Emotion Sickness

I’m upset and I need to vent. // 28yr old enby // DID, TBI’s, PTSD, c-PTSD, Psychosis, Bipolar, AuDHD.

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Edited for the 3497th time -

***NOTE: I CANNOT DONATE ANYTHING RIGHT NOW. I have no income. ALL ASKS AND TAGS WILL BE BLOCKED. I’M SORRY. I HAVE TO HELP MYSELF FIRST BEFORE I HELP ANYONE ELSE. I CANNOT HELP YOU. PLEASE STOP ASKING. YES MY HEART BREAKS FOR YOU BUT I CANNOT HELP.

** in addition to above, I have now been diagnosed with a neurological disorder called myelopathy that basically feels like I’m having stroke symptoms all the time. So if I say or post something weird, please have some patience with me.

Traumagenic DID system of about 20 members. Anti-endo. I don’t exclusively post about DID - the topics include but are not limited to drug use, SI, queerness, trauma, disability, neurodivergence, activism, addiction, and various mental shit. I don’t condone SH or ED’s but sometimes I need to vent.

Sideblogs:

@bloodredrage - side blog for Adrian, 21, persecutor/protector

@sadscaredboy - side blog for Eddie, 14, trauma-holder

@autistic-archivist - side blog for all things TMA

@diary-of-a-dream - side blog for documenting my most notable dreams

@the-arms-of-malice - side blog for when my eating disorder acts up

(I do also have a side blog for hornyposting but I am keeping that 100% separate from this one lmao)

ONCE AGAIN: ALL ASKS FOR MONEY WILL BE BLOCKED. I WOULD HELP YOU IF I COULD.

[mothkisserx]

[im-in-your-mind]

[b-0-ngripper]

[animentality]

[expee]

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Chase the morning

Yield for nothing

[batsandboba]

“scientists don’t want you know” is a phrase that always cracks me up because if you actually meet a scientist they will be shaking and crying like an overstimulated chihuahua with the need to let you know

[anxietyproblem]

[yume-no-land]

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[gaccari]

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I WANT TO DIE

I WANT TO DIE

I WANT TO DIE

I WANT TO DIE

I WANT TO DIE

I WANT TO DIE

I WANT TO DIE SO BADLY

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I would literally check myself into a hospital right now if they allowed me to vape

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I don’t know how much longer I can do this

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I can’t stand it I can’t stand it I can’t stand it I can’t stand it i can’t stand it

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I can’t stand being alone

I’ve already been talking to people for most of the day

I started a movie around 1pm and I haven’t finished it

Please, I just want to sleep

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It wasn’t even that bad - for me, at least

But I can’t shake off the weight pulling on my shoulders. At my chest

I thought dog-sitting, getting away from everything, was going to help

But I can’t stand being alone

I’m in so much pain, I’m so drunk, I’ve barely eaten

I’ve told the story to people so many times as of now

Why can’t I get over it??