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Her Billy

Yes, there were guns in the house, But thats normal. Right? The neighbours had one too. The neighbours might make that kind of mistake, But her Billy would never do such a thing. It took a while before they realised what was happening, in the hallway right outside the classroom. Because no one saw it coming, And because she didn't report the missing gun the the police. No need, her Billy would never do such a thing. He is gone now, in fear of being locked away. Of never seeing day light again. He wont hurt anymore, but not before hurting so many. He wasn't okay, she didnt know. And when the police arrived to talk to her she cried, because she didnt understand. Didnt they know, her Billy would never to such a thing?

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The preacher

So this hasn’t anything to do with this blog but i really wanted to share the story.

Today I went to this church and i had never been there before so i chatted a bit with this guy that worked there and he told us why the inside of the church looks a bit weird. So right now they have this young female preacher, but around the 1960s it was a guy, wel actually a couple, and one of them was an architect and wanted to redo the entire church so he kind of just flipped it 180°.

So in the 60s there was a gay preacher in an protestant church and apparently everyone just went with it and i think that’s quite awesome.

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So i tested the twinmarkers and here’s the result. The drawing is inspired by Vexx because I’ve wanted to do something like what he does for a while now and because of the many colours he uses it was perfect to test the markers with.

Like I thought, they are a lot like the touch markers I own, but for the people that are not familiar with either of them I’ll break my prosses down.

I started with the Polaroid. I figured out that, to get a solid colour, you should use at least two layers and also work very quick because it dries quite quick. This layering means you will always end up with a bit darker colour than expected. Also at first i tried the broad tip, which didn’t seem to work that well but after seeing how streaky the fine tip turned out i tried it again and this time it worked better and I figured out you can work quite accurate and small with the broad one by using the tip. For the camera i didn’t do any special shading except for layering a bit in the lens, which only really works if you wait till the first layer is completely dry.

Next i worked on the bottle. I tried to blend there but the markers didn’t really allow it. It might have to do with the fact that the markers dont have a brush tip, but trying to blend causes a lot of muddyness and no smooth gradient. After figuring this out i kept mostly to the cell shading I’m used to, which worked just fine.

For the flower i tried the colourless blender, which worked surprisingly well. It faded the light purple very well and made it a lot lighter and with a bit extra work i was able to make it look like a nice fade. The dark purple was an after thought and I went a little too far with it, but it still seemed to work with the other purple and the white.

For the eraser on the pencil I used a really nice pink and shaded it with a darker one, but this second one (89) turned out a lot brighter than on my chart. I hoped it would dry lighter but when this didnt happen I went over it with another one, this didn’t make it entirely invisible but did make it a little less bright.

For the background i was gonna use a very bright red but changed my mind and used a very deep and dark one instead. I got a little sloppy with it and its the only colour i accidentally spilled outside its lines. I used the colourless blender trick in an attempt to clean it up, which helped to make it lighter but didn’t make it completely disappear.

I added the colours on the tops to comparison to the ones i used on paper, a lot of colours are a lot brighter than expected, thats why I suggest to make a chart of all the colours and their numbers to pick your colours from, instead of by just checking the top.

So a summary of what I think about these markers: They are quite a good quality compared to their price. They have quite some colours and even if you don’t own many you can still make a lot because in one 24 piece package there are a lot of different colours but still enough of the same to do some shading. Also i forgot to mention before, but i bought two sets and there wasn’t any overlap so that’s pretty awesome too. Blending isn’t really possible and they don’t have a brush tip, but this is understandable since they’re this cheap. I think they’re great for starting artists with small budgets and also work really well as an affordable gift for artsy people.

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So i found those twinmarkers for like 7 euro’s a box and i couldn’t not take them. So i love the fact that they are this cheap, so starting artist can use them to practice.

I haven’t used them myself yet, but the names that go together with numbers match the names and numbers on my touch marker so i guess they’re from the same manufacturer.

When i got them they were ordered very randomly so i fixed that and also i checked all the colours. As you can see with the orange, some colours dont match their tops.

Also there was a random extra top for 1, idk what went wrong there.

Anyways, i orderened them and I’ll test them tomorrow. I’ll probably post about that too.

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Let’s talk about 13 Reasons Why

I know I’m a little late to join the conversation, but I really want to share my view on this topic.

Don’t get me wrong, I do not hate 13 Reasons Why. I actually quite enjoyed watching it! I was just a little... disappointed.

Why? First of all, I hated the lack of depression and/or other mental illnesses. That might sound odd, but a lot of people who don’t know a lot about this subject and watch the show will blame bullying and assault for Hannah’s death. They won’t realize she has other problems like depression and/or a personality disorder, since this isn’t discussed once in either the book and the series. I think the fact that they left this out is strange, how do you want to start a conversation about suicide if you ignore it’s #1 reason?

Another thing is the impact such a thing like leaving tapes can have on the people that have to listen. It works for the show and the book, but when such a thing as blaming other people for a suicide becomes a thing in real life it might ruin a lot of lives. In the series it’s shown that, because of the tapes, two people almost tried to kil themselves and one actually did. 

I believe this might actually happen in real life, which brings me to my next point: imitators. When someone is already contemplating suicide and see 13 Reasons Why, I totally get they try to imitate it. The show makes it seem like this sort of perfect revenge! When I was working on a first version of this “rant” a few months back, I literally wrote: I would not be surprised if the show causes a couple suicidal people to end their life and leave tapes, letters or whatever, trying to get revenge from the people that hurt them. And now there have been multiple cases in which exactly this has happened. Good job, Netflix!

Also the fact that they showed the suicide, even though psychologists advised them not to bothers me a lot. Especially since in the book Hannah didn’t slit her wrists but took pills. If they had just followed this it would’ve caused a lot less uproar.

I have a whole list of complaints left, but the most important one I want to share is the second season. The only reason a lot of people tolerated the show is because of “the message”, but the fact that there’s going to be another season, that isn’t based on anything since the book stops after the tapes, gives me the feeling that the makers don’t give a shit about the message and just want to make money. 

But as I said at the very beginning, the show isn’t all bad. There are a lot of positive things about it, like the fact that it started discussion about topics that aren’t talked about enough and also exposed real flaws in our school system. 

I think 13 Reasons Why missed the mark on a couple of things, but if you’re watching it in the right state of mind it can be very educational and makes you think about important and relevant topics. Thank you for reading.