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Rest in peace Kenpachiro Satstuma (1947-2023)

Since godzilla minus one is having a huge impact all over the world, I thought I'd make a tribute to one of the amazing actors/stuntman who worked on the godzilla saga.

Kenpachiro Satstuma wore the suit from 1984 to 1995 during the Heisei Era. Many fans got introduced to godzilla thanks to his work. He also worked during the 70's as antagonists kaijus. I got into the godzilla saga when i was 8 yo thanks to godzilla vs destroyah (1995) and many others. Kenpachiro 's work means a lot to me since it's part of my childhood. If you are curious feel free to learn more about him and see how difficult it can be to wear these heavy suits.

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A lot clicked for me when my mom said the reason she was so reactive towards me as a kid was that she assumed intent behind things I did, rather than recognizing my behaviors for being normal kid behaviors or normal autism behaviors. So I got treated as if I was an adult who was intentionally doing things to upset her. She'd react to me like I had the maturity and wherewithal to do things in a cruel or manipulative way, making her life harder, when I was just existing. Just trying to learn how to cope and be a person myself. When she told me this I stopped in my tracks trying to process. Why would anyone's default assumption be that a kid is trying to antagonize them instead of like, struggling with something they're experiencing? But she was also raised the exact same way, treated like everything she did carried the weight of adult responsibility, not seen as a kid.

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You're just a mammal. Let yourself act like it. Your brain needs enrichment. Your body needs rest. You feel hunger and grow hair. You need to pack bond with other sentient things so you don't become unsocialized and neurotic. You are biologically inclined to seek dopamine and become sick when chronically stressed. "Hedonism" is made up to place moral value on taking pleasure in sensory experiences. I am telling you that if you don't let yourself be a fucking mammal, as you were made, you will suffer and go insane. No grindset no diets no trying to be above your drive for connection. Pursue what makes you feel good and practice radial rejection of the constructs meant to turn you into a machine. You're a mammal.

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I am so serious about the way people are taught to view themselves as separate from and above any other animal being the root cause of a lot of problems. You're not better than a beast.