Fear The Old Blood

Laurence, affiliated with Isola Radiale | Newcomer

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“ killing the monsters is the easy bit. it’s finding them that’s the hard part. ”

   “...I imagine so. With no beasts to hunt out at night, it must be frustrating. Have you felt the cravings, Lady Crow...have you become drunk with blood?” Laurence cocked a curious eyebrow. It was a strange sentiment, really, and not one he was expecting...did she yet yearn for a quarry to slaughter?

   “...I had a friend who became incapable of living without hunting. The world passed him by, and he couldn’t move on. In the end, he gave himself to the hunt, body and soul, at the whims of a Great One...the lengths to which hunters will go to feel that thrill...it’s truly something.”

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flirt with my muse!

can be on or off anon.

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“ you haven’t even seen my bad side yet. ”

   “No...nor do I intend to, Lady Crow.” Was that...self-satisfaction in his smile? Perhaps. It was a rather unpleasant expression, though it did not seem he intended it to be as such; the simple mix of comfort and apathy left him looking as though he was mocking the very essence of human nature.

   “...Do you want to show me that side of yourself? You don’t strike me as the kind of person who seeks out antagonism for no purpose. We are alike in that regard; we need not tread on each others toes without cause.”

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CURSED EDITION PERSONALITY ALIGNMENT

   “...Not particularly polite, is it?”

Fairly accurate, though...

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rp sentence starters using lines from amrit brar’s series , shitty horoscopes  part one  ( 1 - 5 ) / part two  ( 6 - 12 ) 

“ let the record show that they were ill-equipped to deal with you. ” “ you’ll be fertilizer regardless. ” “ might as well have interesting stories for the dirt. ” “ there is an exhaustion that comes with living. ” “ fear is the absence of understanding. ” “ horror is the act of understanding perfectly. ” “ your love will always be rooted deeper than any grave. ” “ you’ve long seen your downfall spelled out in another’s bones. ” “ the victor spoils, the loser learns. ” “ the body is rot waiting to happen. ” “ you will never have loved for nothing. ” “ quiet reflection is next to impossible. ” “ you inspire me to be better! a better ‘what’ is up for interpretation. ” “ we don’t know where you came from. ” “ we need you to go back. ” “ the dark doesn’t intend to hurt you. ” “ i lived better when i was ignorant of the sun, tucked away in your chest. ” “ and then there’s saying ‘fuck it,’ and doing what you may. ” “ if only it were easy! to wish and want for nothing. ” “ if only you weren’t less human for it. ” “ in the end there is no blaze of glory. ” “ die due to carelessness. ” “ in the span of your life there’s plenty to avoid. ” “ you are dazzling and terrifying. ” “ those words are not as removed from one another as you may think. ” “ pick a place and die there. ” “ i know you mean well. ” “ may fortune favor the fuckups. ” “ remarkable that one plane of existence can host so much, and so little, distance. ” “ learn when it’s best to bite your tongue. ” “ temper the nest of hornets in your loveless mouth. ” “ i worry. ” “ time sours, rots, renews, sours again. ” “ grief and growth live hand-in-hand. ” “ sleeping, like dying, delivers you from one world to the next. ” “ rest in crypts and wake in gardens. ” “ make room for small, fragile things. ” “ you win some, you lose some, you lie, cheat, and swindle some. ” “ stranger things have happened. ” “ you are happening all the time and should probably stop. ” “ let none be the noose. ” “ take what you can and run. ” “ gratuitous violence : selfish, satisfying, heartbreaking, and so like everything else you love. ” “ understanding builds bridges. ” “ there is a variety of sadness that makes a home in your guts and never quite leaves. ” “ being loathsome and lovely in equal measure is probably a talent. somewhere. ” “ why fear the dead, when you can fear the living? ” “ if you’re forging your own path, be prepared to light your own pyre. ” “ you can’t wrestle apologies from the sea or the sun. ” “ you were a plague none were prepared for. ” “ assholery is incurable, unfortunately. ” “ no one’s going to notice the difference between you pushing dandelions or daisies so leave them something worth talking about. ” “ you aren’t obligated to be anyone’s cure. ” “ soothe what you can, fight what you can’t. ” “ devour the monsters and you can call any place home. ” “ you’re only as lucky as your expectations are low. ” “ worse than having too many secrets is having no secrets at all. ” “ killing the monsters is the easy bit. it’s finding them that’s the hard part. ” “ there exists a tipping point between gods and monsters. ” “ your humanity is the largest burden you will bear. ” “ but you have seen yourself in the mirror. ” “ even spectres can tire. ” “ it pays to kill with kindness. ” “ you’re your own worst enemy. ” “ you’re only armed to the teeth because you’re more brittle than you’d care to admit. ” “ your ego cannot afford cremations or caskets. ” “ whether you like what you see is up for debate. ” “ whether it can be contained in a dark basement is another matter entirely. ”

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𝐌𝐔𝐍 & 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐎𝐎𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 .

some people like to think that mun = muse – let’s take a second to prove them wrong. cartoon yourself, and then cartoon your muse !  look at the difference ! bonus round !? tell some traits of yourself and then some of your muses ! : mun.   bi, nb, fashionista with a love for angelic imagery, carrying a whole lot of stress muse.  cold, distant scholar with an obsession for breaching the barriers of the human mind

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...Thou wouldst understand if thou knewest the truth.

   “...The truth, is it?” A curious statement, but Laurence thinks he understands where Gwyndolin speaks from.

   “We all have our truths, Dark Sun -- mine is this: ‘Our eyes have yet to open.’ To live shackled to such human states as anger, as love, as sadness, prevents us from reaching the state that the Great Ones have achieved -- enlightenment, vision, insight. Perhaps I would understand...perhaps I could know of the source of rage that unites humanity. But these things would keep me human...if I am to guide others to ascension, then I will have to sacrifice such things. Perhaps, through doing so, I can help others leave behind their anger, as well.”

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   “It seems that even here, so many are so full of rage.” Laurence wore no expression on his face, his tired eyes not betraying his feelings on the matter even for a moment. He’d spoken to several people who had spoken similarly, of clutching to their anger, turning it into a weapon, waging wars on those who would bring them to harm...

   “...It seems humanity does not change based on world of origin. But it shouldn’t have to be like this...holding such conflict in one’s heart, like a beast clawing at the bars of a cage...”

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“ i’ve polished this anger and now it’s a knife. ”

   “...So, you too have weaponized your rage, Dark Sun.” It didn’t sound like Laurence was making a value judgement so much as a personal note. Nodding slightly, he gave Gwyndolin a soft smile, one which revealed nothing about the way the vicar truly felt -- it was an expression of courtesy laid over a perpetually blank canvas.

   “...The Great Ones have been known to be wrathful...but only at the demand of others. They respond to violence with violence, and when called upon by humans who are close to them, they will answer hateful prayers with hate. I do not believe I have ever known one to hold anger of their own, however...not on so personal a level. Not like people.” A small shrug. “Your divinity never fails to strike me as curious.”

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“  i’ve polished this anger and now it’s a knife.  ” 

   “Hm.” The hint of a hollow smile, a gentle tease of a lip’s edge rising. A humorless sound and a humorless expression, for Laurence’s eyes reflected nothing but the woman who spoke those words to him, visible in those dark, empty pools, as though they were a space left behind by an absence of love, compassion, rage, anything. Folding his hands over his lap, the vicar gave a slight shrug, his voice soft and calculated.

   “...I have heard people speak of weaponizing anger before. Such a thing leads to power, at first...then to enervation. Then to death. Don’t think of yourself as stronger just because you can put some anger in your sword arm’s movements. Once that arm falls, what’s left? A void, and nothing to fill it but the dregs of a rage which has already left you...”

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8, 10

8. Do you genuinely want your muse to be happy? What do you think would make them most happy in life?

That is...a difficult question to answer. Laurence’s happiness, I believe, is tightly wound around his ability to reach his goals -- to achieve a higher state of being, go beyond human limits and get closer to the Great Ones who ascended so long ago. To reach such a goal may very well spell numerous tragedies on the path, tragedies which Laurence would likely see as little other than collateral damage for the greater good. The truth of the matter is that I don’t know. If it means seeing even more horror committed because of his actions, then perhaps Laurence should never be happy at all.

10. What do you love about your muse?

At my core, I’m fairly predictable -- I love characters who exemplify the capable underdog. Laurence is not a fighter, not like many in the Bloodborne universe -- he is merely a scholar who relied only on his intelligence and drive to take him where he went; with merely his mind and his charisma, he formed an entire society and religion, and razed many others. He committed horrible acts in the name of progress, but the fact that he managed this while being fairly unimpressive in the common sense is something that I am drawn to.

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If you could change one event in your muse’s life (in their main or canon verse), what would you change?

Without a doubt, the decision Laurence made to leave the Institution of Byrgenwerth and Master Willem behind to experiment further with the Old Blood. Most tragic events within Bloodborne canon stem from this one decision Laurence made, a headstrong choice which plummeted entire societies into a spiral of suffering, plague, and madness. If he had been more careful, listened to his teacher, and not hurried on an ill-advised power trip, perhaps things could have been less horrible in the future.

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4, 14!

4. If you could tell your muse one thing, what would you tell them?

I would tell him, knowing what I know about the events of Bloodborne, that through his research, he brings more suffering than good, and that he will never get what he wants if he follows the path he’s on. Funnily enough, I don’t know if Laurence would change anything about himself even if I did tell him that, even if he did know that I saw his future -- he would likely simply try to circumvent it, thinking he had that power. Nevertheless, I think it would be worth a shot.

14. How would you describe your muse to someone about to meet them, in person, for the first time? 

Icy, probably. I would tell them that Laurence doesn’t have any room in his heart for feelings, or empathy; that all he cared about was learning. I would warn them not to try to force that, either -- it would be a fool’s errand to try and push Laurence out of his mindset. However, I would be remiss if I did not also mention that he is easy to talk to, and quite striking in his ability to maintain intelligent conversation.

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7 and 17!

7. If you could “borrow” one aspect of your muse and apply it to yourself or your own life, what would you borrow?

By far, that would have to be Laurence’s analytical way of thinking through problems. Often, the smallest of tasks inspire anxiety in me, while Laurence is the kind of person who never allows obstacles to bar his way; if something stalls him, he finds a way around it and keeps moving, never slowing his pace or missing a beat. I kind of envy that ability to keep on truckin’, no matter what.

17. Why do you think you connect to your muse?

I have a tendency to connect to those who want to inspire greatness in the world at large, because it’s a nice dream to have; Laurence is also charismatic and cultivates faith in others to help him pursue his dreams, which is sort of what I try to put forward in myself, a sort of beautiful way of life that helps others see the possibilities available to them. Unfortunately, Laurence pushes these things quite a bit too far, and ends up being more villainous than heroic, but his bases are quite admirable from my point of view, and something that I can relate to.

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questions for the mun, regarding the muse.

What makes you the most emotional about your muse?

What made you decide to write this muse?

If you could change one event in your muse’s life (in their main or canon verse), what would you change?

If you could tell your muse one thing, what would you tell them?

If you could give your muse one gift, what would you give them?

If you had to take one positive thing away from your muse, what would you take away?

If you could “borrow” one aspect of your muse and apply it to yourself or your own life, what would you borrow?

Do you genuinely want your muse to be happy? What do you think would make them most happy in life?

Do you enjoy putting your muse through angst? What do you think would break their heart the most?

What do you love about your muse?

What do you hate about your muse?

What about your muse amuses you?

What about your muse makes you sad?

How would you describe your muse to someone about to meet them, in person, for the first time?

Would you like your muse as a person if you met them in real life?

In what ways are you better than your muse? In what ways are they better than you?

Why do you think you connect to your muse?

What aspect of your muse’s personality is most important to you? What aspect of your muse’s personality do you think is most important to them? Is it the same? Why or why not?

If you had to judge your muse and sentence them to a “fair” fate, what would your judgement be? Would you punish them? Reward them? How?

[come up with your own question for the mun, regarding the muse]

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✘: Who do they detest the most? Do they typically avoid this person or antagonize them?

Detest...is a strong word. To ask whether Laurence ‘detests’ someone would require first asking whether he is capable of detesting anyone at all, cold as his heart is. Laurence is a man to whom both love and hatred are long lost, supplanted by the icy machinations of a mind hellbent on development and ascension. In short, Laurence may very well be too much of a megalomaniac to properly detest anyone, caring too much about his own work to offer any energy to feeling any sort of way about others.

He does look down on people, however. People such as Lady Maria, or the hunter named Djura, who abandoned their paths because simple sentiment got in the way of their duties...Laurence cannot abide by those who allow their hearts to keep them stagnant and placid when they should be focused on personal development. He does not avoid nor antagonize such people, he simply...maneuvers around them, seeing them as insignificant.