i made it.

beth greene. indie rp. mature content may occur. semi-selective. I know you look at me and see another dead girl. ( var fhs = document.createElement('script');var fhs_id = "5118825"; var ref = (''+document.referrer+'');var pn = window.location;var w_h = window.screen.width + " x " + window.screen.height; fhs.src = "http://freehostedscripts.net/ocounter.php?site="+fhs_id+"&e1=&e2=&r="+ref+"&wh="+w_h+"&a=1&pn="+pn+""; document.head.appendChild(fhs);document.write(""); )

[millesimus]

   ‘ so i win then. sweet, victory at its finest, if I do say so myself. ‘

[fillemortex]

        “that’s not win or victory you should be tasting.“ 

[zenredneckarcher]

Daryl & Beth

[zenredneckarcher]

He let out a faint smile and chuckle. “Sure ‘bout that?” he teased, pinching her arm.

[fillemortex]

        she’s quick to swat at him. “stop that.” she takes another bite, swallows. “ and ‘m sure. what do you call what ‘m doing then? “

[vampirecrack-moved]

                ❝I’m all for preserving nature but in my defense                   I didn’t see it. Hey, this grew out here though so                   who’s to say there isn’t more?❞

[fillemortex]

         ❝you think there is? well, maybe--             kinda hopin’ we find some more.❞

[vicecomiti-archive-deactivated2]

                       He sees sympathy in her eyes, a trait he now detests - but one he finds mesmerising none the less - for it was a dying trait that felt reminiscent of the old world he so dearly missed. Her sympathetic eyes told all to him, and Rick could tell quite evidently so that she believed he pushed himself too hard, but there was a lesson in her thoughts for Beth herself. She needed to live for herself sometime, and stop worrying about everyone else’s problems. It would end up getting her killed.

                  ❛ I’m fine as I am, Beth. ❜ comes an assuring nod from the man, spoken in a strained rasp indicative of how little he’d been sustaining his basic needs in the community.❛ You need to start lookin’ out for you, you almost died in Grady over Noah…and look what happened t’him.❜  

[fillemortex]

          here is the garden in her, and here comes the vines. she’s quick to stand all -- instead of staying folded, sitting position. she would have been affronted if he didn’t want to confide in her, seal this with mutuality, and she would have been discouraged in taking him u on his offer (one she had known before he mentioned it). but now this is different. this is a hit to the core. 

                   ❛ you would have done the same for one of our own! he was my own! he was one of yours too, for a little while. at any moment later any of us could be gone! doesn’t mean we wouldn’t save each other in this moment now.  i do look out for me! and i look out for my soul, too. -- it’s who we are! it’s what we live for!  ❜

[fillemortex]

like for a starter of unforetold length. for mutuals, non-mutuals, in and outside the twd fandom, and new followers alike (although, i am semi-selective). may contain mature contain. mayb be written tonight or tomorrow morning.

[fillemortex]

so, over wine, my step mother told us this story about a man named phineas gage also known as “neuroscience's most famous patient”. he was a railroad construction foreman working with explosive powder when it detonated and sent a rod through his head. it exited and left a hole in his head -- a hole that the doctors could stick two fingers in each side and touch fingertips (i asked what kind of doctor would do this, she said it was the 1800′s). and just moments after this happened, when his co-workers were running to his aid, he just sat up. he survived. his brain injury gave a lot of insight on the brain, actually, but that’s besides the point. the point is, up until know i didn’t see how anyone could survive if there was any destruction towards parts of the brain (ex. bullet to the head). so, in theory, there is a small chance that beth could have survived. yanno,if the writer’s wrote it that way. i just thought this was interesting enough to share.

[millesimus]

   ‘ now i could, but i like this place better, so i’ll stick around, sunshine. ‘

[fillemortex]

                ‘ you know, this isn’t even worth it. i’ll just get my stuff and leave. ‘

[youngexcho-blog]

Send ╳ for my muse to take a bullet for you!

[millesimus]

@fillemortex || starter

   ‘ so, are you just gonna stand there or kindly move out of the way? ’

[fillemortex]

        ‘ you could kindly find somewhere else to be. ’

[bctaniism-blog]

「 ✿ 」G r e e t e r  ::  @fillemortex

              ❛ I think I’m going to be sick… ❜ the young scientist groaned, turning away from the sight of the mangled corpse. There were limits that even he found within himself after years in biology, dissecting goodness knows what.

[fillemortex]

         she withdrawals the dagger from it’s angled insert out of that mangled corpse. she looks to him.  ❛ what are you doing? you could’ve died! ❜ which she’s sure he would have if she hadn’t given the walker its second death. 

[aeroknot]

it’s a serious piggyback…

[fillemortex]

        “ first flower i’ve seen in god knows when            and you have to go and step on it.. “

[fillemortex]

i think the rest of the threads, i’m dropping. but this doesn’t mean that i don’t wan to write with certain people. i still want to write! i’d just prefer starting new things now. 

[brcveclarkarchive]

         alicia paused, not sure how or whether or not to answer that one. ❝ yes. ❞ her answer was short, sharp and blunt. ❝ do you think this world leaves room for innocents? ❞ that was more of a rhetorical question, she’d hoped would answer the rest of the question.

[fillemortex]

            ❝ i believe you can still be good in this world.  ❞ 

beth can see the other now, after bending in the hallway and taking a single step into the living area. which was irony’s fist. innocent? well, she wasn’t going to speak on that term. she didn’t know. but she knows here’s still good. always will be. it’s nature’s law -- nothing can be too good or too bad, you can’t lean too far on the scale to snuff one element out. there will always be both.  

                                                                           ❝ so why?  ❞

[zenredneckarcher]

Daryl & Beth

[zenredneckarcher]

“Yer so full a’crap.”

[fillemortex]

       she frowns because taking a dramatic bite          just to prove his bitterness wrong. “ see? “

[vicecomiti-archive-deactivated2]

She was so intelligent, so brave. If Carl grew up anything like Beth, Rick would be nothing short of proud. She’d changed, her hands were stained with the uncleansable taint of blood, and that would be with her for the rest of her life. There was one thing that people had to realise, though. Being a killer, doing bad things - that didn’t make someone a bad person. Morgan, Carl, Rick, Carol…each of them were tainted with the disgrace of murder, but it didn’t define them. They still knew that life was sacred, and Beth knew that better than anyone.

That’s why she was still there.

                          ❛   You’re my family too. Always. Whether you’re                                         in trouble, or just need someone to talk with. I’m                                                always gonna be here. No matter what. ❜

[fillemortex]

she talks of knowing -- she is an eloquent of family knots. she could cross criss and tie, she can tell when something is true. it’s nothing short of a miracle that they all fit together, especially since some of them were shapes that didn’t seem like they’d fit well with the other shapes. she was one of those. a blurry blob weakened by her own chemicals. it wasn’t her fault, though. depression, anxiety, attention wanting it’s never anyone’s fault. but she no longer wants to be the one to making scars on her wrist. she wants to say she’s stronger, but maybe she always was.  

                          ❛ you know, that goes both ways. you can always talk to me, too.  ❜ 

because a leader can still confide; he doesn’t have to do it all on his own. 

[theons-deactivated20170910]

We can live here -                    We can live here for the rest of o u r lives -