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Lights flashing

And sirens blaring

Blood pools on the side of the street

Right where you lay

People are saying that you'll be okay

But deep down I think you know

It's done

It's over

It's time for you to go home

You lay there

Probably in pain

I was never there

So I'll never know

I can only hope it didn't hurt

But knowing me

Ill think the worst

I can only hope that it was quick

And hope that you are okay now

Maybe it was time to go

I see your picture

And you're smiling

So I hope you're still smilling down at us

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I just want to make it known

I forgive you for all of your wrongs

I forgive you for every bad thing you've said

And done

Or everything you laughed at, knowing it was wrong

I forgave you for it the day we met

And I forgave you for it yesterday

And I'll forgive you for it until my last breath

Because all of those wrong doings

Led you right to me

So I forgive you for your wrongs

And I will for the rest of my life

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For the longest time I sat and wondered

Wondered what I did wrong

Why I wasn't good enough

Was I too small?

Too sensitive?

Was it because I was good hearted?

A hopeless romantic?

But the truth is

I am all of the above

I'm very small and I love it

I'm very sensitive because I wear my heart on my sleeve

I'm good hearted and care a lot about others

And I am a hopeless romantic

But truth is

For longest time I just wondered

But now I don't care at all about the truth

Because I can't seem to care about you

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Were u in a abusive relationship?

I was. I was in more than one in my high school career, but I’m in a healthy relationship now 😊

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Fists hit walls

And eyes shed tears

Bruises form

And cuts are made

It's a horrible thing

Tragic

But mix it with sweet words

And I just might take a drink

I'll hold on to the table

As a hand hits my face

"I'm fine. I'm fine"

"Just tripped down the stairs"

I'm not fine

I never was

So I ran

I ran and ran

As fast as I could

I got away finally

Only took me a year

And while I no longer shed the tears

And while there are no bruises left behind now

Years later,

Fists hitting walls still flash in my mind

But I'll push them back

Because you can no longer call me yours

I am only mine

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I never once thought

That you weren't the one

The one that would be there with me

Through thick and thin

As you call me when I panic

Cause I had let him back

That's when I let myself realize

That you were the one

The one that would love me

No matter what

At first thought

You make me smile

Even as I write these words down

Because you boy are the one

Always have been

Always will be

Not because you say I'm cute

Or that you love me too

But because you are you

And my life needs just that

You.

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I honestly can't remember a time where I truly loved myself. And everyone says that you can't love someone without first loving yourself. But you? Oh God. I love you more than anything. Yet I don't love myself. But I think that loving the right person can help you learn to love yourself

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Words are just words

That's what everyone says

Boys just play rough

It's in their nature

That's what everyone says

And so I allow boys to say mean words to me

Because words are just words

And I allow boys to get rough with me

Because it's just in their nature

But when I get hurt over it

And when I cry over it

They say I'm just sensitive

They say I'm just hormonal

Because boys will be boys

And words are just words

So that makes it okay

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You're the one I want to be with through everything. You're the one I want to go cross country with and see so many different places with. I want to rent an RV and just drive with you for hours. Watching the sun rise and fall with you. And then when all is said and done, you're the one I want to come home to everyday. I want to experience life with you. The good. The bad. And the goddamned ugly. I want to hit every single milestone with you. And I can only hope that you want that too.

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Spent Christmas with my baby and we exchanged our presents. Got him 2 shirts and a CD. Turns out he got me the PS4 😂😂 but he said it's okay cause he didn't want anything

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I've gotta drunk off your hugs

And high off your kisses

I nodded out to the cuddles

And my body went numb during sex

You're the best drug I've tried

And the sweetest alcohol I've drank

Yet

Even now

I'm not addicted to you

And your taste

Or your touch

So yes

You're the best drug I've met

And for trying you

I have no regrets

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Our tongues clash together

Creating a Holy sin

Your fingers run through my hair

To pull away,

I wouldn't dare

My breath is gone

And so are you

Please come back

I need you here

But to you

I am a secret

So it's time I face that dirty truth

That seems to linger in the air

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You stagger in

It's 4am

Your eyes rimmed red

Your words slurred

Your hands find their place

Resting on my waist

Slowly moving up

You're speaking lies in my ear

The sweet smell of candy on your breath

I taste it on your tongue

My mind is swimming

Your touch is fleeting

Leaving trails on fire on my skin

I let you in

The door slams shut

But that's okay

You'll be back again

Tomorrow

At 4am