The thoughts need to go somewhere

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

Still trying even with all the scars you got is an underrated strength no one really acknowledges

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

It was our evening and all i got was feeling alone

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

I get nervous a trip i wanted because dad already regrets to do it...a family trip he himself said yes to. A family trip that is for my birthday. His childs birthday and i am worried they will jsut fight and complain

Fuck you, i fucking hate you. You are a loser and an asshole.

I fucking cant take this anymore. I dont want anymore. Im so tried.

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

I cant take it anymore. I wish they would just fuckinzg split up and dont abuse me as a free fucking therapist.

We always did that

And now im scared of people yelling and cant emotionally take confrontation.

[sfw-mlm-thoughts]

Need a boy that's casually affectionate. Need a boy that's never afraid to message you first, to be the one to ask to hang out. Who makes gifts for you, who reaches for your hand on walks, who compliments you unprompted. A boy who would never let you forget that he loves you back, that he loves you just as much as you love him. Need a boy who doesn't need the affection wrung out of him like a damp towel. A love that doesn't feel one-sided, even when it's not because even if he says he loves you back every time if you left him any space he'd never even try to fill it. Need a boy that doesn't make you feel forgettable

[lavendarbuppie]

I want to kiss n bite a neck n grab some ass

[honeyedfangsmlm]

I'm thinking about boys and also kissing boys

[achilleanauthor]

The need to show affection like a cat is strong. I want to bonk my head against a boy gently and cuddle up next to them to show that I love them

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

"Caring for you, loving you... it's my pleasure, my privilege."

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

Why am i jealous

He said he likes your voice and wouldnt mind marrieing you i said that before him, i feel mad. I want the one being gushed over for saying that

He gets to game and talk with you everyday I suck at talking with new people and its my own problem. I would love to game and talk with you but i am struggling with not being annoying and prefer to spend time just chilling in VC. I would learn games just for you

You two write a lot I want to be that person but you had a rough time and i didnt want to be annyoing and then forgot to include you in my texts and i suck at writing properly with people

I am happy for you and scared to ruin everything

I am scared to be left alone again Thats my own trauma and you dont have to deal with that its my own problem

I am scared i can never be that person for you

I dont know what to do without you if i ruin it all again

I am scared im just delusional

I need to write a stupid list to even slightly understand anything

Im scared you never saw me as i saw you

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

What did i ever do? Why am I not important. Im not the first person, im the idiot so attached to you that letting hurts more as if you ram a knife right into my heart. I would thank you because i care too much as always

I never learned

So please look at me at least once. Why is he perfect when i was there all along

I just wasnt important enough

Telling me i was such an important person and could never be replacced. And now i ask for your love and get ignored.

[t4tpuppyluvr-deactivated2024040]

fucking ur puppy and they get so squirmy it's hard to keep ur dick in them so you gotta pin them down a bit while they whine about how it ~hurts~ and they can't ~take any more~ like aw sweetheart i can feel how wet you are and we agreed on a safe word that i haven't heard yet so i think im gonna keep going for now ❤️

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

I cant do it anymore

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

I love my cats but seeing them put above me is just a different kind of pain.

Being the oldest child with siblings okay. But some animals your own mother puts above you and treats better.

I dont know man

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

Any emotion that doesnt fit is my fault of course and i should never step out of line if i dont want to get hated for. But of course if i would complain "Oh but calling you an idiot wasnt meant literally. You are to sensitive"

Because insulting your kid as a joke is fine of course

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

When he jokes about me having week joins and heavy problems with my legs when i walk to much

Okay im sorry im complaining when i have badly hurting legs

[firstcreatedonthemoon]

The one time i want money to do stuff with my friends, i suddenly want my weight in gold or what?

I really dont get it anymore, i feel so unstable.