Good evening. It's been a bit.
With the ongoing enshittification of the internet I've come to a realization: two, actually. There is no feasible way for me to keep myself fully connected to the internet in a way that keeps my sanity intact (I've known this for awhile; but I don't think I had fully "woken up" to it until recently), and that it is incredibly unintuitive as a creator to have your work strewn about multiple, often incredibly inaccessible, websites where you have to jump through layers upon layers of bullshit just to find what you came here for. You should not have to go through multiple social media profiles, streaming services, etc. just to access the art you love.
I am not a large creator. I'm not sure if I ever will be. But regardless of how successful my future is I wish to provide as directly to my audience (even with as small as it is right now) as possible with as little friction between the two of us. This is also, technically, another step in my process of cutting myself off from the stresses of social media. The internet is something that has helped me greatly: were it not for the things I've learned and the people I've met here, I'd likely be rotting in my parents backyard. I likely would never have discovered i was trans, moved out, gotten my own apartment and my own job and so on and so forth. But it is something that has also hurt me deeply, and has significantly worsened my symptoms over the years to the detriment of both myself and the people close to me.
For those reasons I am abandoning all my current accounts and creating a new one that will be strictly used for posting my artwork and discussing my creative work in general: it will not be used for anything else. Maybe the occasional fundraiser or so as I hold great important in assisting others. Or a really good joke, because I'm the funniest person here. (yes, right here, out of everybody on this entire website). But I will not look at my "feed", or dashboard or whatever the hell we wanna call it at this point. I will not post about my personal life outside of the small event or story. And I will definitely not be doing that stupid shit where I make post upon post threatening to kill myself and talking about how awful my life is for pity points. And in the future, once I expand my horizons into mediums such as game development and music composition (on the topic of the latter--I've been concepting for something. Isn't that neat?), I'd like to host my own website that acts as an easy guide for finding all of these things, and maybe hosts a couple resources. But it's gonna be a hot minute until that happens. Baby steps.
As much as I'd love to become a hermit that lives under a rock and talks to my friends via letters sent through messenger pigeons, that's not a situation that's really feasible in this current day and age. I cannot cut myself off completely from the internet. But I want to distance myself as much as possible, for my own sake as both a creative and someone who is honestly getting really sick of the constant cycle of torment I have experienced endlessly since the day I was first grown on this barren earth as a fungal homunculus: which I admit, a good chunk of that torment I enacted on myself
This account and my previous art account will be kept up as archives: just in the case I need to find something, and also I know even if I did delete everything every single embarrassing fumble and fuck up I've enacted as a dumbass kid can never be truly scrubbed away. It will be found eventually. So, not really a point in allat. I'd still like a cleaner slate though. My toyhouse account will also be kept up because there is definitely some shit there I'd like to grab later on, but I'm archiving that too.
The handle will still be the same (finalhaunts). I'll also likely see about phasing out Pinterest and Youtube more as well, but not entirely as I do use the former for creative resources/inspiration and the latter I would like to post my work to more eventually. The blog is gonna be really barebones at the moment, default theme and such, until I find the time to work on it. But it will be there.
Not sure how to end this all off. I'd give some heartfelt speech or whatever thanking you all for everything you've given me, but I barely have an audience here and I don't know who IS here all that well. I've got some cool people following me tho. If you REALLY want to keep in personal contact with me I have a discord. But that'll be it. But like, I'm up for the messenger pigeon idea if anybody else is. Anyways I've gotten really into psychonauts lately my favorites are sasha and loboto. My lalas.
