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“I hope you find someone who knows how to love you when you are sad.”

— Nikita Gill

i have a talent for loneliness, i would be alone in a crowd. but it is entirely my fault.

i run from embrace and hide from people's warmth because everytime i've had it before it has been stolen from me and i will be left on the floor, broken and bloody. again.

i shut down and keep them out but still silently demand that they see me. i want them to push back when i tell them no and fight me to stay because how else can i be sure that with me is where they want to remain.

all the while, there is a little girl sat alone on the floor, cold and alone, in need of hand to guide her back to a home she has never known.

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mcrbabyboy

idk if quiet bpd is actually a thing lmao i dont rly care but learning abt it made me think that maybe the doctor that diagnosed me w BPD wasnt too far off bc thats exactly how i act, i never ever go off on people. i people please to manipulate others into liking me. i refuse to be honest about my emotions because my emotions are my own burden and itd be fucked up to expect other people to have to deal with them. typical impulsively (lots of random sex, over spending, self harm etc), i leave only the most sublte indicators of my intense emotions for my fp to find and magically come to the conclusion to ask me whats wrong, just so that i can play it off like "oh, no, im perfectly fine, always." and when he doesnt ask me whats wrong i just take it as a sign that he does not care and hate myself for it. its all calculated and manipulative and i am a very evil person who wants everyone to think they are a good person

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Still growing.

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Still learning

borderline-fine

*one minor thing happens*

My bpd brain: overreact <3

borderlinereminders

One thing I often hear when talking about mindfulness is people mentioning that they can’t be mindful because they can’t do the focused breathing or focus on their bodies. This is really valid. I’m the same way. That sort of mindfulness actually freaks me out.

But I want to talk about mindfulness a bit more because there are other ways to be mindful that are just as valid and may be helpful to you if the above does not work for you.

Here are some ideas:

Petting an animal or stuffy mindfully. Take notice of the texture. And if it’s a live animal, take note of any behaviour or reactions.

Make or order a food you really love and pay special attention to the smell and appearance. Take note of the taste and texture of each bite.

Go for a walk and notice the sights around you, and listen to nature sounds. Maybe you hear birds chirping or dogs barking. Realy list.

Colour in a colouring book, or do your own drawing/painting. Really focus on what you’re creating. This can be a very mindful activitiy.

Please feel free to share other examples of mindfulness that work for you!

bloodyl1ps

this post hasn't left my mind since i've first saw it

langagedesfleurss

You ever be so hurt and mad by someone that you switch off all emotions for ✨survival mode✨ and can’t figure out how to turn them back on? So you experience days of disassociation where you feel like what you do doesn’t even matter? Or just me?