reckless.

fionnuala erin mccarthy. nineteen. halfblood. former thunderbird. former slytherin. auror in training. you will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. you will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. you will be whole again but you will never be the same. nor should you be the same, nor would you want to.

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darcylang‌:

“Two days - not an all time high, but I’d appreciate it if you don’t try to ever beat your own record.” He teased, able to breath easier now that she was awake and definitely still Finn. “I look better than you.” Darcy murmured, snorting a laugh before leaning forward and kissing her forehead. “If you ever do this to me again, I’ll be so mad at you.”

“Wow, don’t you know how to flatter a woman, Darce,” she replied. “I’ll try not to do it again, but you know me and my curse.” She gave a half-assed smile, which then turned serious after a moment. “I’m sorry Darcy.”

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darcylang‌:

“Well, yeah you should, but most people don’t.” Darcy rolled his eyes before closing them, content to just sit with her. “But if you need a New Year to give you a swift kick in the ass, I’m sure some people stick to it.” He sighed, opening his eyes and staring into his cup of tea, frowning at his decision not to put any milk in it tonight. “I think maybe I want to take a step toward becoming a Potions Master this year.” 

“What? Really? Darcy that’s amazing,” Finn said, looking at him with a slight smile. “Are you going to train under Indy? Or are you going to try to learn more from someone else?”

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afmccarthy‌:

“How? We both agreed to this, Fionnuala. It is in no way your fault.”

“I don’t know,” Finn replied. “Maybe I’m just completely jinxed, cursed,” she shrugged, “a mess.”

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mischiefmilia‌:

“Considering how well I know you? No idea.” It was meant more like a joke, something to try and ease the tension. But sometimes emilia was terrible at that.

“Well come on then,” Finn held out her arm. “Aodh’s waiting.”

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afmccarthy‌:

“Ow. That sounds worse.” Aodh made a face. “Please don’t, I think we might actually die if either one of us gets in a car again. I really don’t want that to happen.”

“I feel like this was all my fault,” she said, sadly, “what happened.”

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packing up. || aodh & fionnuala.

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afmccarthy‌:

“Why not?” Aodh cracked half a smile. “Fine, I can text Emilia. Her phone might be off but at least we won’t have to do it.”

“I mean, I’m sure she’ll come once she sees the text,” Finn replied. “Darcy’s coming after work. I told him he shouldn’t miss work for me. I have you anyway.”

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darcylang‌:

Darcy blew on their teas, taking a sip to make sure it came out okay. He’d always spiked it himself, but never brewed it, but it tasted good, as far as he could tell. He handed Finn hers, sitting on the floor in front of her and resting his head against her legs as he settled in to watch the tv with her. “What do you think? Resolutions? Or no?”

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Fionnuala took a swig of her own drink. “Resolutions are for idiots,” she replied. “I think you should try and better yourself all the time, not just once every year.”

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packing up. || aodh & fionnuala.

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afmccarthy‌

“You think Darcy would do it?” Aodh asked. “I like Landon too much to ask him.”

“Aodh, I’m not asking my boyfriend to go through our grandmother’s panties drawer,” she replied. “Why don’t we ask Emilia? She’s not related, and she’s also a women, it’s not like it’s nothing she hasn’t seen before.”

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afmccarthy‌:

“Yeah, from what I’ve seen it’s always them.” Aodh shook his head. “Any sane healer will tell me not to apparate til my leg is healed and Godric knows how long that will take.”

“Then we’ll use the floo,” she replied. “Honestly, I don’t think I’ll ever let you in a car again.”

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mischiefmilia‌:

“No one does.” She rolled her eyes as she followed. “You uh, doing okay?” Emilia tried awkwardly. 

“Do I love okay?” Finn replied, straight-faced.

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darcylang‌:

Darcy was waiting more patiently than he felt - they’d assured him that she would be fine, he knew she would be fine, but still, his heart didn’t stop racing until he saw her eyes. He breathed a sigh of relief, a small laugh following at her words. “Darling, you know I don’t cry in my expensive suits.” He answered, his fingers wrapping around hers tightly. Darcy hadn’t been home to change since the accident, he hadn’t left her side. “Or like, ever.”

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“How long have I been out?” Finn questioned, looking at him. “Because I know you’re still in your suit, but you kind of look like shit, no offense.”

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mischiefmilia‌:

“Mind if I come?” She asked, watching the bottles. “They are my friend, I told them I would come over.” Emilia explained, her own attitude not easing.

Finn pursed her lips, it wasn’t that she didn’t like Emilia, it was that she didn’t trust her, at least not yet. She knew Aodh trusted her though, so she let out a reluctant sigh. “Okay, fine, just uh, don’t push him too much, okay? He doesn’t like talking about this type of stuff.”

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packing up. || aodh & fionnuala.

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afmccarthy‌:

Aodh shuddered at the thought, never having thought of even seeing his grandmother’s underwear. “Maybe you’re right. We should hire someone to do this, that way we don’t have to see them.”

“At least hire someone to do her panties,” she replied.

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afmccarthy‌:

“Yeah, it was a bad idea.” Aodh shook his head slightly. He tried to scoot over to give Finn more room without hurting himself, but could only move about an inch. “Yeah, I’m with you. Maybe that way my life will be safe from rednecks in big trucks.”

Finn let out a small laugh. “It always them speeding a lot, huh?” she questioned. Finn looked at him. “We can just apparate everywhere. Much easier.”

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compulsivecooper‌:

Landon smiled down at his best friend. “Yeah I just came from his room. I know you’ve probably heard this a lot, but how are you doing?”

“Feeling like I’m just a jinx when it comes to any car. Remind me to never get into a car again in my life.”

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compulsivecooper‌:

“I know what you mean.” Landon laughed darkly, “I mean, you’re talking to the person who locked himself in his room for a month because I couldn’t ‘adult’ correctly.” He nudged her shoulder, “You take all the time you need. You know we’ve got your back. We’ll handle what needs to be handled.” Landon laughed as he saw the bottle. “Probably not, but i’m not going to stop you.” He blushed slightly and smiled at her declaration. “I would say it’s the other way around.”

Finn let out a small smile at him. “Can you promise you’ll be there for Aodh? I know it’s a lot to ask, but I’m kind of a shit sister when it comes to this stuff. He’s going to try and push everyone away, promise me you won’t let him?”

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love me when i’m down. || darcy & fionnuala.

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darcylang‌:

Her words were like a blow to his stomach. He’d always liked her grandmother, but he hadn’t been particularly close with her. No, he felt sick to his stomach knowing how much this was hurting her. She had to be absolutely broken, and as much as he might want to, there was very little he could to do help her right now. It broke his heart. “I wish I could.” He murmured, arms tightening around her, wanting to shield her from the world. “I wish I could, love.” He held her close, letting her cry into his shirt - certainly ruining it with mascara, or something of the like. But that didn’t matter now - only she did. Stroking her hair, he racked his brain for something, anything, to say, but came up with nothing. So he simply kept on holding her.

Finn stayed in her boyfriend’s arm, despite all the thoughts of just wanting to push him away. She felt nice in his arms, right in his arms. “Please don’t leave me, ever,” she said quietly.