After The Storm

Finn Jenkins || 18 || halfblood twin to Danny Jenkins

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Teeth caught her bottom lip as she opened the door of her room, sticking her head outside she drew the attention of the person outside. “Hello, hi.” Ivy greeted, a slight smile crossing her face. “So there’s a huge spider in here, would you be able to escort him or her out for me?” Fingertips pointed back into the room as her teeth once again tucked down over her bottom lip. “Pretty please?” She asked, batting her lashes at the other.

Finn hadn’t really spoken to the redhead since their last encounter, yet he currently occupied the seat outside her door. He wasn’t sure if she knew he was on shift of not and if he was honest he wasn’t sure he cared. It would be a lie if he said he hadn’t felt a bit of happiness when they reconnected last time but that didn’t mean things were going to go back to how they used to. He’d changed a lot since then, and he was sure she probably had done the same. A small sigh fell from his lips as the door opened. He looked up to see Ivy. The male directed a small polite smile her way. A ghost of a smirk hovered over his lips as he pushed himself up. “Show me the terrifying beast then.” 

[finnjenkins]

oflucejones:

Closed starter @finnjenkins

“You’re not Danny.” She paused shocked as she stared at her friend, it took a few minutes for reality to click and her to realise who was actually standing in front of her. “Oh my gosh, Finn! You’re here!”

The male found himself smiling at the blonde. “Y’know Luce, I think other than my parents you’re one of the only people that can tell me apart from Danny.” He stated impressed, enjoying the feeling of being recognised for once. “Yeah, I arrived a few weeks ago now. I never even knew you were here otherwise I would have came looking for you.” He told her with a small smile. “How have you been?” 

[wendlydarling]

“The quieter you become, the more you can hear.”

— Ram Dass (via austenns)

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Ivy shrugged her shoulder once he finished speaking. Processing his words, the auburn haired young woman’s eyebrows drew together for a moment before she peered back toward him. “Well, I’m glad you don’t hate me, I guess..” She shrugged, catching her bottom lip between her teeth she then caught his gaze. “…I missed you” She mumbled quietly, knowing that he likely wouldn’t be willing to say it back but, she voiced her thoughts nonetheless.

The male gave her a weak smile before meeting her gaze. “I missed you too.” The words fell from his lips before he had chance to think about it, and it was only as he said it that he realised he actually did miss her. She was probably his only real friend and he missed having her in his life, it was one of the reasons he had become so bitter. He could have perhaps coped with having to stay at home being home schooled if he still had her in his life, but she was gone along with Danny and each time Finn was left alone.  

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Ivy’s lips parted as Finn began to speak. She had never thought of it that way.. She hadn’t thought of all the things he had missed out on - Hogwarts was wonderful in its own way and he hadn’t been able to experience that.. Because of her. Her brows furrowed for a moment, she didn’t know what to say, there was no amount of apologies that would make up for this.. She knew that. Her hand slowly broke away from his and moved to rest gently on his thigh as she turned to face him, eyes softening once again as she studied his face. “I know you’re just trying to make me feel better but please.. Don’t- I don’t deserve your niceties.. I honestly think I’d rather you were angry at me for the rest of your life.. Maybe then I wouldn’t ruin anything else for you..” She removed her hand from its place on his thigh and scooped her bare legs up onto the bed, crossing them beneath her as her, now free, hand moved to brush back through her loose auburn curls.

Finn tried to convince himself he didn’t miss her touch as she withdrew her hand. “I’m not angry with Ivy, I’m sorry if that’s what you want, but I won’t be mad at you just to make yourself feel better. I loath your parents and I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t built a resentment up towards you but I can’t find it within me to hate you for doing something you didn’t do. You were my friend... is that what I’m supposed to hate you for?”

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

His words caused Ivy’s heart to thud heavily into the pit of her stomach. Although he admitted that he didn’t hate her, knowing that he didn’t feel the same happiness to see her as she felt for him was heartbreaking. “I know there’s nothing I can really do to make it better but.. I really am sorry, Finn..” She sighed softly, gaze breaking away from his once again. 

He shook his head once again, “It’s fine, I mean, deep down I know it’s not really your fault - I don’t really blame you, honestly--” He paused running a hand through his hair.-- “I just resent you because you and Danny did all the things I wanted to do but couldn’t. I had to stay at home while you guys got to live your lives.” He explained before abruptly closing his mouth, he was telling her more than he was comfortable with her knowing. 

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Ivy was glad for the contact that Finn decided to keep between their hands and willingly followed him to the bed, plopping herself down on the edge of it. Exhaling heavily, the auburn haired young woman wiped her eyes, pushing away the tears that stained her face. As the male spoke, Ivy peered toward him and shook her head. “You.. You don’t have to say anything it’s not- It’s not your fault.” She sighed deeply as she dropped her gaze to their hands, her fingertips subconsciously playing with his - it really was just like old times just.. With less happiness. Her heart swelled as she moved her gaze back to settle on his face. “I understand if you hate me for what I did, Finn.. I’d hate me too.” Ivy sighed, sadness lacing her every feature.

A sigh fell past the male’s lips as he shook his head avoiding her gaze, “I don’t hate you Ivy... I may resent you a little but I could never hate you.” He told her truthfully. His gaze drifted to their hands, he remembered a time they went everywhere together hand-in-hand. 

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Deep brown orbs focused on his face, softening as she studied him. Merlin, she had missed him. Even though it had been years since she had seen him properly, she noticed that he hadn’t changed a bit, perhaps only in personality. As the gap between them closed, Ivy found herself truly relaxing into his embrace. It almost felt as though no time had passed as she entwined her arms around him, her hands clinging to his shirt as she sobbed against his chest. “Finn I’m so sorry..” She sobbed, tears soaking into his shirt. Her heart almost came to rest, the aching almost beginning to cease until he broke the embrace. Her hands reached out for him, her eyes pleading with him to return to her. Ivy’s gaze moved to settle on his, yet she saw something different in his eyes, something that differed from the kindness he had always held when they were younger. “I don’t understand. How are you here?” She questioned as her hands once again came to rub her eyes, forcing away the tears so she could see him properly.

The way she fell into his embrace, relaxing in his arms took the male straight back to their childhood. A smile briefly tugged at his lips before it was replaced with a stone face again. He awkwardly rubbed her back trying to comfort her, it had been a while since he last hugged anyone. As he broke apart he could see that the redhead wasn’t ready to break the hug, she reached out to him as if to ask him to come back. Chewing his lip he took her hand pulling her to the bed where he perched on the edge, gently pulling her down to sit too. He kept her hand in his own not wanting to upset the female any more so than she was. The male gave a shrug. “I came here to help with the order. I... I honestly had no idea that you thought I was dead-- I’m not quite sure what to say.” 

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Ivy’s gaze snapped up from the ground as soon as the male spoke, her eyes widening as her flow of tears ceased. Processing his words, the auburn haired young woman felt her head begin to spin, her heart aching to reach out for the male. Her dark eyes searching his face, finally focusing in on the features of his face that differed to his twin. The freckles that scattered one side of his face, just beneath his eye, one dimple in his cheek, the more defined jawline. Her heart rate increased as she pushed herself from the bed, drawing closer to him. His words faded into the distance as Ivy took further steps toward him, her gaze searching his face as she felt her hands begin to tremble as she looked at him, wanting nothing more than to reach out for him. “Finn..?” She spoke his name, her voice quivering as her gaze fell on one more thing that Danny definitely didn’t have. A small scar on his forehead, just below his hairline. “It… It’s you-” She cut herself off as she found herself trying to close the distance between the both of them, stopping in her tracks - she didn’t want to overstep.

Finn realised his mistake as soon as he saw the Slytherin’s reaction. The male couldn’t tell if he was relieved that she finally knew it was him. He could feel her eyes scanning his face, he knew what she was doing. She was making sure it was truly him. Not a lot of people were able to tell him and Danny apart, but those who knew them enough knew the signs. He could feel his hear thumping in his chest as she stepped closer to him. There were too many emotions running through him. It left him feeling confused - the foggy feeling returning to his head. He bit down on his lip nodding, confirming it was him. The wizard wasn’t sure why but he closed the gap between them pulling her into a hug. It just felt like the right thing to do. He closed his eye briefly savouring the moment, it had been so long since he’d last hugged her. It took him back to their childhood together. He missed it terribly. He missed her. His brain scolded him, forcing him to break the hug. Too much had gone on -- too much had changed. That chapter of their life was over now. 

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

“Maybe I wouldn’t have been, but there’s nothing I can do to change it now, I’ve pretty much sealed my own fate.” Ivy spoke softly then shrugged her shoulders as a gentle sigh spilled past her lips. Wiping her eyes, the auburn haired young woman felt her heart thrashing heavily against her chest as she drew her hands away. Hearing the words flit through the air toward her, Ivy then peered back toward the male and shook her head. “Why are you doing this? To punish me?” The auburn haired young woman spoke, shaking her head once again before gesturing to herself. “Is my heart not broken enough for you?” She raised her voice as more tears fell. “Finn is dead, my parents killed him. Better yet, you, Danny, were the one to tell me.” Her voice held the pain that trembled through her entire being. “My parents had the audacity to keep it from me until I had to go to school and find out that my best friend wouldn’t be joining me, from you. So please. Don’t patronise me Danny. I may not seem like I have a heart, but trust me - there is one in here so please.. Please stop this.” Her pleas came in the form of sobs. Ivy truly didn’t understand what was happening, why she was being the way she was in front of the male or why he had chosen to deny that Finn was dead. Her heartbreak and confusion were both merging into one and it seemed like the male didn’t even care but then again, why should he? Ivy didn’t deserve to be cared for, not after everything she had done.

He nodded deciding to leave it there. She had a valid point, no matter how much they discussed it things wouldn’t change. It was too late for that now. Finn couldn’t help the concerned look that came to his face as he watched the redhead wipe her eyes. No matter how much he resented Ivy, they were still close at one point and he didn’t like to see her upset. The male could only stand there looking baffled as she ranted on, convinced that he was dead. He stepped forward as if he was about to comfort her but stopped in his tracks thinking better of it. “Wait.. Danny told you I was dead?” The wizard was too distracted by the hurt and betrayal he felt in his chest to realise his mistake. He shook his head, no, Danny wouldn’t do that. Why on earth would he tell Ivy that her parents had killed him. “He wouldn’t do that. Why would he do that?” He could feel his voice getting raspy as his emotions began to get the better of him.

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Ivy peered over toward the male, brow furrowed as she met his gaze. “You don’t understand. Your parents aren’t like mine. Yours are.. Good. There are so many things you don’t know about my relationship with my family, and that of theirs with the rest of the high powered Slytherin families. You don’t understand…” She spoke, head shaking. “Leave home?” Ivy scoffed, shaking her head once again. “How could I possibly leave my parents? I was twelve years old when they began to convert me, Danny.. I would have been lost without them.” The auburn haired young woman explained before she peered back toward him as he spoke once again. “Please don’t make me say it..” Ivy spoke, her voice weakening as the words repeated themselves over and over in her mind, causing a lump to begin to form in her throat and her eyes to glass over. “Finn.. He died because of me..” A stray few tears spilled down her cheeks as she peered up at the male.

Finn chewed on his lip feeling a little bad. She was right, he didn’t understand. He was judging her even though he didn’t have all the details, he had no idea what it was like to have parents like hers. “You would have been better off without them. You might not be in this position if it wasn’t for them.” He knew he wasn’t being fair. It as easy to say all this but deep down he knew it was a lot harder than he was making it out to be. Maybe it was his bitterness talking. The male looked at Ivy confused. He stepped away from the door, facing her properly this time. “But Finn isn’t dead?” His statement sounded more like a question but he was just so confused. He had no idea where the female had gotten the information from but whoever it was had been lying to her.

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

“You think I chose to be this way?” Ivy scoffed, shaking her head she then lowered her gaze. “I never wanted this.” She gestured to the dark mark. “This was what my parents wanted, this was the only way I could please them, the only way I could make them love me.” The auburn haired young woman spoke freely, thought she really didn’t know why she was bothering. Taking a seat on the edge of the bed, Ivy then placed her head in her hands. She wasn’t expecting his sympathy, or any sort of care which is why she wasn’t surprised by his comment. “Okay…” She sighed, shrugging her shoulders. “I guess I deserve this anyway, after all.. His death was my doing.” Ivy spoke softly, brows knitting together as she lifted her head. 

“There’s always a choice Ivy.” He told her shaking his head, he’d always found it difficult when people used their parents as an excuse to turning to the death eaters. Maybe he’d see it differently if he experienced it himself but as an outside looking in it seemed like a weak excuse. “Why did you have to please them? If you really didn’t want it why didn’t you leave home?” He asked mainly to put out her options but also because there was a part of him that was genuinely curious. His hand hovered above the door handle before she said something causing him to pause. Turning back around his brow furrowed. “Wait, what? What do you mean his death?”

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin: 

The disgusted expression that laced the male’s features caused yet another ache in her chest and she quickly dropped her gaze once again. “It’s part of who I am now.” She spoke, her voice softer this time as she gave a shrug. As the words left the male’s mouth, Ivy peered back toward him, eyes softening once more. Her auburn locks fell down over her shoulders as she stepped up from the bed, wanting to stop the male from leaving. “Please-” She reached out, hand touching his wrist, feeling the same tingling feeling that she always had with Finn. “-Stay” her voice softened once again as her gaze fell on the male. All she could see was his brother when she looked at him - her heart ached for her best friend. Ivy thought she had put it all behind her, she thought she truly had been able to get past it and yet, when she was faced with the male’s twin.. She lost all of her progress and was back to square one. “I know you don’t owe me anything after what my parents did to him.. And- I know apologies will never be enough. But, you know that I loved him, Danny. He was my best friend and I never wanted anything like that to happen to him-” She stopped herself from speaking, she knew it was no use.. There was no way that she could make it through to him. Her gaze dropped to the ground and her hand fell back to her side. “I’m sorry..” She spoke softly and turned away from him, making her way back to the bed. 

“Part of who you chose to be.” He added with his jaw clenched. Finn retracted his arm from her touch almost as if he’d just been burned. He sighed, closing his eyes for a moment as he tried to get some form of clarity. For some reason his mind seemed to have gone all foggy in her presence, making it hard to process things. He couldn’t think clearly. Memories of her-- of their friendship -- played on repeat in his mind. He ran a hand through his hair, frowning slightly as she apologised. “I can’t speak about this right now Ivy -- not to you.” 

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

Ivy watched the male from across the room yet she couldn’t stop the aching pain in her chest from radiating through her entire being, she was sure that there was some hint of sadness behind her gaze yet - she didn’t care all that much.. She wasn’t in the presence of anyone whom she had to keep up the facade for. The auburn haired young woman saw his gaze flick down to her wrist, where the dark mark brandished her skin. “It suits me, no?” She said with a slight smirk lacing her lips. It was perfectly understandable for the male to be bitter toward her, considering she had been the cause for his brother’s death yet, she hadn’t expected it.. After all she had only ever seen Danny Jenkins in the highest of moods. “Ouch, I’m hurt Danny.” She cooed, hand falling to her chest. “Come on, you must remember how close we all used to be? Me, you…” She struggled to say his name. “..Finn..” Her voice weakened around the name, as her gaze shifted for a moment, the expression on her face showing the sadness she felt inside for a split second before she shifted back to her facade.

The female seemed upset for some reason, it almost tempted him to ask but then it would appear that he cared - which he most certainly did not, or at least that’s what he was telling himself. Any feelings of concern that he might have had vanished as she made a comment about the mark on her arm, he didn’t attempt to hide the disgusted look from his face. “You’re actually proud of that thing?” He gave a scoff. Finn shook his head. “I don’t know you. This--” He used his hand gesturing to her, “--This isn’t the Ivy I knew. I don’t even know who you are anymore.” The male backed away turning for the door not wanting to see the sadness in her eyes that she was desperately trying to hide. If she was sad, she only had herself to blame. 

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

With a smile, Ivy plopped down onto her bed and lifted her legs up, crossing them as she tried to get herself comfortable. Once she had, her hands then slowly rolled up the sleeves of the over-sized shirt, allowing the dark mark that laid on her ivory skin to be seen by the male. As he spoke, the auburn haired young woman raised an eyebrow and narrowed her eyes, not quite seeing the cheerful aura that usually radiated from the male. It was sickening really, how Danny always seemed to be so happy. “Why wait outside? Don’t you want to keep me company?” A slight, innocent looking, pout crossed her face as she peered toward him. “Come on.. For old times sake.” The pout merged into a smirk. 

His eyes followed the witch over to the bed where she sat down. His mouth went dry as he watched her moving her sleeves, he watched in apprehension waiting to spot the mark he knew branded her skin. He didn’t really want to see it, he didn’t want to believe that the person he once knew had it in them to take that path, yet he needed to see it -- to see it with his own eyes so he could finally accept that she was no longer the person he remembered. Finn couldn’t help but to feel sick as he saw it. The black lines so prominent against her ivory skin. “Not particularly.” He replied bluntly before remembering he was supposed to be being Danny. The male cleared his throat, “I just mean that I’m a little tired, y’know?” He gave a shrug. “For old times sake?” Finn raised a brow as he tried not to scoff at the woman. 

[finnjenkins]

miaofgryffindor:

Mia blinked quickly as the male spoke then caught her bottom lip between her teeth as her brows furrowed ever-so-slightly. “Crap, sorry.. Danny said he had a twin I just didn’t expect you two to be so… Identical.” The dark haired young woman laughed lightly with a shrug of her shoulders.

He shook his head, “Don’t sweat it. “ The male looked down at his shoes before giving her a brief smile. “Yeah, I get that a lot. I mean, if you need to tell us apart the one that is smiling is Danny.” He half joked. 

[finnjenkins]

stoneheartedslytherin:

As the male walked into the room, the auburn haired young woman’s eyes immediately softened as a memory flickered through her mind, of the young boy she grew up alongside. Ivy quickly broke her gaze from the face of the male, and closed her eyes for a moment, inhaling deeply before returning to the bravado that she constantly held. “Danny Jenkins, what a pleasant surprise..” The former Slytherin rolled her eyes as she peered back toward the male who reminded her so much of his twin, the one who she had lost. Who her parents had murdered in hope of relieving Ivy of any such distractions that kept her from progressing on her course toward the side of the Death Eaters. It had been almost a year since she had even laid eyes on the male and she was glad for it, that way she wouldn’t have to deal with the aching pain in her chest every time she saw him.

The male narrowed his eyes slightly as he studied the female. She’d changed a lot since there childhood. She was still as beautiful, of course, maybe more so now but there was something different about her. He tried to work out what it was. There was a look in her eye, a hardened gaze as if it was meant to distance herself from everyone. The softness was missing from her, that much was obvious -- then again he supposed he’d lost his innocence too. He gave her a small smile trying to keep up the facade, she seemed to believe he was Danny so he wasn’t going to tell her otherwise. The wizard would just have to try and be more cheerful than normal. “Ivy.” He greeted, “I’m sure it is.” He forced another smile to his face. “I’ll probably just wait outside now I’ve checked in on you.”