FitwithKimber

[fitwithkimber]

This episode spoke to me so deeply, I have had my own struggles which are different from Demi but, the fact that she is willing to speak out about all of this makes me so extremely happy because these are topics that need to be talked about!

[fitwithkimber]

Getting to Know Me.

Welcome to FitwithKimber!

Approximately a year ago I decided it was time to wake up and take control of my life. Meaning it was time to stop dwelling on the past and live for the present and future.

My story begins when sadly both of my parents passed away at the tail end of 2018 one tragic the other heartbreaking. This caused so much greif I had no clue what I was going to do next, and with the start of 2019 coming I was a complete mess. All I ever did was gett high or just never leave my bed when I didn’t have too. I couldn’t really function properly when I was sober and it was to the point I honestly did not want to be alive anymore. I ended up getting into a relationship with a man who was a really amazing guy but.. wrong timing and with where my mind was at I destoryed the relationship along with myself. Why you ask? because, I couldn’t be happy both parents died I didn’t deserve it, I didn’t deserve this amzing guy.. this life we were building or anything. I felt like a hollowshell everyday, managed to emotionally destroy the guy I was with and pushed away every other caring human being out of my life so I could just disappear. Until, someone came at the right time to stop the ultimate decision of... ending my life.

I was done, broken, I could not see a way out. But, you were there, you held on to the promise you made my father. You are my family and you kept your word, you made me see that there was still people who want me around and that even though I’m drowning in the deepest part of my mind, there is still someone willing to go in find me, grab my hand, and pull me out. So thank you. I can’t really begin to explain the amount of graditude I have towards you, as it is unending, I am so blessed to have you in my life as one of my closest firends. 

Some time after my lowest point I began to realize I gained weight, my eating habits were terrible, and I was just simply unhappy with myself. Which honestly was the moment I realized that “if I want to become someone who can help other, I need to be able to help myself first.” 

So with that I started my personal growth journey which inculdes my passion for fitness and living a healthy life style, along with learning to fall in love with myself; flaws and all. I am still currently working towards mentally accepting myself for who I am as an indiviual but, I can surely tell you I am proud of my accomplishments thus far, and I am so much more pumped up to see where my decision lead me. Along with finally being confident enough to finally speak out about everything that I have been through mentally and emotionally.

Which I guess finally brings us to now, I am finally stepping into a new chapter of my life and I could not be more thankful! Closing the door on all of my past stuff, all of my negative shit because I am done with all the negativity and all the hate that this world gives and I want to create a space, a brand, a moventment, a way of living that just lets you be whoever you want to be, because that’s the type of world I want to live in. 

That’s all for now Queens xoxo