Orientation Play sideblog for @harley-holding-back
Hiiiii I'm Harley, AKA Alyx. Bigender/genderqueer, amab, top, switch. In the context of this kink I'm a man who uses He/Him. Outside this kink it's more complicated, and I also use She/Her (more elaboration on my gender below the cut)
Made this blog to slightly contain the Orientation Play posting from my main blog, though this may end up being more active lol.
Hard kinks present - Minors Do Not interact
PfP credit: GiftOfGarce
Asks and DM's are always open and I Love to show off, though I would prefer if you look over the rest of this post even briefly.
Kinks you can expect to see here include: CnC, Orientation Play, Breeding, Hypnosis, Sadism/Masochism, and occasional themes of misgendering and misogyny.
You may also occasionally see misgendering/detrans and misogyny. I don't engage with those ones nearly as often, but I can't say they won't come up
The rest of my kinks below the cut, but these ones are listed first as a dead-dove-don't-eat warning label that there are hard kinks here. If that's not your jam, then that's fine! But I can't say I recommend being here lmao.
Lastly before I get into the rest of it first, two disclaimers
1) ALL CONTENT IS FANTASY, AND IS BETWEEN CONSENTING ADULTS
If you don't value that distinction then just fuck off. This includes people who try to moralize kinks, people who hold genuine bigoted views, and people who willingly engage in truly non-consensual scenarios (or just don't put in the requisite effort to do cnc responsibly).
2) IF YOU COMMUNICATE A BOUNDARY I WILL RESPECT IT
I can sometimes come off a bit strong, and/or misjudge the boundaries between CnC vs genuine discomfort. This comes up especially often with the type of play I do on this blog, and when I don't know you as well. I tend to try to grab attention and come out of the gates swinging. I usually try to first gauge your blog to see how comfortable you are to those sort of cold opens. But I don't always get that right. And if I'm doing that to you, you can tell me to slow down, and I will.
now that that's out of the way, the fun stuff
Regarding My Gender:
Like I said, I'm a Guy but I'm also not a Guy? But not not a guy? A guy who's also a not-guy? not a knot guy but hell even that's negotiable.
The best terms I've found are Genderqueer, Bigender, and Gender-nonconforming. I also like the phrase "Cis* Man*" with the asterisks being used to broadly gesture at all the rest of this.
I do identify with femininity, use she/her pronouns, and love to be called feminine titles (like mommy, ma'am, or good girl). But amidst all of that I also still value and identify pretty strongly with masculinity; he/him pronouns and masculine titles (daddy, sir, or good boy) in addition to the femme sides. Arguably slightly more so? I Dunno! Hard to say!
Whether or not I'm cis and/or trans depends on what definitions you use. But, the definitions I like to use aren't mutually exclusive, so therefore I consider myself a bit of both. Maybe I'll elaborate more on this another time.
Since this is my orientation play sideblog, I'll also say that on this blog I usually default to just being a full-fledged man. There might be exceptions (esp when they're hot), but I also want to be very up front rather than potentially misleading anyone about that.
If your DNI includes men or even specifically cis men, I'll leave it up to you whether it includes me, and I'll probably err on the side of leaving a respectful distance (also ofc you can always block me)
My kinks:
GOD YES:
the ones you'll see the most often here, especially on this blog:
Orientation play (mostly dykebreaking, but acebreaking is also incredibly hot, really just anything that results in you going from uninterested to a pathetic needy mess addicted to my cock)
CnC - Paired with the above quite frequently. Also has frequent overlaps with Somnophilia and Intoxication play. Or just good old fashioned manhandling and taking you by force
Hypno/Mindbreaking/Conditioning - Hot in and of itself, but especially as a vehicle for either of the two above. I just love breaking through your any resistances you may have and emptying your brain of anything other than me.
Breeding - Again, hot in and of itself. But also it's such a primal kink that it can be another potent vehicle for any of the above.
ALSO YES:
Stuff I'm also very much into, but is less likely to be feature here
Marking, Choking, Impact Play, Worship (again very hot with hypno/mindbreaking), Exhibitionism, Gender Play¹
MAYBE:
I'm not as personally interested, but I'll play along if you ask nicely.
Faucest², Pet Play, Detrans³
HARD NO:
I don't do DNI's for kinks - if you're into any of the following you're still welcome to stay here. but do be aware you will NOT be doing any of it with me
Watersports, Scat, Age Play, Race Play, Feederism
~~ footnotes on my kinks ~~
¹ I'm most interested in/comfortable with gender play with myself as the subject. Being a bigender genderfluid "man" leaves a lot of room for exploration there. Especially in tandem with Orientation play.
² At the very least I looove titles like mommy and daddy. As for anything further....I'm actually warming up to it. I do have a few limits and would want to discuss it further before we do anything, but it's probably much more intriguing than even the others that I put at this level
³ This is one that dooooes come up a fair amount with orientation play, and I can get behind it a bit more with that angle. But otherwise like I said, I mostly enjoy gender play with myself as the subject. I'm not opposed to it, but very much worth noting that if you're NOT into detrans play then please know I'll never try to do it with you (the same goes for all of my kinks, but it just feels more important to reiterate for this one).
TITLES/ HOW I LIKE TO BE REFERRED TO:
Since I'm bigender and a switch, I'm happy with any direction you want to take to me. My only preference being that you commit to the bit. Which is to say I tend to be more so-so on neutral terms, and enjoy the ends of each spectrum (mostly in terms of gender, but also dom/sub
My go to dominant terms are Mommy/Daddy. Though I'm also perfectly comfortable with Sir/Ma'am, Master/Mistress, and Your Lord (that one especially makes my worship kink go brr)
I expect my submissive side to come up less on this blog, but if it does then I love phrases like good girl/good boy, and those can have very juicy potential to pair with gender play directed at myself, and/or orientation play for you. I also enjoy gender neutral terms for this one but mostly as derogatory/objectifying terms. Call me (and make me into) your little fucktoy, dildo, slut, or whatever other terms you feel suit me.
I've now cum with no physical stimulation just from reading your blog. I bet with a little practice I could cum just from the thought of cock in my mouth. I'm fully a lesbian but your blog does something crazy to me
What a well trained lesbian! You've conditioned yourself so well.
When you eventually break and service cock in real life, I'm sure the sensation of it penetrating you for the first time will completely shatter you.
hey. psst. that “asexual” will fuck you if you keep trying. i bet it’s even wet right now. you should check. you should ignore its feeble protests and check.
"So I, uh, I dunno what you have planned for this evening," Meredith murmured, giving Ben a sleepy-eyed smile before settling back onto the cushions of his wide, comfortable couch, "but I was thinking maybe we should just, um, y'know, stay in. I'm feeling a little too tired for dinner and a movie, y'know?" She wasn't so much surprised by the words as by the impulse behind them; Meredith remembered taking the stairs by twos to Ben's walk-up apartment, eager to meet the man all her friends insisted would make a perfect match, but now here she was slumped over on the sofa listening to the records on his vintage hi-fi and all she wanted to do was close her eyes and sleep.
She managed to resist the urge, but only slightly; her eyes were so heavy-lidded she could barely see Ben sitting down on the couch next to her, and her voice sounded slurred and sleepy when she muttered, "Besides, it's really, um, cozy in here and… and stuff." She let out a little giggle, embarrassed by her own inability to hold onto a train of thought, and even though Ben looked anything but dissatisfied at having his plans for the night ruined Meredith still felt like she needed to reassure him. "I, um, I'm not drunk or anything. I just, I… sleepy. Had a long day, I guess." She'd fully slumped into a supine position, now, one that gave Ben a pretty good look up her skirt as it rode up her pale, pillowy thighs, but she couldn't really bring herself to care.
Her eyes closed in a long, lazy blink, leaving her alone with just the soft music in her ears for a little while, and when she opened them again Meredith was vaguely surprised to notice her fingers undoing the buttons on her blouse one by one. "Sorry, I guess I just, uhh, I wanted to get… comfortable?" Something in the back of Meredith's brain turned the glib rationalization into a question, as she struggled to figure out why she felt so comfortable already and why it seemed like such a natural decision to strip out of her clothing to increase her comfort levels. But the harder she tried to think, the harder thinking became, and Meredith let out a grunt of arousal when she realized that giving up felt so incredibly good it made her pussy leak.
Ben must have understood what was happening to her, because he helped her wriggle her way out of her skirt and panties without even a word. In fact, he hadn't spoken this entire time, just favored her with nods and caresses and warm, encouraging smiles that made it even easier to relax into pleasure and follow her impulses wherever they led. "This kind of date's more my speed," she mumbled, drowsiness swallowing the end of each word, as she spread her legs and began to rub her pussy. She knew she was giving her blind date a full show, something far lewder and ruder and more demonstratively lascivious than she ever intended, but somehow it felt right with the music setting the mood.
By the time she had her first climax, Meredith's eyes were stuck tight shut, and by the time Ben's fingers joined hers she wasn't really thinking at all anymore. She managed to stammer out a sleepy, "please," when he took over the job of rubbing her pussy, but that was about it for words for the evening. Although Meredith still made plenty of noise by the time Ben was done with her.
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i lost my gold star this summer at 25 years old…i cant tell if i regret it or not. knowing it’s something i can never get back is kinda scary. i feel so embarrassed and havent told any of my friends. it was with a random guy who was 40 something, i just decided spur of the moment and matched with him and told him to come over. i felt sinking dread as soon as i sent him the address and knew it was happening. i didnt tell him i was a lesbian or had only taken plastic cock before. it was so much better….i thought girls were exaggerating. it was warm and thick and he was right on top of me pushing me down. i wanted to hate it but i couldnt. ughhh i hate this. im so stupid. i can never say im gold star again. i need to block this page but i keep coming back. if i gave you my account would you block me? ugh i know you wont. i dont even know why im sending this in. any thoughts i guess?
You could have just sent me an ask requesting that I block you - you can block anons, these days. I would have done it, too.
But that's not what you sent me, is it? You sent me an ask telling me how good it felt to have a man fuck you. How it felt so good that you couldn't make your mind resist.
It's resisting now, though. Trying to rewrite that experience into something you regret, something you're ashamed of. The part of you that wants to be a lesbian is desperate to make you forget how you felt, when it actually happened.
Is that why you want me to block you, girl? So that you can stop remembering? So that you can erase the way your body responded, and replace it with the image of yourself you used to have? So that you can try to forget that when you peeled away that gold star, there was something raw and needy underneath?
Because that I won't give you. Try to block me, if you like. You'll be back again, with your hand between your legs. Wet and remembering.
she doesn't really speak much but when she does her voice is the softest thing you've ever heard. she's got a lot of scars covering her body but dresses to cover them and says she doesn't know how she got them. she can't remember much of anything anymore. she spends her days mostly wandering the house and doing chores but occasionally you'll see her walking to the market. one time you got a glimpse down her shirt and she was flat chested with no bra and her nipples were kind of puffy
she got harassed by a group of people on her walk today. they kept calling the name of an unfamiliar boy. one of them forced a sword into her hands and told her to try swinging it, that it might help her remember. it felt awkward and heavy in her hands, and when she tried swinging it it tipped out of her grasp and landed in the dirt. she was on the verge of tears and just kept telling them she just wanted to leave, but they continued trying to lead her away. she was lucky her wife had been close by and heard the commotion, rushing over and embracing her. the group seemed scared of her, for some reason. when they got home she was told she wouldn't be allowed to leave the house alone again for a while, in case they came back. she didn't argue it at all.
mhm, though i do think there's the additional element of humiliation present even if it's not really understood by our victim. in some ways i think it's worse than simply being collared and kept as a pet, stripped of your dignity but still left with the spirit to resist, or the hope that one day you'll be free. like this none of that will exist, you're just an empty husk stripped of "you", married to the only person who could challenge your strength, the one you hated the most. and you're happy, or at least what's left of your mind is. what would your past self think upon seeing the state you're in, i wonder?
Bimbo centric forcefem is good ofc but could I suggest butch>milf forcefem. A man making a butch slowly strip away pieces of her identity. Start by growing out her hair then move onto her outfits and eventually having her sit on his lap as he "helps" her shave away her body hair until she is just a soft bodied ideal porn fantasy for men.
As a butch lesbian, my dominance and sex appeal comes a lot from my strap. That’s why I love the idea of my huge, vibrating, vainly, purple monstercock being replaced by a tiny limp pink thing by a man who wants to show me just how much power I have in the bedroom now.
Maybe he even shoves his own (real) bitchbreaker into me whilst my tiny cocklette swings pathetically below me.
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