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As The Sun Rises (din djarin)

Content: canon violence, injury, character death

Word Count: 1.5k

:LOCATION/TIME: The Planet of Cosia, Late night

:SETUP: Din and Raina are lured to a village that they were told needed help fighting off imps, but they quickly realize that they’ve walked right into a trap; once they realize, a fight ensues, but as outnumbered and outgunned as they are, they manage to come out alright; at least they think so

A/N: whoooo!! First post! While I am on a hiatus for my main writing blog (@babyboiboyega), I’m still writing my ideas/plots out in “script form” or maybe its closer to a RP format...hmm...I’ll figure that out later!

But I hope you enjoy this!

*Sometime during the night, Din and Raina were separated* *Not too far separated, just on opposite sides of the field, but thats still enough to make the both of them very nervous* *They work better together, but everytime they try to make their way back to each other, they’re intercepted* *But it finally gets to the point where there are only a few more imps left, a number that they can easily take care of…if they weren’t exhausted and sweaty, and bruised*

*Din is fighting off 2 imps, quickly killing them both off before turning to see if Raina is okay* *He turns just in time to see her take out the 3 she was fighting against, and he can’t help the sigh of relief that leaves his mouth as the last imp hits the ground* *He softly calls her name, slightly out of breath, making her turn around*

*She turns around and sends an exhausted smile his way, her hand falling to her side* *Just as Din takes a step forward, the smile falls off of Raina’s face, being replaced with something akin to fear, and she quickly raises her blaster, firing a shot at something behind him* *He quickly turns around with his own blaster ready, only to see an imp who he thought he had taken care of freeze and then fall to the ground, a blaster bolt in the middle of his chest*

*Din lets out a heavy breath and turns back to Raina, holstering his blaster, but abruptly pauses* 

*Raina’s blaster is still raised, but she isn’t looking at him; her gaze is looking down at her own abdomen…where a blaster bolt has hit* *Her gaze raises and looks at Din, her arm shaking, before her blaster falls from her hand, thudding to the ground*

*Din is utterly frozen, honestly, trying to believe whether or not what he’s seeing is real* *But all it takes is Raina softly saying his name and taking a staggering step back for him to spring into action, bounding toward her right as her legs buckle* *His arms come to wrap around her, bracing her head as he lowers himself to the ground with her*

*While one of his hands cradles her body to his, the other lands on the wound on her abdomen, aiming to staunch the bleeding* *But all it takes is one look at the wound to come to the startling and agonizing realization that its bad, and that without proper treatment…it’ll get worse* *But nonetheless, he presses down on the wound* *When he does, Raina sucks in a sharp breath, her body shuddering as it passes through her lungs*

Raina: “H-how bad is it?”

*He doesn’t even move his hand, and under the helmet, his eyes don’t even look at the wound* *He shakes his head slightly, and when he speaks, his voice sounds rougher than usual*

Din: “It doesn’t matter. We’re gonna get you help. You’ll be okay.”

*The shakiness in his voice tells Raina all she needs to know, and her answering smile/grimace is weak and sad* *She shakes her head*

Raina: “You’re a shit liar, Djarin.”

*His chest hitches with an agonized chuckle, but it sounds strangled when it leaves his lips* *He doesn’t need to look to know that her blood is spilling between his fingers, flowing quicker than he can stop it* 

*One of Raina’s hands raises and lands on top of it, lightly squeezing his hand* *It takes her a few tries to talk, but when she does, Din has to clench his jaw at the weakness and wheezing of her voice* *She suddenly lurches with an urgency that has Din panicking and holding her tighter*

Raina: “Din, you have…you have to get the kid…and you have to leave. T-they know you’re here. They’re gonna send m-more-”

*Her sentence breaks off in a cough, and when she’s done, there’s blood dotting her lips and her teeth* *The sight only confirms Din’s worst nightmare* *But its only when her gaze starts to turn glassy and unfocused does Din start panicking* *He lightly shakes her, his voice raising*

Din: “Raina. Raina! You keep your eyes open, you hear me? Just keep them open- we’ll find some help. I don’t care if I have to speed jump.”

*He had thought her gaze was becoming unfocused, but it only focused on something over his shoulder, and a soft light finally started to appear on her face, he realizes that she’s staring at the sunrise that’s behind him* *Despite the way her breathing has slowed, her chest rising and falling far too slowly, her lips curl into a smile* *It’s far too peaceful given the circumstances, but he can’t bring himself to ruin whatever peace she’s found in these moments, even if he wants to yell at her to keep fighting*

Raina: “Have you ever seen…anything like that?” 

*He knows she’s talking about the sunset, but he can’t bring himself to look away from her* *His eyes are wide and unblinking under his helmet, despite the tears that are gathering* *He shakes his head wordlessly, not trusting his voice to come out with breaking* *But then her eyes shift to meet his, and there’s a look in them that punches a hole through his chest* *It’s a mixture of sadness, acceptance, and…guilt*

Raina: “Din, I’m sorry. I’m sorry…I won’t be there to help with the kid.” 

*Before she’s even done talking, he’s shaking his head quickly* *His hand that's on the wound twists until he can grasp at her fingers, and he holds them tightly*

Din: “You have nothing to apologize for, *cyar’ika. You…you did nothing wrong.”

*There’s no hiding the way his voice breaks when relief replaces the guilt in her eyes as they shift back over to the sunset* *Her smile widens in just the slightest*

Raina: “....will you…watch…with me?”

*Din’s chin drops to his chest for a second, and if Raina was aware enough, she would have seen the way his shoulders shook with barely contained sobs* *It takes him a second to answer, but when he does, his voice is hoarse and thick*

Din: “Of course I will, **ner kar’ta.”

*It kills him to do so, but he gently lets go of her hand and quickly raises it to the lip of his helmet* *With a quiet hiss, he pulls it off, gently setting it on the ground next to him*

*He shifts himself so he can pull her into his lap where he can wrap his arms around her* *He cradles her head in the crook of his arm and turns so she can get a perfect view of the sunrise; it has to be perfect for her* *He doesn’t feel an ounce of hesitation or regret at what he’s just done* *All he can feel is sorrow and a grief so powerful that its impossible to name*

*As he looks down at her with his own eyes, he finds it especially cruel that his first time looking at her through an unfiltered gaze will also be his last* *He reaches around and manages to pull his glove off only to bring his hand up to cup her face* *His voice is only a whisper when he speaks, and he desperately hopes that she can hear him*

Din: “***Ni kar’tayl gar darasuum.”

*Almost as if she understands his words, Raina’s lidded eyes shift back to him* *They widen just a fraction at seeing his face, and if possible, her smile turns softer* *Out of the corner of his eye, he can see her hand twitch, and without thinking, he gently grabs it and presses it against his own cheek* *His tears are halted in their descent as they land against their joined hands*

*Raina’s soft gasp is barely noticeable*

Raina: “Din…you’re beautiful.”

*Leave it to her to make him smile during one of the most painful moments of his life* *The chuckle he lets out is broken*

Din: “No, that’s all you, cyar’ika. That’s all you.”

*His words are genuine because even now, as she lay on his lap, blood splatter on her mouth, her eyes gradually dulling, she’s still the most beautiful person he’s ever had the pleasure of knowing; of bonding with; of touching; of loving*

*She chokes on the next gasp that escapes her lips and her eyes look back at the sunset* *Her smile slowly starts to fade at the corners, and when she talks, he has to strain to listen*

Raina: “Will…will you watch…with me?”

*Din turns his face more into her palm and places a kiss against it, his lips lingering* *There’s a tiny, agonized, forced smile on his face, because he doesn’t want his frown to be one of the last things she sees*

Din: “Of course, I will. I’d do anything for you.”

*Din cradles Raina against his chest as she takes her last breath, her eyes focused on the rising sun while his are focused on his own, personal sun that he found in her eyes and how it sets, never to rise again*

* cyar’ika - sweetheart, darling

** ner kar’ta - my heart

*** Ni kar’tayl gar darasuum - I love you/I will know(love) you forever

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This is definitely a step out of my comfort zone, me posting this. When I plan out my oneshots/imagines, I usually do them in this format. It helps me plan out exactly what I want the characters to do so I’m not worrying about while putting in the filler words and descriptions, and whatnot. 

Everyone has their own method, and this is mine! Does it always work? Absolutely not, but I enjoy writing them out like this! And I hope you enjoyed reading this! :)

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New Blog!

HELLO!

This is a new blog kind of stemming from my main writing blog, which is @babyboiboyega​ !

While writing the pieces that have been posted on that page, I’ve come to the conclusion that the way I plan my oneshots/drabbles is a lot of fun!

I used to just write the parts of the oneshot out as a bullet point list, but then I started writing them out in a kind of deconstructed form. I found that it really helps me not only visualize it, but also helps me put as many details as I can into planning without putting it all. It also kind of helps me keep the story going by writing it all out!

WITH THAT BEING SAID!

This page is dedicated solely to those planning scripts! There’ll be a few times where I’ll post the script to this page and then the finished product onto my main page (@babyboiboyega); but then, there’ll be a few times where I’ll post just a script onto this page without the finished product, because believe it or not, sometimes I’ll stop at just the script because I think that it’s better in script form! 

This is definitely something new that I’m doing, but I’m very excited to see how  you all react to these scripts!!

Just as my main writing blog, I’ll be posting Marvel, DC, Supernatural, Star Wars/The Clone Wars, Harry Potter, and misc pieces to this page!

Once again, I hope this is received well!