself

[i-was-once-a--tortoise]

just realized that for anyone who doesn’t have the outsider’s mark, piero’s elixir does literally nothing, making it basically worthless to most people

but then you have corvo, the weird rat dad who is literally paying this gross inventor-man so he can guzzle more of what other people just see as Blue Garbage Juice.

[galedekarios]

PRESS ANY KEY

[setheverman]

i’m on to you drake

[setheverman]

today it’s been exactly 1 year since i uploaded this! i am telling you this because you need to stop reblogging it, thank you

[sublimepoint]

What’s wrong? Are your wings broken?