I've been skirting around this issue for days. I was thinking about it for the longest time actually.
It's really breaking my heart to say and I don't even know how to organize my thoughts and say it properly.
But I am here to state that I'm going to quit role playing all together.
This isn't me throwing in a towel or just "hey I'm going to make a new muse" the way I've been doing for years now but to actually stop completely.
I know it's really sudden, and out of the blue, and I'm really really sorry. There are so many of you I feel I am disappointing by saying this, or if not I still know you guys are the very best to have put up with me for so long and still do and yet here I am dropping out from tumblr nearly completely.
I just can't keep up anymore. I just spent the past couple of days NOT logging in to Rapunzel because I've been so tired from work and stressed that all I wanted to do was crawl into bed and sleep. And it didn't help that I felt a little down and rping didn't feel like the pick me up I needed.
Don't think you guys are stress or doing replies is a burden but it's because you're all so amazing that I sit and think "how can I reply that will match what they've written?" Even smaller replies were becoming more difficult to do.
But this isn't the reason I need to stop doing this. As my birthday draws near, I was slowly coming to a realization that there are things I should be doing that I've been putting off. Story ideas I wanted to write and a magazine project I wanted to get off the ground. I need to get out and lose some weight, I need to get myself out a rut I keep putting myself under because I keep putting myself down about so much and I feel that role playing is me just kicking it to the side only for it to return when I log out for the night.
I know I am going to miss this so much though - I'll get the desire to log in again, to see how everyone is doing. Please kick me off if I do this.
I'll still be available on skype (inuloveskago) if you guys wanna chat about things.
I'm really going to miss everyone, I'm going to miss role playing as my muses and just role playing in general. All the friendships I've made here were wonderful, whether we only talked for a little bit, didn't talk anymore or only talk sometimes.
Don't ever forget that you're wonderful okay? Please - even if I'm not around, you're all the very best and I'll miss you.
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