Welcome To My Mind

I don't know who I am, what I am. That's not important. What's important is that you're happy.

[findmebeforeifall]

All the pieces of you fit perfectly in the hole inside my heart And I'd be lying if I tried telling you That you're not everything I want

Yeah, I keep a picture of you in my pocket And last night, I almost lost it I used to think I should quit you But I'm so addicted, it hurts

Remember the nights That we would stare at the lights by the train tracks And you would always listen to Dashboard That was the first time that I realized

All the pieces of you fit perfectly in the hole inside my heart And I'd be lying if I tried telling you That you're not everything I want

'Cause I tried running away But I came right back today Just hoping that you'd let me say I'm sorry 'Cause all the pieces of you fit perfectly in the hole inside my heart Inside my heart

I wasn't ready for this, looking in hindsight It's like bringing a knife to a gunfight And sometimes, I listen to your voicemails Need something to fill the void Remember the night we almost got in a fight in your driveway And you told me that you needed space That was the last time that I realized All the pieces of you fit perfectly in the hole inside my heart

And I'd be lying if I tried telling you That you're not everything I want 'Cause I tried running away But I came right back today Just hoping that you'd let me say I'm sorry 'Cause all the pieces of you fit perfectly in the hole inside my heart Inside my heart (inside my, inside my, inside my heart)

Remember the nights That we would stare at the lights by the train tracks And you would always listen to Dashboard That was the first time that I realized

All the pieces of you fit perfectly in the hole inside my heart

[findmebeforeifall]

I exist of those around me, without them I wouldn't be here.

[findmebeforeifall]

If I were a wizard, I’d want you to be My incredibly powerful wizard lady We could go around town getting all the baddies Go back to my place and smoke a fatty

Because how much fun do you think it’d be? Being high wizards, just you and me Making fireballs, inventing new spells Accidentally make a swamp monster that smells

And if I were a warrior, I’d want you to be My incredibly beautiful warrior lady We could save all the towns folk from evil dragons And ride around town in our real cool wagons

Because how much fun do you think it’d be? Being tough warriors, just you and me Beating big monsters day to day Always having enough free time to play To play

If I were just a boy I’d want you to be My incredibly nerdy cute little lady We could sit in my room and play FF7 Hanging out with you would just be heaven

Because how much fun do you think it’d be? Staring up at my ceiling, just you and me We could make blanket forts, play hide and seek Can I kiss your lips or maybe just your cheek? Your cheek

[findmebeforeifall]

Driving myself into an early grave But that's okay, I could use the sleep Try not to dwell on the decisions I've made I've fallen short, that cave is deep

I've tried to fill the holes in my life With vices made of cement Instead of patching leaks I fucked up And turned my feet into bricks

Yesterday I had this feeling of sinking into doubt and regret As I drifted I heard echoes of ringing Smashed my phone, check my texts

You thought that we should go get a drink To get the weight off your chest As low as hopes could possibly be I said, "I gladly accept."

I haven't gotten out of my car I got here early, you aren't that far I'm walking towards the door of our favorite bar My thoughts are swirling, why's this so hard?

I see the headlights Pulling in See through your window Your waving grin You park your car Normal space I'm so fucking nervous I'm stuck in place I hear the door I hear your steps Come around the corner Fuck I look a mess I see your face Where to begin? The cutest smile Your glowing skin You grab my hand You lead me in

[findmebeforeifall]

I miss what we had

But I love what we have

I'm glad we're still intouch

I would not give this up for the world

[findmebeforeifall]

every trace of you has been disappearing from the house day by day but nothing feels right without you I can tell you that's for damn sure

I hope you won't disappear completely from this place, or my heart

I hope you come back thinking better of me than just someone you knew I'd do anything for that or for you

[findmebeforeifall]

In a nightmare, I am falling from the ceiling into bed beside you

You're asleep, I'm screaming, shoving you to try to wake you up

And like before, you've got no interest in the life you live when you're awake

Your dreams still follow storylines, like fictions you would make So I lie down against your back, until we're both back in the hospital

But now it's not a cancer ward, we're sleeping in the morgue

Men and women in blue and white, they are singing all around you With heavy shovels holding earth, you're being buried to you neck

In that hospital bed, being buried quite alive now I'm trying to dig you out but all you want is to be buried there together

You're screaming

And cursing

And angry

And hurting me

And then smiling

And crying

Apologizing

I've woken up, I'm in our bed, but there's no breathing body there beside me

Someone must have taken you while I was stuck asleep

But I know better as my eyes adjust

You've been gone for quite a while now, and I don't work there in the hospital (They had to let me go)

When I try to move my arms sometimes, they weigh too much to lift

I think you buried me awake (my one and only parting gift)

But you return to me at night just when I think I may have fallen asleep

Your face is up against mine, and I'm too terrified to speak

You're screaming

And cursing

And angry

And hurting me

And then smiling

And crying

Apologizing

[zerozerozio]

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[boimann]

reblog to let people know it's ok to bother you with questions and statements

[findmebeforeifall]

i've always thought that you were too good for me, even back on those summer days we spent getting to know each other. i couldn't believe how lucky i was. i can't believe how lucky i am, and now i know what this meant to you. you see something in me i'm incapable of seeing, and you cross my mind about a thousand times everyday.

I'm constantly reminded that my days are numbered, but lately i don't seem to care because i know i'll be spending them with you for as long as i live or as long as you'll have me. i'll never forget how i could feel your lips curve into a smile when we kissed.

[therealemoguy]

“Brendan put down the knife…I love you too much to let you take your life”

Old Gray (2011-2018)

[norma2d]

The Outskirts of Koshigaya in Musashi Province (Utagawa Hiroshige) in pixel art

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[apunkrockernamedzev]

you’ve gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government? die for your country? that’s shit! you’ve gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government? die for your country? that’s shit!

– Anti Flag, Die For Your Government 

[findmebeforeifall]

waking up at the crack of noon reminiscing of the times waking up with you i should leave, sell my shit, make some kind of moves i’m lying to myself i never leave this fucking room i got a pile of shit i haven’t addressed head is a mess check the script bottle see if any are left there’s nothing,nowhere. but lets just not even go there i’m lucky if i wake up let alone care ‘cause theres a fine line from who i am and who i wanna be i’m amazed at what i find when i look within honestly honestly, feels like i’m waiting to die watch the days pass by, whats it mean to be alive? and i’ve been killing time go to bed with the sunrise i got this feeling i won’t make it to 25 it’s a far cry, know we’ve all got hard times but these long nights got me feeling like i wanna die leave my body by the liquor store i’m an asshole let me die slow it’s too late for me can’t you fucking see i dug my own grave let me fucking be don’t even try to feed me all that life is what you make it pull up to your 9-5 and smile or try fake it but when you’re in your bed alone i know you fucking face it one day you’ll meet your maker and see your life was wasted the reaper creeping slow i know you see him when you’re dreaming you’re posted at a party but he’s in the dark scheming and you keep telling me that life has some sort of meaning so sorry if i’m pessimistic but i don’t believe it i’m a fuck up, motherfucker i’m sick of trying to find myself of others i’m sick of seeking love, i’d rather suffer i’m sick of life, i put that on my mother yeah i’m a fuck up, motherfucker i needed you, you left me in the gutter the saddest part is that i really loved her on a sinking ship i wave as i go under leave my body by the liquor store i’m an asshole let me die slow it’s too late for me can’t you fucking see i dug my own grave let me fucking be i’m a fuck up, motherfucker i’m sick of trying to find myself of others i’m sick of seeking love, i’d rather suffer i’m sick of life, i put that on my mother yeah i’m a fuck up, motherfucker i needed you, you left me in the gutter the saddest part is that i really loved her on a sinking ship i wave as i go under

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