being trapped in such a place made of more unknowns and incognita than actual tangible answers for him to hold onto and consult, with no way to properly access the ope ope no mi outside of one or two techniques at best and his haki completely unresponsive to his pleas was something he could deal with —stressful but manageable, comparable somehow to a fight with seastone latched 'pon his wrists, for surgeon of death already had the misfortune of being all too knowledgeable of survival arts long before heartshaped fruit of desire oh so intrinsically hated by all - seas had received his bite within cold lands of endless snow, back when everything burned and ached and was oh so ready to loom over and claim his life the moment little hands would've lost their grasp on that given, fleeting morsel of hope.
not that he needed to actually move within the arrangements and guidelines of strict survival, really —whoever ruled with the lives of the many dragged within island's confine and played along as if they were but puppets and toys at their all - observing disposal for sure didn't seem to want them struggle that much or be in excessive distress to make their fun unenjoyable somehow, granting them roofs 'bove their heads and sources of income that somehow didn't involve any pillaging or activities more attuned to a pirate's ungrateful existence.
and yet, even if being merely a doctor was but a dream at home and a reality within those limited and overly observed confines, without being able to at least assess the condition of his crew it all seemed to just amplify tenfold —the sleeplessness, hunger barely hanging there as a routinely habit rather than a proper need, worries increasing just alongside pictorials of worst case scenarios having too much glee in reminding themselves of their presence to hold onto whatever still remained of his poor, shattered heart as if it hadn't been long broken and scattered across all four blues enough.
( he could only hope —just like back then, within swallow island's infinite snowscapes painted in red by fratricide's blood and his own screams, he could only cling to hope. )
alas hope was of no use when things such as this happened regardless of this being someplace akin to environment under cautious monitoring and control or the unruly, chaotic seas with its waves and magnetic irruences and hungry beasts and hungrier sailors who made of seafaring their life and purpose and freedom —teeth gritting at sudden threat made of a shoulder being grabbed and collar of yellow shirt, disgruntled groan off rosegold lips and gaze of dull oldcoin gold daring to roll in mockery of grimace. " oi, what the fuck is wrong with you ?! " last time he checked ghost of old flevance wasn't back within groves of sabaody nor he was in the presence of that redhaired idiot who loved to play invincible behind layers of overly elaborate metal, nothing he couldn't easily flick away with a simple hue of TAKT. " i've always had this hat, what are you talking a— "
eyes of ore darting back to assailant's only to widen in sudden and yet oh so painful shock, his own heart surely reaching a standstill because it couldn't be, it just couldn't be real, it had to be some sort of trick from uppermost echelons of that wretched rock surrounded by unsailable seas —it had to be a fucking nightmare.
" ... is this some kind of joke. "