ASad Losers Art Blog

He/ Him, 20 Y/o, Beck/Jules

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Hey! I’m just a guy on the internet

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#my art -> it’s my art!

#left handed -> drawn with my non dominant hand

#right handed -> drawn with my dominant hand reblogs @syndromesponysona

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I think Elliot Page should be allowed to kill people

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Messy artfight attack for mootie @fml666proh8rxd !!! :3

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MREOWWWWWW HIAIIIII!!! I LOVE IT SM HE FITS UR STYLE RLY WELL!Q IM HAPPY TO HEAR U HEAD FUN DRAWING IT!Q U. AN KIND OF TELL W THE FLOWYNESS OF IT <333E ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Ezra

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Lore accurate redraw for artfight (my user is Awesomepup btw)

Inspired by @j1998v banner… thank you once again

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I have 250 attacks on af

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TW internalized racism, body dysmorphia

Recently I have been feeling extremely ugly. I’m basically the opposite of what you expect from a conventionally attractive face by western or even East Asian standards, a group I’m apart of. I have a long face, small eyes small lips and a large nose that sit awkwardly on my face. Sometimes I feel like I look monstrous from how strange and ugly I look compared to the “norm”.

I saw a post today comparing the average East Asian “mid” girl to ta western “mid” girl, the former fitting into East Asian beauty standards and the latter being conventionally “average”. Idk why but at first this post made me feel really bad, since I looked nothing like that. I looked so much worse than her which made me feel almost invisible, since I had considered myself to be average for so long. So now who was I?? Did I even exist in the eyes of this post maker?? Or am I just an ugly Asian woman?? Was it better to be ugly than to not exist??? BUT THEN I realized this post implied that most East Asian women live up to these beauty standards in order to be “average”, while western women don’t have to. Also like it feels extremely fetishy and weird to cherry pick a specific look of Asian and label that as desirable/avwrage? Tbh I think this is apart of a larger issue where like in the dominant western culture, East Asian women are only recognized if they meet a certain criteria of beauty.

Ok then I thought abt my friends who are East Asian women and realize that most of us do NOT look like the beauty standard. Today I looked on Pinterest for specifically East Asian women who did not fit the beauty standard, and I was so shocked to find they literally were faces that I was used to seeing in real life. Like these are the faces of my parents, my friends, randos on the steeet.. I realized and that the traits that I thought made me look “monstrous” were literally just common East Asian traits- rounder, flatter faces, smaller looking eyes and larger noses. I literally spent my entire life thinking I was ugly as fuck but then realized that it’s just cuz of internalized racism and weird western culture. I actually wanna like, appareaciate typical Asian faces now cuz I feel like our features are so far away from standard western beauty yet like idk, they are really pretty we are just brainwashed.

also ps I don’t identify as a woman but I spent most of my life in a woman’s body so yeah

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Sketchy ppl

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Getting tested for bipolar disorder soon 💀

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Oc

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Everything I know abt TADC has been against my will god make it stop

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I feel so disgusting

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I feel like everything is meaningless lol like why do I eat food why do I go out idk it feels like a circle of nothingness if I’m not productive I feel like I just want to not do anything

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I hate myself man why did I have to be so ugly

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Attack from today tw, body horror

Oc in the right corner by @/plantify, sock ocs by @/monsterkart on af

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Cool song listen to it

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lol I’m super sleep deprived today and I thought smells like teen spirit was called welcome to the teenage fever??? Lmfao