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[flawsome-darling]

Damn boy, i just want to go home after this visa ends.

[flawsome-darling]

you unfriended me..i felt a sense of relief thinking i wouldn't need to do that now. i was about to delete our picture, i can't. it seems like i still cant delete 6 years of my life.

that's almost a quarter of my life, you can't blame me.

[flawsome-darling]

we stopped talking, so i'm sending a message i know you will never receive.

[flawsome-darling]

bakit tanginang ang saket pa rin? bakit ako nalang lagi nasasaktan? bakit ako nalang lagi nanlalamig yung kamay? bakit ako nalang lagi ang sumasakit ang dibdib?

putangina naman o. kelan naman ako magiging okay?

[flawsome-darling]

I dreamt of you today..and i must admit it stings to know that you have someone new now.

[flawsome-darling]

let me tell you a story;

a story of how..  how she lost all the walls she built,    and  how she lost herself.   once upon a time, she fell in love.

-the end-

[flawsome-darling]

fck

[flawsome-darling]

tonight, i begged him to give me strength.

to give me strength to finally let you go because he has been giving me all the reasons to let go but this forsaken daughter loves so hard like the Almighty Father. Despite all the reasons to let go, I always find my way back to you.

but not tonight, because tonight i begged him to give me strength to finally let you go as you do not know how to love me the way I should be loved.

I do not deserve this, thus, i begged him to give me strength to leave this sinkhole.

[flawsome-darling]

After all the hardwork, I can now have a lil saturday and sunday off for me. :( i fvcking deserve this.

[flawsome-darling]

no darling, wake up. this ain't fairy tale. no one's gonna wake you up with a kiss coz you're gonna wake up alone and sad.

[flawsome-darling]

let's manifest. lahat ng linuha mo ngayon, balang araw ang kapalit niyan yung saya. magiging masaya ka rin. darating din yung time na totoo na yung ngiti sa mukha mo. gagaan na rin yung puso mo. balang araw...

[flawsome-darling]

Im so fvcking pathetic. i know it's done, long time gone. but what can I do? fvck. we grew up. and i know that it will never be the same. we grew up and we cant go back to the time when everything's okay. we greew up and we cant be the same anymore. we grew up and at the same time grew apart...

im shattered and beyond repair. maybe you are. maybe you are not. but one thing is for sure, i will never be okay with you giving mr all this shit when i deserved more. i deserved more than what you gave me...the bare minimum. i hate to say this, but you loved me not just how i deserved to be love.

im out here broken for all the things you made me feel.

[flawsome-darling]

one of the hardest thing im doing right now is dealing with people with a smile or giggle even when im in a lot of pain...

wanting to cry.. wanting to scream..but i can't because no one knows and i'm supposed to be okay.

[flawsome-darling]

how can you even face me without feeling sht about yourself? you really lost it, yeah? how much hurt could u inflict in me? you know what to do by now, but why? how much more pain you can give me? You are an idiot.

[flawsome-darling]

even if it's hard, you will still find a reason to finish it coz you're happy doing it.

[flawsome-darling]

this user just wants to take a break and breathe.

[flawsome-darling]

nothing beats the sadness you'll feel on your first birthday overseas. everything is different. it just feels sad...

[flawsome-darling]

and this is me asking, was it the right choice to move here in AU when i've got everything figured out already in the Phil?

i had a good job.

i could hang out with my friends every weekend.

i could spend my days with my dogs.

now? i don't have any of those things. i hope it would be worth it in the end.