Darlings~~I hardly know where to begin. I'll start by saying that I am safe and well.
The big personal challenges I was managing at the beginning of the year transitioned smoothly into giant global challenges with a quickness. How are you all? Are you holding up?
While I have thus far, miraculously, avoided COVID-19 myself, this terrible virus upturned my life in every other way. My mentor (who I work with) lost his wife to COVID in an early surge, having been in Italy with her at the time. Our workplace was immediately shuttered as she fell ill and all conservators parted ways. I raced home to the US ahead of the shutdown and carefully quarantined. Traveling was~~an awful and anxious experience, but not as awful as the losses. There is no escape from the impact of this disease. Coming from the dance/theater world, most of my oldest friends have been devastated by the loss of work even if they have avoided sickness. But not all have avoided it and grief weighs heavily on me. I won't speak more on that.
For months, I have not been able to summon much focus or energy towards fun endeavors like this blog. I took my own advice and forced myself into a hiatus from fandom activities. I have still kept up with Bangtan content since they have been a beacon of comfort, but I have little tolerance for fan spaces or discussion. I have become overly sensitive to even the slightest aroma of toxicity in the midst of so much darkness. And Dears, you know it's quite unavoidable on social media~~even with thoughtfully curated feeds. It was best for me to limit my attention to things good for my mental health.
I am sending this message to the Mysterious Friend of the Fowl for posting (you should check in too, babe!). We are about one week out from Dynamite as I write this! Exciting~~!! The Mysterious Friend is the only one I have stayed in contact with regarding BTS material. We both still need to get through Memories 2019, but the email she sent me right after the deluge of KM content is both colorful and hilarious. Those boys sure know how to raise an eyebrow~~or two.
Hand cupped to my ear, I can already hear the voices calling out, "But Finch! What do you think about KM now? Has your opinion changed?"
No, my friends, it has not. My position remains that I believe JM and JK have a special and lovely relationship worth celebrating. Few things are less interesting to me than labeling, defining, or assuming the exact nature of that relationship. The last time I saw my inbox, there had been an array of Anons insisting that JM and JK were currently dating a dozen or more people. These were individual claims, about all different partners, all certain they were correct, and all seemingly thought this information would change my opinion about Kookmin. I assume these Anons have not really read this blog.
Maybe I will clarify one more time then. JM and JK could be actively dating and/or having sexy-times with hundreds of other people all the time and that would change nothing about this blog. FnJ is for fangirling over Bangtan and celebrating the publicly observable bond of Kookmin and all the members of the group, which is delightful and full of love.
I do not care who or if anyone in this group is dating. Those are their private lives and not my business. This matters approximately the same amount to me as what brand of toothpaste they use.
Music, performance, and interpersonal behavior in Bangtan is interesting to me. The love they so obviously all have for each other is interesting to me. Kookmin being so bright in each other's company is interesting to me. That's what I'm here for~~
Although the 'here' is much less often now. Sorry, Darlings! It felt important to check in, but I am still not ready to return to FnJ. I will continue to focus on looking after my family, friends, and local community as we struggle with these unprecedented circumstances.
If you see content/fanart reblogs on FnJ, know that they are probably the Mysterious Friend of the Fowl fangirling a bit. It might be me on occasion, but we will otherwise not be active here. The inbox will be closed until further notice. Fowl let me know there were many messages of worry and concern in there and I welled up with gratitude and warmth. Thank you, Darlings. I reflect that worry back to you and hope you are healthy and as vibrant as you can be through all of this.
Be good to each other! Wear your masks! 💜 💜 💜
Oh, and if you're an American, please vote in November~~~!!!
- Finch
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I wish I could confidently say EVERYTHING IS FINE this time like the last time I posted for Finch, but THAT WOULD NOT BE ACCURATE. Hahahaaaaa fml. Dude, it hasn’t even been that long and Tumblr looks all out of whack. I’ll check in too as Finch commands. I’m doing okay, but stressed af. Aren’t we all? Hoping Dynamite will be a jam. Also really wanna watch this In the Soop thing. Looks relaxing. Both Finch and I are curious about the upcoming album. We’ve usually preferred when BTS are more hands-on with their music so we’re pretty hyped. That part with KM and the toast in Memories is the goddamn cutest. Just tacking that on the end here for no other reason than I just saw a clip of it and it cracked me the fuck up.
Seriously wear a mask. They’re like beaks... for humans. Get on that beak life!
K, check-in complete. Love you guys. Be careful out there.
- Mysterious Friend of the Fowl















