Flam Star

Trying to find who I am, deciding if life is worth it

[flamstardust]

Major thanks to Trans-cranial Magnetic Stimulation, I’m not feeling all that bad anymore. I’m hopeful now, I really think I can get better.

[flamstardust]

I’m gonna crack my skull with the edge of a table one of these days

[kuropin]

Jax and Kinger

[flamstardust]

Currently there’s no confirmation that Jax is or isn’t trans, but at the end of the day I don’t care if people draw the character as trans or if they meme Jax as being trans, because they’re not a real person, there’s no harm in any of these jokes or artwork. But I do still kinda like the idea of him being a femboy, probably due to me being one.

[flamstardust]

Well I should admit my mistakes

[flamstardust]

I hate dreaming, because I always wake up and the reality of my life hits me like a train. Fuck this shit.

[flamstardust]

In the end. Who cares?

[flamstardust]

Currently there’s no confirmation that Jax is or isn’t trans, but at the end of the day I don’t care if people draw the character as trans or if they meme Jax as being trans, because they’re not a real person, there’s no harm in any of these jokes or artwork. But I do still kinda like the idea of him being a femboy, probably due to me being one.

[flamstardust]

The Amazing Digital Circus the last act sucked, all it did was help with my suicidal thoughts and queer related struggles

[flamstardust]

The Triple Baka over the sea

[flamstardust]

Shoutout to my psychologist who, after I explained I can easily sleep 12 hours she immediately understood it’s outside of my control and not a conscious choice and that yes I have tried using alarms and such.

[aropride]

ppl w heds and other disabilities that cause hypermobility like that are so brave bc “what if i stretch wrong and dislocate a shoulder” is something my anxiety disorder makes up to torment me and is also why my best friend had surgery a few years ago

[flamstardust]

I kinda just wanna sleep and never wake up

[flamstardust]

Someone has to get this

[flamstardust]

Non binary people are so cool

[flamstardust]

Lebanon, Ohio, 2014

The only girl I've ever loved

Was born with flowers in her heart

But then they destroyed her life

From coming out until she died

With just the cold air in her mind

And days before every town

Wanted to burn hate churches down

Now she's a lady up in space

Flying like a phoenix after flames

Between Venus and the Sun

All sing to say my dream has come

But now we must pick up every piece

Of the life she would’ve loved

Just to keep ourselves

At least enough to carry on

And now we ride this circus wheel

With our siblings wrapped in white

Some of them loved being alive

But were put on a comet's flame

And won't be coming back again

The Earth looks better from a star

That's right above from where you are

They didn't mean to make you cry

With sparks that ring and bullets fly

On empty rings around our hearts

The world just screams or falls with laughs

But now we must pick up every piece

Of the life they would’ve loved

Just to keep ourselves

At least enough to carry on

And here's where your brothers sleep

And here is where your siblings found home

Indentions in the sheets

Where their bodies once moved but don't move anymore

And it's so sad to see the world agree

That they'd rather see their eyes reflect headlights

All when I'd want no more than to see them smile